Butterflies.

Ah! They are all flying around in my stomach! Ants crawling on the hot pot!? Ha. Sorry if you don't understand. Hee. It is a direct translation! I am getting my results soon. Wonder if I will be able to pass all and move on! Sigh. Sian!

Had a great time with Jen, Ying, Carinne, Wen today! Went to makan Ramen Ramen! It has been donkey weeks since we the 5 of us actually got together! Sisters forever, yeah!? Hee.. Had fun with you ladies this evening and hope we'll hang out more often after my sch reopens k? Hugz!

Had Baileys' gelato a week ago @ PS! It was super yummy! Not because it was actually the first time I tried it, but the reason behind the sweetness and joy of eating it is due to the person who had actually ate with me! He's none other but my most beloved husband-to-be! =) We really have got telepathy. Don't believe? Try us! =)

"I am glad that I'm Christopher Lee because I am parent's son. They gave me life and I must make the best use of it."
-Christopher Lee

All that I am.

Phew. Was so busy yesterday! Mom fell ill.. She had a toothache and I brought her to see a dentist as well! Think that pain was so unbearable that mommy has no choice but got to visit the most terrifying place of all in this planet! My heart aches to see my mom suffering like this! Got Yawling (thank you so much!) to help me stand in for the P&D rehearsal. Wanted to take good care of my mom while I still can. No one knows what is going to happen the next moment? I may get hit by a car then "poof", I'm gone! Treasure every minute and second you have with your love ones..

All that I am, all that I have...
I lay them down before you, oh Lord..

=) God has been good to me! He has answered every of my prayer request, keeping my family safe and sound. Prayed for all my friends as well and they are leading a fruitful and meaningful life.. Thank you Father!

Haa. There have been comments made about me recently. Something which I would like to share with everyone.. It's relatively easy to lose weight if you have got the determination and discipline to abstain from all those yummy food (which are usually high in calories and fats!). Eating right is important. If you are hungry, why not replace those tidbits with fruits and healthy snacks instead? Drink enough water, about 8 glasses per day! Eat 2 servings of fruits and vegetables. Have a good breakfast! Go for a jog if you can afford that time, say on your rest days or something? Walk from the MRT station and skip those comfy bus journies..

Here comes the more difficult part! Maintaining the "ideal" (wonder what it's bracketed? Haa.. Cos women are never satisfied with their weight! That goes the same for me!) weight is another tiring and stringent task that one has to accomplish. Hee.. Don't think you have lost weight and you can start eating anything you want again! Cos that will make you even fatter than before! Yup! Hee..

To put it simply - Losing weight is easy.. Maintaining it is hard! It requries lots of mental power to do so!

Sigh! So will I be able to maintain it? I doubt so. Muahahaa..

HOT!

AHHHHH.. I simply can't stand the heat!! It's so steamy hot in my room! Shux! I better have a good cold bath. Tata~!

Cyber abuse.

Was reading this news article on the Straits Times today and can relate so much to it. Flaming, making derogatory comments. Ha. I confessed I had done it before. I was fuming mad at that point of time as that girl had done something extrememly upsetting to my bestest buddy! I couldn't curb that anger and started tagging in her blog! Ha, but that hideous couple most deserved it! Sigh. Well..

Sigh.. Life is as such.. Nothing much to look forward to. I also had a taste of my own medicine. People used psedounym and false persona and spammed my tagboard, typing string of letters which I could only decode some parts. Silly me! I actually went to try to make some sense out of it! Ha. I was so free at work then that I had got really nothing better to do! Oh well. To side track a bit, my work assignment is ending soon! Horray! Miss school so much and much and much and.. erm.. Haa.. K.. Shall spare you alright?

Actually indifference makes a difference. Next time, if anyone hurls insults on you but has kept his anonyminity, ignore! Doesn't matter who they are or what they say.. Life is short! Enjoy while you can.. Selective hearing helps a lot! =)

嘿!

Saw some unknown symbols and have no idea what I am typing!? Ha. Cos it's in chinese! Kindly use a language converter if you want to know what it is about!

意想不到吧？我竟然会用华文来打出这一份ｅｎｔｒｙ！不过有时候还是会用英文来ｂｌｏｇ　ｗｏｒ！　
时间过得可真是快。转眼间我即将要回访校园了。那种心情是你所想像不到的！真得好想会去读书！

Okie! I give up! Haa.. I really suck at Chinese language! Wonder how I ever managed to score a A2 back in Secondary school days! Sigh. Hee..

God has been good to me! Am blessed by Him. Thank you Lord!

Oh I simply adore this blogskin! Hee. Butterflies. Dark. Sexy baby. Oopz. Haa..

Countless.

A lot of times, I've been feeling down and depressed. No one seems to know what is bugging me. Not even my confidate, Bester, whom I always share my life happenings with. No one knows as I don't share. Feeling doown, drilling right through to the deep soil of the Earth.

Thoughts running through my mind as I took my usual jog route. Have been thinking about my future plans that will kind of determine the life I am going to lead for my next LIFE chapter. Sigh. Feel so meaningless to always have to conform to the worldly views and thoughts. I should live the life I want! I want it badly. I need freedom. I need to breathe. Give me a break.

Exam results is going to be released soon. Will I be able to make it through the next and last lap of my uni life? Stay tuned to find out!

Meanwhile, would like to take this opporunity to apologise to my dar. Sorry for the highs and lows. I am hitting the bottom of the wave right now.

Laggard.

Ha. That is a Marketing term. Used to describe new product adopters who are always the last to try out "new products". "New" doesn't necessarily mean "NEW" but refers to something which the person has never tried before. Erm.. Ignore me if you can't get what I am saying! I miss school terribly and can't wait to start mugging again! And this time round, I won't even make a sound about how tough schooling is because it is definitely much easier than slogging in the society.

I am losing my passion. My confidence. Is it that I have done a lousy job that no one trust in me anymore? I am afraid that one day, I will not be serving Him in any ways. The reason that I still stayed on was because I want to give back a little to that much He has given for me.

Have so much to blog. So much that I want to share with all my friends. =) Lots of emotions that I felt. Especially after catching "Click" last night with Bester hubby... I feel that I haven't done enough for my family. All those "what if.." scenes have actually flashed through my mind, and I have even cried, fearing that one day.. I will not be able to see my parents again..

Friends out there.. do treasure all your love ones.. Not only your family members but also your close friends.. Don't treat anyone like an enemy but love them like your neighbour.. Don't set your goals as just about the earthly pleasures.. Think far and make your life meaningful in whatever ways you can.

I really hope to say this to you in person.. Hang on! You can do it..

Shattered. You have broken her heart.

Sigh.

400th.

Yup! Tat is the number of entries for my blog! Congrats! Haa.. Duh! Dumb.

As you all can see, well unless you care no less about my blog, I have changed my blogskin! Yeah. Hee.. Am trying to improve on it but can't seem to find the correct codes to make it into something which I LOVE! Hee.. It's alright. Am trying to find nicer ones.

Sigh. Weekend has ended. Back to work.

Time flies...

It's the time of the year again! Yeah! It's our nation's 41st birthday!!! Happy Birthday, Singapore! Sigh. Missed NDP days when I had so much fun with my girls at the parades... Miss ya too Amanda mei.. And so many of you whom I've gotten to know from the contingent!

I was the actual contingent commander in Year 2004.. And that was the time I just got to know Sylvester and we had started our relationship a month ago.. And now, we've been together for 2 years plus and I really enjoyed my days with him! He never fails to cheer me up.. He's my sunshine..

Recently, God has spoken so much to me. He has also helped me a lot! Really love the Lord and am amazed at how He works in my life. His plan for me, I've yet to know. Whether I should go back is another big question mark (?).

Right now, my ultimate target would be on my First Class Honors Degree and get myself a job. Would want to let my parents lead a carefree life and not to worry about financial issues again! =) I can support the family and be the sole breadwinner.

Had a great time with my didi and daddy and mommy last Wednesday! Went Bedok to have "Bar Chor Mee". Yummy! And the satay tasted so good that I just can't help to stop munching. Sigh. That goes my diet routine. Haa. But the main thing is I had spent quality time with my family members which I hope to have at least a few times a week in the many more years to come!

Jen, Ying and Sherine are back from Bangkok! Dear Jen has bought a top, belt and a pair of shoes for me! Thank you so much buddy! Just what I needed especially school is going to reopen in another month's time! Hee.. Heard from Jen that they had actually met Ms Ngiam at Bangkok Airpot on they journey back to Singapore and they are boarding the same flight! A small world isn't it? Hee..

It's a world of laughter.. A world of fears...

I fear no one but the Almighty one..

Fainted.

Oh my gosh! Haha.. What I wrote in the previous blog was to comment on the reality of today's world! I would like to reassure everyone that I have never done any modifications to myself. My nose was already crooked when I was born and I didn't realise it until Bester told me about it! Hee.. I am who I am. Everything is real okie? Want to do a check? Haa. Syl won't allow you touch me though!

Working life is really sucky. I don't know how I can survive for another 1 month! But everything has been going quite smoothly for me. Argh. A tingling sensation. Butterflies in my stomach. Ha. Exam results going to be released before 4 September. I have to pay school fees by then! Shux. I am quite broke now. What to do? I really regretted not studying hard for my A levels. Spent my time away enjoying my college life! Sigh. Feeling kinda down right now!

I will work hard when the new school term starts. First class honors, wait till I get you alrite?

So much.

I haven't been blogging for the past week and have so much to share! Is that MUCH!!! And I really feel like blogging. Life is totally bored and I wonder how working people can actually stand having to work 5 or even 6 days a week! Do you know how expensive food and transportation is when you work? No idea!? Try working for 5 days and you already can feel the pinch. ha. I'm speaking from a full time student point of view. I prefer to be a kid. A child. And the most of all, a student. Not much social stuff which you will need to handle compared to the working society! Shux.

Sigh. Tell you people something about me alright? Everything on my body is fake. Yeah. Have been for a plastic surgery. You all believe it? And I had a close shave with death when I did my liposuction. Ha. Funny yeah? Had a nose job but now it's still crooked. Laugh all you want. What in the world is it now turning into? Sociologists, where are you people? Why can't you all seem to find an answer to why the society view "beauty" = "slim"!? Try to change their way of thinking!! Shux! What's wrong with this society that girls have to be slim!? I am having a hard time trying to meet up with the standard. Perhaps I shouldn't forced myself because it is of no use!? I'm borned ugly. Yeah. Whatever.

So much. My blog title. I miss my dar dar and my family the most during office hours. I will strategise such that I am able to spend as little time as I can in the office. Sigh. I really hate going to work. Especially when there aren't anything for me to look forward to! Arghz. Come on. Companies, please treat your temp staff better. They are your employees as well. Heard of organisational justice!? When an employee feels he/she is unfairly treated, it's not going to do any good to your company! Yeah! WAKE UP!!! They are human beings too.

Work burnout. Diet burnout. I am totally burnout.

Worse. I miss him. I miss God.

Mom falls sick. Praying for her. Please help me keep her in prayers too! Brother going to be enlisted soon. I am going to miss him. Daddy has been good but keep him safe and sound when he is outside. Bester has been stressed out at work! God, I pray that your wisdom be with him always. Jenny, Ying and Sherine are at Bangkok. Lord please grant them journey mercy. Praying for all my friends and love ones!

Sigh. Burnt.