Reflection.

I've been an Earthling for about 20 years. During the train journey back home, I began to think about my life. I began to ponder. Have I live a life worth looking back?

My childhood years, I remembered was fun filled! Especially those times that I always get to stay at home with my mommy and my brother. So many fond memories. I was still a timid and shy girl who will hide behind my parents whenever there were strangers. Only had a true friend then who was my brother. Haa. The one I've spent my life with for 19 years.

During primary school, I studied hard but didn't put in my best effort. I didn't care how heavy I weigh and all I did was to eat and eat. Not till I was being put in the TAF program but that never deterred me either. I was careless, always forgetting to being my things and also never check through my work. I was given an opportunity to have some leadership roles. I was a prefect but an ordinary one. I was a party planner, a class representative and also a class monitor. I didn't excel for my PSLE but I did manage to get into express stream. I was very fortunate to have parents who will send and fetch me to and from school and not having to take public transportation.

Secondary school life has been the most memorable chapter of my life. First time being in a girls class does added some spice to my dull teenage years. We had lots of fun during the first 2 years. Joined Girls' Brigade and that changes my life totally. I had expereinced stuff which I had never before and also learnt a lot of things which had mould me who I am today! My mentors, Lydia Tan, Chiew Pei San, Goh Xiao Ling, Yieh Yoke Hiong, Pastor Daniel, Deacon Johnathon, Terence and Huiyi, these are the people whom I wish to express my gratitude. I had also learnt a lot from my cell group members, ROWLIES. Not forgetting my times in Church of Singapore (Bt Timah). I had known a lot about God through the church.

Attended Jurong Junior College for further studies. I regretted not putting in my best effort during the 2 years but nevertheless I had gained a lot during those times too. Simply love my classmates. I could say that 02S4 should be the most united class comparing to the first 3 classess with the same subject combination. We shared many joys throughout the years. And I grew to become more mature and know that looks is important in this society. Began to watch what I eat and the way I dress. Moving on, I became and officer and served in 19th Company. The first batch of girls whom we had recruited should have graduated from Unity Secondary. I sincerely wish them all the best. And as I look back, I do regret leaving the company and not growing with the girls. I do hope they have learnt something good during my time with them. Do miss them especially when I get to see them once in a while.

I began my university life but I wasted my time away during the first year. I played a fool and know nothing else but to enjoy myself. This is one thing that I most regret in my life. I gave up serving in companies and chose to be in the Drill Committee. Even with the minimum involvement, I didn't put in my best in serving God in this area. The most, MOST regretting thing in my life.

I looked at people with opinions of them already in my mind. I did not do things with my bestest abilities and effort. I did not faithfully serve God and spend time communicating from Him. I did not treat my loved ones with lots of love, care and concern. I am a empty vessel who has not been filled for almost 20 years of my life!

There are many regrets but I can't always looked back and do nothing to my future and my present.

A brand new me, I hope. Give me some time, I am determined.

I am very blessed to have my family. My husband-to-be. My bestest buddies and pals. My friends. To be loved by all of you is truly a blessing for me!