MIA

Missing in action. Read between the lines please. It's "Missing" in action! yeah. Get what I mean? If you don't, read on.

19th Coy gals... Hey girls.. exams just round the corner. Study hard... and play hard... AFTER the exams alrite? haha.. Wonder if anyone of them is reading my blog...

Rowlies... Yeah... Know that I've been missing in action. But just want to let you all know that you have all been missed by me.

NDP practices... Missed a quite a few practices due to my lessons. Hopefully everything went of fine. And ex-NDP gals, sorry for missing the gathering the other day. Hope u gals had lots of fun! Miss u people too...

Drill Committee... Haven't seen them for a long time! Wonder how they have been... Hey ladies, if u're reading this, do know that I miss u people okie!

SIM sch mates... Hey, haven't seen you peeps for quite some time.. Alrite, may not be long... Just wanna wish you people all the best for your examinations!

My four bestest buddies... Missing you darlings. Haiz. Those days that we used to hang out every now and then. Memorable! How's life? We may be all busy with our own stuff, but our friendship will last... Rite? Catch up with all of you after m my death sentence yeah? haha.

Mommy, Daddy, brother.. Miss dining out with you dearies... yupz!

How can I not miss my little baobao... who's busy at the moment. haha. Miss him to the max!

erm... Guess I'm quite a bad "shooter" isn't it? Miss so many things and people!

Yawnz...

Just woke up from an afternoon nap! Was so sleepy just now... Dozed off immediately after my head touched the pillow. Wow. Slept quite late last night. Went to watch the movie "infection". Not too bad. Was quite scary in a sense. Quite gruesome... eekz..

*music plays on* *yawnz* Still feeling kinda tired. Lucky is barking... wonder what makes her so fed up. ha.

Okie. Contact lenses too dry. Gotta take them out. Arghz. They have been inside since yesterday morning? Oppz. Should I go for tomorrow's lesson? Haiz. Still thinking...

Exam in one week's timE! Come on Jasmine!!

Yikes!

Exams in another week's time and I seem to be pretty cool about it! Oh dear, what to do? Think I'm going to flunk my Econs and AF... I hate these 2 subjects. Hai.

Looking for a job. Bank account is shrinking every day. Money can be earned back and that's what I believe in. As long as I try to contorl my spending habits, I think I'll do just fine. And hopefully, I can save up a sum of money too.

For now I got to think like I'm already working in the society. I'm learning because it will help my in my work. Ha. Self delusion? Nah! Just trying to get myself studying. Got to study day and night. Without entertainment and enjoyment. If I don't suffer now, I may suffer in future. That is no bright future for me. Arghz...

I can do it! I'm sure I can! Jia you.. getting 34 marks doesn't seem at all difficult. And I just got to try. Did I mention that my exams will be held at Expo Hall? Bad news huh? Yeah. Got to wake up really early to squeeze train with those working people. Hey, I used to say they are adults!? Ha. I've grown up.

*Thunder* Well, heard that klong klong sound but still see no sign of rain! The weather is a killer for these few days! With the heat and humidness around us, I doubt anyone of us can stand it. What's happening?

Hey, did I say I'm going to study? Yeah.. Think I did. So what am I doing here Ms Lee? erm.. ha. Books and notes, here I come!

Confidence...

Went jogging half n hour ago... I realised something...

The very fact that I can have the courage to go for the audition, stand in front of the judges to sing implies that I'm now more confident of myself and how I look like! Yeah... wanted to join other competitions back in JC time... but didn't dare to. Know why? Because I was still an ugly duckling... but now... I've become an average looking swan.. haha..

People, I'm really okie! Not that I want to become a star! I'm not into it! Yeah...

My dream now? Go through my 3 years of studies without any hiccups... Get my honours (hopefully!) and work in the society! Hehe.. and hopefully someone marries me and I can start our family... ahhh.. hahaa... If only this process can speed up a little...

Hmmz.. what's that smell? Yikes! It's from me... Better go take a bath!

Superstar

Ha. Guess what? yup... I'm out! Cos the judges didn't find my singing particulary nice. Not outstanding enough. Alrite... Anyway, here's today's account of what happened to me...

Went to Mediacorp reception at around 11 plus... Guess what? My slot is actually scheduled at 12.30pm... poor darling! Got to wait with me outside sitting on the floor... Poor him... At about 12, I went in...

Saw Quan Yifeng and Wang Jianfu... Oh boy... they are filming the whole process down.. yupz! And of all the places.. I was sitted right at the front! First row!!! Ha. Sad! It's okie...

Okie.. waited waited waited.. Finally can get to see the judges faces! Went in... Sang... Got the red light.. Disappointed... Went out.. Called dar dar... I cried... But guess what happened? The cameraman started to shoot at me! Yifeng jie sat beside me! Oh my!!! I was like.. "dar... Quan Yifeng is sitting beside me... She is!" Then I broke down into tears... Ha... They brought me to find dar dar... Yifeng jie was like consoling me! oh man! Felt so honoured... Then at the entrance... She tore down the sticker no. that's in front of my chest... Then she said..."ai yo, this shouldn't be pasted here.. Look at your assets.." "You have got quite a nice body, can be a model". Ha. Okie. I know. She's trying to console me. Dar came, we hugged and they filmed us go out...

okie. I'm disappointed. I knew I sang quite well.. Without going out of tune and everything.. But it wasn't really a bang kind of thing! Okie. It's okie.. haha.. It's really an experience!

Dar is so sweet! He bought me a bouquet of flowers.. A rose to be exact! To represent that I'm his one and only! He's such a good hubby! Really.. Love him! To the max.

Lots of emotions...

Lots of emotions rising in me...

Stressed out...

I'm going to be dead... Soon...

Clumsy

Arghz.. my table smells like tomato.. Okie! I was very clumsy.. toppled the bowl and the soup.. well you know what happen next! hahaa..

I'm actually a very clumsy and lazy bum! hahaa... alrite! time to sleep already!

God Will Move The Stone

In today's bright sunlight basking,
Leave tomorrow's cares alone -
Spoil not present joys by asking:
"Who shall roll away the stone?"
Oft, before we've faced the trial,
We have come with joy to own,
Angels have from heaven descended
And have rolled away the stone.

-Anoynomous

Communication

Hmmmz... Communication... When it comes to communicating with people.. It's really hard... Cos all of us are different. Even if the two have got similar personalities... I tell you, there's bound to be friction...

Wanna knore more about communication? Read more books on it... Search thru internet... Read magazines... Though those are guidelines, but when it comes to the real thing, it's hard to put it into practice. You may have done it for the first time but subsequently, if without constant reminders, I would think it's hard to follow the guidelines... It's just like studying, theory is always theory.. When it comes to putting into practice.. It's hard unless you keep practising it! yeah...

Ha. Imagine having the guidelines in front of you when you talk with anyone.. Guess that's one of way of reminding yourself what to do when you communicate with another person...

Helped dar dar to change his blog... yeah! hahaa..

hmmz.. kept feeling this pain in my stomach last nite.. and just now a piercing pain around my kidney area... arghz! guess I didn't drink enuff water! hahaa..

alrite.. dar dar is sayang-ing me always! so sweet of him! Thank u dar!

Saturday... All my troubles seem so far away..

hahaa... Hey ppl guess what? It's Saturday!

Alrite.. hahaa.. Do admit I feel a bit sianz but everything turn out fine for the thingie.

Surprised my dar dar.. haha.. Told him I'm still in HQ... but as a matter of fact.. I was already outside waiting for him to open the door for me! hahaa.. And he was super happy ( said by him! ) :0

Love it when we always talk on the bed, lying beside each other... It feels so nice!

Went NTUC.. missed the days that I went with his family... But feel kinda sad when his dad said that "it's veri sianz to come out with them huh.." Must be my face very sianz or what lor... oopz! sorry.. just felt a bit tired... after today's training and stuff.. yup!

oh yah the most important that I wanna say... I've printed out the Superstar registration form! Dar did that for me! with colour ink.. muahahaa.. Tot I couldn retrieve it... but guess what? I didn del the bookmark I've made in his comp! haha..

Alrite.. the next important coming rite up! I now weigh 50.2 kg!!!!!!!!!! Fwah.. hahaahahahaha!!!!!! And that is after a heavy meal!!!!! muahahahahahahaha.... I'm extremely happy ah!!!!!!!! hehehehehehehe... kekekekekekekekekeke..... muahahahahahahahahahahahah.... erm.. sorry... got a bit carried away.. mauahahahahahahahaha.... oopz...

enuff of me crapping.. dar waiting for me to watch tv! sorry to keep ya waiting baby!!! :) muackz.. love ya baby!!

A new template!

Keke. Wondering why I keep changin my template? Cos all the while I like this template the most! But the codes weren't typed in. So I took quite a long while to figure it all out! So *tada*, my new blog!

Okie. Admit that I'm trying to slack too.

Yesterday was revising my AF. Tried doing the past year questions but guess what? I didn't know how to start on any questions! Shux. Ain't I in deep trouble!? Was so scared that I quickly started readin through my notes! Right from lecture note set 1! How am I going to get 34 out of 100 to get a passing grade? yeah... To pass is getting just merely a 34 and I can't even do that!

Suddenly, I felt that number game is not suitable for me. I would prefer more writing stuff! At least you read and memorise and analyse and you just answer your question! Haiz.

Alright, I know my english is "powederful". Ha.

Hey, why am I still slacking here? Get to work pal!

Gastric Pain...

As I was driving back from HQ, had this pain in my stomach. Was extremely hungry! Too much gastric juice inside... Arghz...

Gotta start revising again!

Ha.

Was walking out of Westmall with Jenny... and this phone call came.. It was from the Mediacorps.. hmmz.. tot there was a job offering.. But guess what? It's about the Superstar thingie. Well, just joining for fun and experiences. Dun even think of me getting into the semi finals cos I can't even get thru the qualifying rounds. But wish me best of luck! hahaa..

Humans. Let's talk about them again.

Slacked. Practically I have slacked the whole day. Didn't do any revision. Perhaps later I'll read through my AF notes again. Arghz. Help!

We were on the topic - Humanz. Disappointment, saddness, joy, anger etc... Why are we filled with emotions? Without it I guess life will be quite meaningless? Yah? Are we able to forgive someone fully? Perhaps yes... Depending on our relationship with the person.

Siblings - Well, I dun blame brother for getting me into trouble. But I'll still get kind of jealous when my mother cares more about him than for me. One emotion felt - Jealousy...

Parents - Hmmz.. Nothing much... perhaps when I got nagged I'll feel very controlled... Another emotion - Irritation...

Couple - The more you love someone, if he/she does something that is really hurting, the pain may go away in time to come. But somehow, there will be a small crack in the heart somewhere. One more felt - Hurtful

Friends - If they do things that betray you, naturally we'll angry! Uh huh - Anger

The most forgivable ppl would be our parents and brother..followed by friends then spouse or your partner.. Know why? Cos he/she will be your most beloved, the person you love the most.. to the max (of course not more than loving God..) hahaa... yeah... Ppl outta... please treausure your love ones... Time is precious... Fully make use of it!

Hmmmz.. what's the matter with me? hahaa.. Well.. jus letting out some of my EMOTIONS! ha.

Customer Service...

"Due to blah blah at the moment, we will not be able to answer your phone call right now. You can call back later or visit us at blah blah blah. Or you can hold on the the phone and we will try to attend to you once the officers are available."

oh shux... Are they really on the phone talking to customers or jus refusing to answer the phone calls? It's quite sickening to hear that automated recorded voice over and over and over again... It's like how many 5 minutes have I waited!? arghz...

But on the hand, I guess they are pretty stressed up too... With answering so many enquiries per day... and sometimes getting irritating customers calling in to complain or make a big fuss out of nothing... Pity those who are in this line...

One of my best buddies had a new job... and guess what? She's in the customer service hotline officer. Heard her talking about her work scope and it's like pretty over loaded for her... well you see.. She hasn't been trained yet! yeahz... and she's assigned to answer phone calls already... Arghz... stupid boss! How can bully my friend like that? Sick!

hehee... I'm still pretty cool about my exams! Not studying much these few days! oh oh! haha... haiz...

~ Life ~

Ha. What's life? Sometimes I really feel that everything is like a dream...

Let's talk about human beings...

When others need help, most of us would go all the way out to lend them a hand... But when it comes to them who are the ones who need help... Where have all the people gone? Ha. That's life... Sad to say...

They are afraid... But in the midst of fear, do they do anything to prevent their fears from coming true? NO! okie.. I'm talking about myself... Pretty scared about my exams! But am I studying like crazy for it? Not yet! arghz... Sad huh? That goes my Second Upper.. arghz.. aim higer... @ least u won't drop that way low... well..

"They say life is like a dream, I say dream is like a life..."

guess what? Human beings are veri interesting creature.... Ha.. They said there are things that they dun like their partners to do... but what happens next? They themselves did that... and gave the same "reasons" that their partners had given them! Ha... Weird huh?

Love? Haiz... The most interesting feeling in the world.. It can make your world goes round... or turn it upside down... It's all about to you...

Ha... Sometimes, thinking too much isn't good... but if you dun think, people may again comment that we are not using our brain cells... Ha...

So... what are we here for? I mean why are we born in this world? Your life only has got meaning only if you're living for a reason, a purpose. So do you know your purpose? I'm still not so convinced about my purpose for being borned. Nevertheless, I'll try... And I hope I'll never stop trying...

Hoping? What's the point of hoping if you don't take any actions... So what are you waiting for? Do things that you hope to accomplish... Don't day dream anymore! Ha. Looks who's talking..

hmmm...

taking a break after studying a tiny weeny bit of my AF! hahaa... anywayz... jus trying to slack for a while.. yup!

Saw a quite a few of my friends for the past few days...

Know what? Simon is in Sembawang camp... a driver! hahaa... He's in the same camp as my dar dar!! haha... so qiao... he was like standing outside the camp... and I was inside the car... the more I look at him the more I think he's my friend lor..haha...

Yesterday, on my way to the MRT station.. saw Eugene! my schmate! Hey, my sch is in the west and I live in the west... but on this day... we actually met in the east! hahaa.. so funny.. then got to know that he was from the BB... 32nd company.. hahaa...

On the train, saw my old neighbour who used to stay beside me. hahaa... She has grown up man! so pretty and cute!!! awww... hahaa... but when I went to call her.. I was afraid that I might recognise the wrong person.. so my legs were kind of wobbly! haha.. oopz..

okie... think enuff of me crapping here... later gonna go rebond my hair le! haha.. yeah.. cut my hair and now has curled up! :)

A fun day @ East Coast Park...

Went ECP with my dar dar n had loads of fun!!! So here's an entry about what happened yesterday!!! hahaa..

Had this tasty and yummy breakfast prepared by dar dar...Set off from dar dar's house at around 11.30am and board bus 13! Oh boi.. It was really a long ride!! hahaa... sit till my butt hurts a bit...Saw my Ah ma's house! What's standing there is a tall building... but the old door still stands... maybe one of these days will go there to take some photographs... hahaa.. Okie.. back to the outing...The weather was nice n cool... but kinda threatening because it looks as if it's gonna rain... hahaa... n off we went to look for the canoeing hut! hahaa.. but didn't manage to find it.. So went swimming.. Being the timid me.. hahaa... I screamed when Syl wanna bring me deeper into the sea... hahaa.. I freaked out!! But dar dar was like encouraging me all the time... telling me not to be afraid... hahaa.. That's veri sweet of him.. aww.. hahaa.. then came the rain... spoilt a bit of our mood though.. we were like taking shelter from this hut and of course we were freezing... Dar dar being the sweet sweet guy.. went to buy a cup of hot Milo and a chicken pau... so warming... not physically but also to my heart.. hehee....

well then... the rain stopped a little.. so decided to rent a bicycle.. one that both can ride on the same bike.. hahaa.. it was fun! Never try riding on one b4... hahaa.. so we cycled from one end of ECP to the another end... had occassionally stopped at some places to rest our butts though.. haha... there's this pond with lots of turtles.. hahaa.. n I keep shouting "babe! babe!".. haha.. noe why? Syl has this big terrapin call "Babe".. hahah.. that was why... After riding for quite some time.. we were feeling a bit hungry.. so went to East Coast Lagoon hawker centre.. haha... ate garlic crab and bbq stingray.. and 2 chicken wings... with sugar gane drink and coconut drink.. really got to thank dar dar... Had a filling "lunch"..(it was 4pm when we had our lunch..)

went back to the rental shop and returned our bike and went to bathe... Had a game of pool after that.. hahaa.. and guess what? First time.. I officially won my dar dar in pool.. yup rite!!! hahaa.. Was sulking in the beginning cos I couldn't hit any balls.. hahaa.. but the anger in me made me perform a little! hahaa.. so fun!!! feeling a bit hungry... we went coffee bean and had this triple decker cheesecake... tasted so yummy... well.. as u can guess.. i put on weight le!!!! ahhhhh!!! hahaaa.... then we went to ECP.. the first place where we first came when we met for the 2nd time last year.. and rested somewhere near the spot.. haha.. awww... bring back lots of memories.. but I kinda spoilt the day by saying which wasn't meant to be said.. for that I apologised dar dar...

Went to listen to life band at Bernie's pub! hahaa.. Bernie, Syl's neighbour's dog! hahaa.. diaoz... anyway... the singer sang veri well!!! hahaa.. but too bad we gotta catch the last bus.. we left early! hahaa.. the same old me.... my face was so red after drinking the alcohol! hahaa... oopz.. waited for the bus 13... dar dar was veri "seh" too... and then both of us slept like a pig... hahaha...

had a great day with my darling! hahaa.. :) reached home at about 12.. :)