~Commissioning ball~

The first formal dinner that I've attended with the smartest and a guy that I'm most proud of, my bf, Sylvester. 2LT Swee Sylvester finally gradauted from OCS and had this celebration with his friends on the 23rd October. During the dinner, I saw the video of how he had suffered during the 9 months course. But jus wanna let him know that, I'm really proud of him that he has showed determination to endure thru all the hardships during the course. *salutes*

Went to the hotel ballroom. Everyone was well dressed. Each of us is special and pretty or handsome.. hahaa.. took some photographs with Syl (will be out on 14th Nov) Dunno how it will turn out to be.. hehee.. hopefully it's nice... I was so so so so nervous throughout the whole dinner... Cos haven't been to such a posh and class place le.. hehee.. Mustn't throw his face in front of his friends wor! Yupz yupz... When the dinner is coming to and end, I felt so tired le.. hehee..must be the few trips in heels from the table to toilet that makes me feel that way? hahaa.. hehee.. Syl said I looked exceptionally pretty that night.. hehee.. I also tot so. hahaa.. diaoz...

The food tasted so nice... (cost about 90 bucks per person?) especially the beef... WoW!! It's really really really really really nice!!!! hahahahaa.. Simply love it.. hehee.. and the cheesecake tasted delicious too! heheee.. After eating so much.. I'm feeling a bit guilty.. back to my dieting again.. If not I'm gonna look fat and no one wants me le!!! haahhaaa.. hmmmz.. Did I mention there's dessert buffet? hehehee... but again we didn't eat much... The red wine was good... white wine not bad.. hehee..but taste so alcohol.. hahaaa... Syl was dragged to drink beer with his friends... then we went back home le...

Things happened... Time may heal...

guess who she is? hmmmz...

saturday!

I'm getting all excited and nervous about this coming saturday.. heheee.. yeah!!!

n...

Heehehee.. or yah.. all my ex-colleagues were saying that I've slimmed down a lot! heheee.. hahaa.. hmmz.. but personally I dun think I've slimmed down a lot lah.. maybe jus a little bit lor! heheee.. yeah..

Went back to the childcare...

hehee.. Yupz.. went back to help out today... Saw Shirleen.. n she told me she's pregnant.. Congrats!!! hehee.. This year should be a booming baby year huh.. heard quite many of my friends are having babies.. hehee.. yup yup.. Aww.. n nowadays when I see babies.. How I hope I can have one of my own.. but.. too young lah.. hahaa.. must wait at least like when I'm 24 or older... hehee.. yup yup..

okie..back to the childcare kids.. hehee. they are so so so so so cute! They still remember me as Jasmine jie jie.. hehee.. the way they come running after you and giving you a hug.. your heart will just melt! hehee.. yeah.. Grace still remembered me.. Jovan (the youngest kid) too! awww... I felt like crying manz... They have grown a lot bigger now.. Especially Jovan and Ethan.. hahaa... But Ethan still so blur blur one.. always give you the blur look... Elson is getting less naughty nowadays... But Preena is still as playful as ever... Sean still quite sticky.. hahaa..he always like to stick around me..Hannah looks so sweet... n there are many many more kids whom I haven't mention...

the big kids too remember me.. hehee.. well.. Luckily never go back to teach them.. if not I'll vomit blood!!! Yes.. hehee.. they are a terror!!!! Dun believe? Try teaching them for a day lah! Your blood will boil within the first hour.. hahaa.. Javen hasn't been coming... never see Seng Oon also.. hmmmz... hehehee...

To all O levels takers.. wish ya all the best.. dun be nervous about anything.. Jus put in your best... N i'm sure when you get back your results.. you won't be that disappointed! Jia you jia you...

I'm getting all stressed up... hehee.. studies.. projects.. commissioning ball which is this coming sat.. my relationship with daddy n mommy.. Father... little piglet.. wen, ying, carinne, jen... so many things in my mind... Haiz haiz... Jia you bah Jas..

wOOoooO.. where have I gone to?

Okie okie.. hahaa... All of you must be wondering where have I gone to? Like msg me in msn nobody reply.. then send me email also never reply that kind of thing? hehee... It's not that I dun wanna reply... sometimes, I'm not the one using the computer!!! yeah... My brother will use it on my "behalf" you see.. hahaaa... yupz..

Hmmm... This saturday will be the commissioning ball!!!! I'm so so so so so so so so so excited about it. The most touching thingie... Little piglet bought another gown for me! heheee.. yeah! N it's so costly.. Have to try to sell away the other gown that I have. Anybody wanna buy gowns? Especially those with prom nites or graduation nites? hehee.. It's golden in colour.. M size.. nice nice... never wear b4... cost price is $146.. I'm now selling @ $110. Anybody? Please ask around! thank you...

Oh yah.. by the way... to those who are scouting for gowns and asseccories... I would highly recommend the shop, "Perfect in Black". But your budget must set at a higher amt.. yeah.. It's quite ex.. hahahaa... Okie.. heheee... Oh yah.. You will never get the chance to wear the same gown as others.. because.. It's the only shop in Singapore! hahaa... N the sales gal will ask about the event... n she remembers each customer which event that they will be having... so dun worry alrite! heheee...

Hahhaaa... Anyway... I bought this gown.. N the sales gal said that it was worn b4 by the Ms Singapore Universe this year.. hahaa.. oOOOooooOO... hehee.. Are u ppl waiting to see me in that gown too? hahahaa... Lucky little piglet... he got to see it first.. hehehee... next will be his parents... and my parents... then Jenny, Wen, Carinne, YinG! heheee... I'm so so excited!!!! yeah.. hahaa...

Make sure that I dun throw little piglet's face this saturday! hehee... Must be pretty pretty! hehee.. yeah.. Wish me good luck..

Not in a good mood..

Not in a good mood... Not in a good mood.... Not in a good mood..... Not in a good mood...... Not in a good mood....... Not in a good mood........ Not in a good mood......... NOT IN A GOOD MOOD..........

Food poisoning?

Oh no.. I've been feeling nausea after eating that tau pau... Drink hot milo doesn't seem to help in making feel not to vomit.. Help help!!!! See later got become merlion or not... haiz.. if yes then I'll have to go to see a doc liao!!!

POB test...

hehee.. dead... actually wanna wake up @ 2am to study for the test.. but who knows? I woke up at 5.15am... N started to panic! hahaa... how m I going to study for the test... Well... luckily I did listen to Ms Koh during lectures... so dun think I will fail that badly I hope? hahaa....

Yu Han jus msg me... He said he tot he saw me in SIM.. hahaa... yup.. I'm in SIM... kekeee... Life is so sianz..

Bad mood..

Human beings are emotional creatures. They can feel happy, sad, irritated, embarrassed..etc... When someone is in a bad mood, I can sense. N if I do care about that person, I will bother to ask. I will try to cheer that person up. I will do all things to help that person if it's within my means.. But I too will be affected by the moods that other people have. Cos I'm a emotional person myself too... I want others to be happy..even thought if it means I'm still sad or disappointed or angry or anything.... I want to bring happiness and not disappointment. I want to bring laughter and not tears... I'm tired.. I'm going to sleep... And kind souls to wake me up @ 2am to continue study for the test?

Now is windy...

The weather now is perfectly fine.. to go for a jog... It's like going to rain soon that kind... But daddy said no.. Well.. I was very angry with him at first... But I realised what he did was for my own good. He didn't want me to get skin cancer at such young age. Actually whatever he does, it shows that he cares for us... but not in those caring way lah.. as in he'll scold and stuff...

Haiz... I'm now waiting... Waiting the day that I can get of sch and start working... I dun like school life...

Will be typing the minutes soon... Tml got POB test.. which I haven't really studied for it... I'm so dead.. 3 chapters.. How m I going to squeez all those info rite into my mind!? Arghz..

Little piglet reported to his new camp today.. Hope everything turns out fine for him..

Take care everyone... Misses all of you.. Rowlies.. Haven't forgotten anyone of you.. For those taking Ns n Os.. will be praying for u gals... Misses Drill com ppl... yupz.. Misses my 4 best pals... Ying, Jen, Ning, Wen! God bless all of you!!!!

What?

Cramps... more cramps!!! I felt so terrible this morning... and of all the lectures, it's Dr Phil's !!! Arhgz.. Maths.. Hate it! I drank hot milk tea.. Doesn't seem to help in easing the pain... I massage but the pain came back in a while.. First 2 days! Haiz.. Imgaine.. it's like a leaking old tap. Yucks...

Then my best friend has got this problem.. but I can't seem to help much.. Think I'm like making her even more confused than to be clearer of the whole picture. I felt so... I'm so lost... I think that the 5 of us are not as close as before.

I didn't go to JP by chance.. And it's not because that my friend wanted to go then I was there. I bought the medicine for sore throat. But I guess tiredness and all those heavy stuff has caused great stress... I tot..nvm...

Your beautiful smile has brought happiness to my life.
Your laughter filled up my mind.
Your care and concern warms my heart.
Your love for me I'm so glad to have.
Your words that I hear sound so sweet.
Your every facial expression I think are cute.
Your saddness and woes I want to share.

Ai qing... Qin qing... You qing... na ge bi jiao zhong yao?

Taken this pic @ Chinese Garden.. The shadow? That's mi! hahaa.. My friend has forgotten the flash..or rather the camera doesn't want her to use it... hahaaa... sad huh? Ooopz.. later kenna hit by her ah! Help!!!

Busy...

With school! Tests... Assignments... Arghz...

I'm tired... I'm sleepy... I'm hungry...

Sad, stressed, confused...

My LIfe..

When I was a baby....
I cried when I was hungry... when I needed to change diapers...When I needed attention from mommy and daddy... Do nothing but to sleep, drink milk and play with those faces whom I dunno who they were...

When I was 3 years old...
I will have to share my toys with my little brother... Give in to him everytime although most of the time he was in the wrong... Got scolding from mommy if he did something bad... And he jus followed mi everywhere I go... Used to go Ah ma's house... Mommy would bring us to the MRT station.. thanks to the bus 333 service... (same no as my blk...)

When I was 6 years old...
Enough of those ABC songs... It's time for me to start my 6 years of primary school education... Cried on the first day of school because I couldn't see mommy and daddy around when I was having classes with these 39 strangers... Have to brush teeth with this red tumbler and toothbrush without toothpaste!!! Imagine that... Then it was this biscuit thingie.. with animals' faces on it.. Cos only like 10 cents per packet.. Yummy...

When I was 10 year old...
Streaming... Was in the 2nd best class then... The time that we started to know what's puberty and all.. hahaa... We had this Teacher's Day party held at my house.. Got a big scolding from mommy and daddy cos they had turned my home upside down... Everyday jus play nothing but the recorder... Hehehe... Best friends then? Shengyuan, Praveena, Wei Ting, Jason who sat beside me and lots and lots...

When I was 12 years old...
PSLE... An important year for me... Was in EM2 best class... but I didn't do well for it... Screwed up a big time... The guys did just fine although they were playing soccer using a tennis ball at the basketball court? People teased each other if they found out whoever liked who... Memories remain... Sunflower big cake... Ms Asiah, Ms Lim, Mr Govin, Mrs Siva, Ms Low, Ms Hannah, Mr Yusri, Mdm Teo, Mdm Lim, Mdm Ng, Mr Loo, Ms Soh, Ms Tan, Mrs Tan, Ms Selvi... Thank you all... Friends like Hui yee.. Zhi ning.. and Cai Ting.. still remember the letter writting? We did nothing for the last month of the year but to write things about ourselves in the autography books...

When I was 13 years old...
Got into a new environment... Starting of my new chapter.. The Teengage story... Brought a big bag and carrier on the first day of school... Hang out with people like Lavania and Sherin on the first day of school... The class was exceptionally quiet... But it didn't take us long to merge as a class and started getting rowdy and all... Fun.. Mr Samuie, Ms Lim, Ms Loo, Mr Kuna (Be moral be moral be moral!) Mrs Rajen, Ms Seow now known as Mrs Wong, Mrs Chee, Ms Tay.. Joined GB but wanted to quit on the first day... But God planned it such that I didn't quit...

When I was 14 years old...
The class was filled with laughter and all... Ms Ngiam, Mr Latiff, Mrs Ooi, Ms Jayanthi, Mdm Yang... Of course lots of unhappy events did occur... But still it's finally rain over sky green... My results was so so good... such that I got 2nd for my class for midyear... First time in the whole education history (later u'll know why.. hahaa..) Still remembered I got chosen for the Sec2 leadership training camp.. The most scary experience in my life... Nite walk, ropes course..canoeing.. Haiz.. First time I went canoeing was with Mr Jansen... So fun! He canoed with me once...hehee... Posts such as outing manager was introduced to the class... There was this encouragement corner... Days that I really miss would be this year... Had a farewell party... All of us enjoyed but we didn't forget each other when we proceed on..

When I was 16 years old...
O levels... How to pass every subject when I had been failing since Sec3... Got to know this guy and this relationship greatly affected my study performance! Mdm Yaw ( "I'm a very democratic person!") Mrs Lim, Mr Tan, Ms Jayanthi, Mrs Quek, Mr Chia, Ms Loo, Mr Jansen (my god-daddy) ... But luckily I did ok for my prelims... Got into first 3 months... O levels was okie except for that sucky C6 for my Eng.. If not my L1R5 could have been better... Ppl like Dinesh, Phyllis, Joe, Pauline, David, Firdaus, Chungweng... I won't forget them~ Also... Got the Best NCO award... but it's nothing.. Cos I couldn't earn my PBR... errr!!!

When I was 18 years old...
While everybody were enjoying... We had to stay at home and study for A levels!!! Arghz... Time flies...It seemed like yesterday that I was still enjoying a great time with my first 3 months friends... Skipping classes...doing naughty stuff.. Asking owe flat ask big question.. before I know it... It was my 6 months hols... Found a job at this montessori... It was great... Teachers whom I will always remember me... Ms Low, Mrs Low, Mr Poh, Ms Yemuna, Mdm Khoo, Ms Soh, Mr Ng, Ms Azah, Ms Wong... Haiz... Also a birthday not to forget... Had a high fever at 38.8 degrees.. Accepted Christ in year 2002, 22nd April.. Went for my BOTC... Got promoted to WO...

When I was 19 year old...
Broke up with a guy whom I'm with for 4 years... Got dumped by this guy I got to know from some night spot... It was terrible terrible terrible... I didn't live a Christ-like life then... Slowly I got back to Him... yeah... Then came the unforgettable experience of NDP! Got to know a lot of great friends and Sirs... got to know Ms Angeline, Ms Gan, Ms Li a bit better... hehee.. I shall not go into details.. Can read my previous entries in July and August to know more about it... yeah... But I'm indeed honoured to be this year's GB contingent's commander... Got to know this great guy sometime in mid June... Went out first date @ causeway... Tot he could be the one... and he's now my bf... Yesterday went for his commissioning parade! I'm so proud of him!!!! He looked so smart yesterday... N I thought he looked the smartest? hahaa.. *Salute* Permission to carry on, Sir! heehehee... God is still there for me... Thank you Father... N now I'm in SIM doing a Banking and Finance degree with UOL.. hopefully can get First Class Honors.. hehee.. yupz yupz..

And now I'm going to open another chapter of my life... the tweeTY year... Awww.. I'm going to be 19 forever rite?? yeah yeah... As long as I'm young at heart will do... A lot of responsiblities and obligations to fulfil... Haiz..