Last day of Xmas Caroling...

Sure miss those days that I'll have to go from one terminal to another.. haiz.. the last performance was good.. although there was no piano.. we sang rather well.. yupz! But me forgetting a few parts here n there... it's a no no.. hahahahaa....

things happened yesterday... missed the meet up with my drill com ppl... sorry gals..

A disappointing xmas gift...

yups.... bought something that my dear dear was so disappointed... I'm sorry lingz...

there r like so many ideas.... well.. decided on that.. cos I tot to buy that thing for someone mus be close enough to get it.. I didn't even send this to my dad or bro b4..

well... i guess it's so so disappointing... cos... now u're not even talking to me...

jus wanna say i'm sorry..... will get u another one...

shux! I'm still having that stupid headache.. good nitez ppl..

Merry Christmas!!!!!

Yupz ppl... Merry Xmas n a Happy New Year!!!!!

Ouch.. : )

I'm now @ piglet's house..

yup.. I'm now @ his house.. I'm naughty today.. made my hubby so angry.. I'm sorry dear! Forgive me? Please.. I'll change what u dun like about me... but pls dun ignore me...

It's Christmas eve?

wow.. yup yup... It's xmas!!! N in another 12 hours.. I'll be saying merry xmas!!! hahahhaa.. alrite alrite.. thinking a bit too far already rite? hahahhaa...

well.. xmas eve isn't exactly that joyous for me.. Jus felt so stressed up... had my fringe trimmed but it looks so sucky now!!! I want back my fringe... Yesterday was even a bad day for me.. @ least for me I would think so... The rest of u may think that mine is jus a small matter.. yupz.. nvm lah.. here's a place for me to write my hearts out rite? hahahhaa...

Busy day.. went to sch.. came back home.. went IMM n get those BBQ stuff... went back home.. was so tired after that... evening went for that stupid hair trim... went to meet syl.. but forgotten to bring my ezlink card... wanted to buy the farecard but dun have enough coins.. went to a lady and she had this smirk look.. n shaked her head... then went to another lady but she doesn't have? then how u provide change to your customers!?? went to buy bread so that I can have some coins.... 10 cent dropped onto the floor.. by then I was already on the verge of tears...

I know that guys dun like their gf to pull a long face in front of them! I'm sorry I did that last nite and this morning... I jus need a shoulder to cry on.. someone that I can pour to... a listening ear is all I needed... I didn't expect u to cheer me up or anything... nothing of that I want... There's something wrong with my hearing I know!!! I also know that it's so irritating when ppl can't hear you and keep huh huh huh huh... Sorry... I didn't mean to!! Sometimes ppl are like talking so fast.. and their low voice.. it's hard to catch what they are saying.. especially when I'm thinking of something... It's equally irritating when someone talked to you or asked ya questions and u dun answer.. sometimes ppl did that to me too...

On my walk to Semb MRT.. got this stupid idiot, a malay, cycled past and said," wah..so big!" shux!!!! Hated it.. I cried... B4 that I was already full of stress... why do ppl wanna tease me!? Wanted to give Jenny a call.. but will she find me irritating.. make it seemed as if only got problems then I'll go to her... yes.. I dun want my buddies to have that idea! I mean I haven't been spending enough time with them... So who do I go to pour out all my problems? tell piglet? I would want to...

I dun listen to ppl.. I'm stubborn! U think what u say what u do is always rite, Jasmine? Who do u think you are!??? What I can't do dun expect others to fulfil them too... Jasmine wake up!!!!!!!!!! I'm already veri awake.. jus feeling tired.. no strength.. veri sianz.. What's life?

God created me in His image.. I know... He sent me down for a purpose.. I know that too.. God! U there rite? What do u wan me to do? Serve my friends? My parents?

M i rude? Sorry.. Father in heaven.. sorry... Syl.. sorry... Jenny..sorry... Carinne..sorry... Pei Ying..sorry.. Jing Wen...sorry.... rowlies... sorry... my parents, my brother..sorry sorry... drill com ppl...sorry sorry sorry... to all ppl I know.. I'm sorry if I've irritated in a way or another...

Sorry sorry sorry sorry!!! SORRY PPL!!!!!!

Okie.. from now on.. I'll smile!! Come on!!! u can do it!!!! yeahz.... haiz..

hmmmz... Xmas!

time really flies... I mean I was still a young little gal... then gradauted from pri sch.. next thing I know was that I've already finished my secondary sch education.. Not only that.. I had proceeded on to uni from A levels... oh manz! N now I'm gonna turn 20m twenTY next year!? no more teenage years for me.... boo hoo hoo... what a piece of saddening news... hate it..

Haiz.. Xmas... I guess most of us have already forgotten the true meaning of Xmas.. it's not about partying.. busy shopping for gifts.. not about exchanging presents with one another only.. It's about spreading God's love to everyone... n not only to those whom we know... It can be to a completely stranger... haiz... Xmas..

Haiz... Xmas caroling.. I'm gonna miss those times that we had... hehehe... think we should make it like a yearly thingie? hahaha.. yupz!!!

miss all my friends...

to those who are reading my blog.. Merry Christmas!!!

I dream...

okie ppl.. I'm not talking about the song.. hahahaa.. I dreamt about something last nite.. yupz.. n it felt quite real... Ri you shou si ye you shou meng.. hahaha.. yupz! Guess I must be thinking about that matter so much till I dreamt about it @ nite.. so here goes...

first I dreamt I was in my wedding gown.. getting ready to go in for the wedding banquet.. then a thought came to me... oh dear... who's the bridegroom? then we went in the place but found out that not many ppl were inside.. (@ this point of time I still didn't know who's the bridegroom..) But the feeling of walking down the red carpet was like so real? hahaha...

okie.. then we went in for the 2nd time and this time round I found out that it's some other guy and not syl... I freaked out.. that guy is a dentist cos he was saying that he can't stand my breath? hahaha... I told him that I can't be with him either! Cos I only wanna be with my piglet.. Syl.. hehee.. N I ran away..

hehehee... I guess on my actual wedding day, I would be crying and crying and crying... cos I'll be so touched.. well.. wait till that day comes and we shall see... hehehee...

Life is short.. u'll never know what happen next....

If I were to die tml... this is what I'll write on the day b4...

To my parents: Thank you for bring me up.. It took so much effort and pain and of course $$ to bring my n brother up rite? I've never told u all this... I LOVE both of you... sorry for always making u all worried for me... and also me always bring not much happiness but anger and saddness... @ times when I flare up, u'll jus bear with it... and let me be... whatever i want.. i would get it... thank u daddy and mommy... thank u...

To my brother: hey brother.. it's really fated tat we can be siblings huh? hehehee.. dun always make daddy and mommy angry le lah... spend less also.... your money now is still mommy's and daddy's one.. u know??? Take good care of them!!! understand!?

To my four buddies: @ times whem I'm low.. the first few ppl that I think of will be all of you... yeah... I wanted to give u ppl a call.. but i'm afraid.. afraid tat u all may think that I'm not a good friend.. cos when u gals have trouble or wat.. I'm always not that.. that's why... that's why i didn't tell u all my problems n everything.. jus wanna tell u ppl, that all of u are great buddies of mine... I love u gals...

To all friends that I know: thank u all so much!

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hahaha... I guess if i would have to finish it... the next day would have come.. yupz... hahaha.. dead by then...

Why?

As we grow older and older, we have more problems coming in... We'll have different emotions.. and we r supposed to know how to handle it cos we're tot to be more mature than before... But different people have got different ways to vent their fustrations... Some scream, some choose to just keep mum about it... some will sing their hearts out...and many many other ways... as for me? I choose to cry... I cry when I'm sad, feeling down.. when I'm stressed... when I'm lost and confused... when I'm in pain... when I'm disappointed... when I'm happy...

People see me as a bubbly gal.. smiling... always trying to crack lame jokes to make ppl laugh... But deep within me... I know sometimes that I dun feel really good but I've got to hide it... I'm that kind of person who doesn't want others to be sad because I m... I tot I was good to my friends... but I think I wasn't.. I tried to be nice all the time... but maybe to them isn't nice enough.. cos most of us may think that they are also nice to us but we are not appreciating it...

Why? Why can't I be a bear and start hibernating.. so that I won't know what's happening around me... Why can't I be like a baby and be doted on by many people? Why is there so much problems when there isn't anything about it?

Well... it's all part of growing up... I guess....

Qi...

Qi? hehehee... Means angry in chinese... Well.. I dunno what happened to me this whole morning... Boarded bus 61... N it was still quite early.. about 8.26am... but I reached sch @ 8.55am.... Yes! Massive traffic jam!!!! Arghz.. no point walking so fast..catching an early bus but kenna caught in a jam! my poor feet... blisters burst... put plasters but of no use!

Stats lecture.. Not so bad until he started teaching us on estimators! arghz.. dun even know what he's trying to say!!!! But the xmas present that he gave to us was nice... A stack of summary notes on each topic.. and all the formula(s) - I know it isnt spelt like that.. hehehe... - that we have learnt from stats! hehehee.. Save me quite a lot of job to copy down those formula(s)... Think I better start memorising those that I need to remember.. If not it will be too late next time round! I wonder how I manage to do it when I was in Sec3 and 4...

After lesson, I went to JE... but the waiting time for the bus, 66, was far far far far far far too long!! It's like I've missed so many 961, 61, 67, 157, etc... wOw!!!! N I was like in super bad mood already.. Okie. Finally it came... but there was this old man who kept looking in my direction.. I was like going to yell @ him already... "please look to your front and stop looking around!!!!!" well... I didn't.. Manage to cool myself down.. but the qi is over flowing by now! Reached my throat already!!!!! arghz...

but got to help these guys who wanna go Escape themepark... think they are tourists.. were asking me if they can pay cash or buy the ez link card from the bus driver or not!

N here I m.. writing my blog... Jus finished doing something.. oh ya! My brother turned 18 today!!! woR.. haha.. Happy Birthday bro..if u're reading my blog.. but I doubt so! yeahz.. hahahaa... Wish ya all the best in everything u do dude..

Ppl aren't blogging much nowadays.. Nothing to write about? hehehee... This friday.. 8.45pm @ Rasa Sentosa Resort... yeah.. : ) hehehe...

As usual...

okie.. Tuesday dun have to go to sch... Actually have got a consultation in the evning.. but I'll be working so won't be attending it.. hehehe... It's econs!! that's why... nahz.. hahaha...

came back home this morning... check email.. then went for a jog! hehehee... it has been quite some time since I last go jogging... I'll try to wake up every morning to go for an half an hour jog! I'm putting quite a bit of weight nowadays! arghz... yup yupz! Bathed Lucky and as usual.. she was so scared that she went hiding in her travelling kennel.. hehehe... Had to pull her out...

I'll try to keep myself as busy as possible... yeah... later going to write the christmas cards.. buy xmas presents.. n later working... after working hopefully can make a trip down or orchard.. hahaha. yupz! hehehe.. Wanna do some shopping! hehehee.. or should I go tml? nahz! hehehe..

Christmas Caroling~!!!!

yupz... Went to Changi airport... not just terminal 1.. but terminal 2... and it's not only one trip to both the terminals... it's thru and fro.. thru and fro... and... the best part is? we're in the transit lounge!!!! yeah!!!! hehehee.. first time? I mean without having to board a train.. erm i mean a plane.. I got to be inside... okie.. I've never been overseas... so I didn't know how everything works n stuff... but anywayz.. i was super super excited about it... Except for one thing... I dun think I wanna wear heels the next time round I sing.... It's a torture.. especially when u got to walk from one terminal..catch the sky train... and proceed to another terminal...

Back to the caroling part... We screwed up.. a big time.. in the beginning... hahhaa.. I mean what could go wrong did go... hahaa.. didn't start the song together.. or rather... we didn't know where to start!~ hahahhaa.. sang out of tune.. not smiling.. well well well.. haiz.. hahaha.. Got to practise a lot.. but the last 2 was a lot better.. yeah.. we manage to get the hang of it.. Perhaps it has been quite some time since we last perform on the stage.. so we may have a little stage fright!? hahahaa... hey.. but it was fun fun fun... Especially when u have audience listening to u.. and they are enjoying themselves as they sing together with us!!!! yeah... THere's this lady.. and jap guy.. wOw.. they seem so interested when we were singing.. thanks to them.. n the rest who have heard us today.. that makes today's performance a bit successful? hahhaa.. I think we totally enjoyed ourselves!!! Thanks u gals!! n guy!

Of course not forgetting my lao gong.. poor him.. got to run here and there with us.. although he didn't sing.. but he was there to give me support.. and I appreciated it totally.. thank u dear!!!! And now he's having a stomache n I can't help much.. useless me!! Arghz... can't wait for next friday's caroling @ Rasa Sentosa Hotel.. yupz.. for those who wanna give us your support.. do make your way down there!!! hehehee.. n listen to us sing!!! come on babies.. hahahaa

A stressful day... PMS! arghz...

yeah.. actually since yesterday? I was already having the PMS symptoms.. I mean I got irritated and agitated easily.. and my mood was like super unstable.. I mean I can be laughing and smiling @ one point of time, and be complaining and nagging at another.. arghz. Jus can't take it anymore... This morning.. I cried! Yes.. I cried.. I can't take it any more!!! I couldn't control my own emotions.. I cried... I know it's ridiculous.. Cos I'm already 19 and should be handling this quite well by now.. but!!! I can't... Sometimes, I do think that I'm a failure.. a total failure that is!!! I hate it.. Simply hate it..

Piglet was soooo GOOD to me.. I accompanied him to his camp this morning.. took a cab from his house... N when we're going to reach his camp, I couldn't take it any longer... I cried.. rite in front of him.. like a small baby... And he was like quite taken aback to see me in that state.. N took half day urgent leave! To keep me accompany.. yeah... as u all have guessed.. I didn't attend my lecture... Skipped it.. arghz.. anywayz.. I was so blessed to have him, the special one to be around.. When I'm like feeling so down and low... I really thank him for all he has done for me.. Putting up with me.. Cheering me up! Thank u ling.. Thank u so so so so so much!

He took me to watch the movie, National Treasure.. I totally enjoyed the whole show! It was terrific... awesome!!! N b4 that, we took a photo and the machine will print it out... but in oil paint effect.. It's like veri nice lor!! I'm gonna frame it up and put it up in my room... I simply love it! yeahz...

Getting all excited about Xmas... All those presents that I'm going to give and receive.. wOOOooooOOO.. hahaha... haiz... can't seem to find the present that i wanna get for ling.. hehehe..

oh yah! Tml will be the caroling performance thingie! woooOOOOoowEEeeeEEE... I'm getting so excited about it!!!

alrite.. Think I'm feeling all tired and sleepy by now.... I should turn in.. good nite everyone..

Tuesday morning..

It's tuesday and as usual I do not have to go to school... Woke up in the morning and got to see piglet ZzzZzZZz-ing away.. hahaha.. Guess he was quite tired due to his work in camp... hmmmz... anywayz.. prepared breakfast for him.. Just cerals.. yeah.. but hopefully he's full after eating the honey stars and the kokocrunch.. hehehe.... Sent him to work this morning... He's the conducting officer for the IPPT.. so must set a good example.. reached camp @ 6.45..

Plan to go jogging later on... The weather is cool and wet... So now waiting for the rain to kind of like stop a little... After typing this blog, I'm gonna kunz for a while... woke up way too early this morning.. hehhee... feeling a bit sleepy... hehehehe...

Good morning.. Good morning.. Nice to see you smiling face... Good morning.. Good morning.. to you and to you.. Harlow teachers harlow friends.. Harlow teachers harlow friends.. Good morning.. Good morning... To you and to you...

Learnt the above song from the childcare! hehehe.. okie ppl.. My eyes are too heavy le.. Got to sleep.. Good 'nite'!!!!

I'll be going for a holiday! hahaa..

nahz! No lah... will be spending a nite @ one of my buddies house tonite... yeah!!! It has been a super duper duper long time since the 5 of us met and catch up with one another! fwahz.. Really miss those days that we'll always use to stay out.. or go shopping together and stuff... Miss them a lot..

Saw khoon yesteday on the bus... hehehee.. she hasn't changed a bit.. saw the Rowl tee.. nicely done!!! Good job rowlies! hehehee...miss you gals lots too.. I know those mission trip troopers will be back this sunday... Sorry.. I've got something on already... Though I would very much want to come and fetch u ppl from the airport.. take care take care!!!!

hmmmz.. Attended the veri first carolling practice last nite... It's really fun!!!! hahha.. Lotsa laughter... trying to learn to sing unfamiliar songs.. hahahaa.. There was a confusion when we sang the "then" whether it should be the or dee... yupz! hahhaa.. hahhaa.. but it's fun, all in all.. :)