Unpleasant.

So much things that has happended sets me thinking about...

god. life. spouse. family. friends.

Especially... =) shhhz.. Zipped tight! Don't ask me..

Ah CHOO!

YAWN!!

Doubts.

As the day I'm starting working draws near, I begin to doubt myself whether I can do a good job as a personal financial consultant. Urgh.

Blading.

Haa. Had an enjoyable time with the gals today (haa.. I mean yesterday!!) It was filled with laughter, screaming(s) and erm... PAIN! Haa.. Most of fell except for Wen!! Lucky her.. It was so much fun that Jen and Carinne suggested that we should invest in a pair of blades so we can go blading any time we want!!! It is certainly a good way to tone up our legs! Haa.

More activities lining up for me. Hee. One week left to start work OFFICIALLY.

Fear.

My dad went to have his eye check today. There's a thin layer growing over the cornea! =( My dad was given a gel to apply and see if there's any improvement.

Was thinking about this on the bus journey back home. My parents aren't getting any younger. At least they are 8-10 years old older compared to most of my (and any) of my friends' parents! Gosh. There's like a LOT of time if we convert it to number of days. Nobody knows how much more time we have with our love ones. For all you know tomorrow I may get killed in an accident tomorrow. Ha.

Went to collect my mom's and mine passport (though I seldom, erm..rarely.. erm NEVER go overseas. Making just in case.. =P) with my parents. Was observing them during the train journey. Didn't realise that they have actually aged so much. The wrinkles on their faces and body said it all. My heart aches. I blame myself for not spending enough time with them.

My priority for now is definitely my Daddy and Mommy!

Broke.

New skin.

Broke! Lots of things yet to buy. Here is the list of stuff that I want to get before the GST hike!

1) Wardrobe
2) L'oreal Makeup Remover (20% off! Original price @ $24.90)
3) One working suit (preferably off-white!)
4) Pleated skirt with ribbon (saw at Dano and many places already!)
5) Americaya Shoes (10% discount!)
6) L'oreal True Match 2 way Foundation (Original price @ $29.90 now there's 20% off!)
7) Birthday gifts!
8) A "leather" bag from Bugis (Yi Fang, we must go shopping by next week kk?)
9) Silkygirl Eye Liner (20% discount!)
10) Heels cushion
11) New pair of specs and cosmetics lenses (Seeing things blurrrrrr...)

Thought I could really throw away my books for the time being but it seems like I'm back to studying again! 2 textbooks waiting for me to flip through. Urgh. Test after test.. It's not easy being a PFC!

Dar was so sweet! He brought me to Sakae for sushi buffet though I felt it's quite a waste as I DON'T eat much! =( Feel painful for the whole in his wallet!

Confused.

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Lost.

I've been thinking about it for the past few days. Am I able to let go? Looking at the photos we've taken together, the times we've been through, the things that I've learnt from all of you... My heart says NO!

Picking myself up. Sorting out my thoughts.

Mess.

My room is in a mess! Urgh. Must get it tidied up asap!



Holidays has been good so far. Trying to finish all my stuff within this week so that I can enjoy my last few weeks of hols leisurely.

UOB called me yesterday. = ( I am really depressed now.

Finally!

Exams. Officially ended! =)

Personal Financial Consultant.

Yes. I got the job offer from OCBC the day I went down for interview on Tuesday.

Guess what!? DBS called me the next day! HSBC called me today! Gosh!!!

=( UOB, u better don't call me. I will be extremely depressed!

Worries?

1) My last paper this friday!
2) My parents' health!
3) Which church?
4) My brother's future?
5) Job! Am I able to take the stress?

=)

Am I going to be left on the shelve?

God.

Time and again, I haven't been faithful to Father.

My spiritual life is always stagnant. Should I go back to COS or shouldnt I? Should I attend other churches besides COS? In which area should I serve the Lord?

What job will I hold when I graduate? What has God planned for me?

All these uncertainies... But I shouldn't be worried.

My dad is recovering. Praise the Lord and I give thanks to Him for healing my daddy.

Continue praying for me. Havent been studying for the past few days. Became a full time gardener. Pray that I will be able to memorise with understanding and the paper is not going to be as difficult.

God has spoken to me.

Discontent, jealousy, bitterness, resentment, defensiveness, touchiness, and ingratitude are the dispositions that ruin our marriages, wither our children, alienate our friends and embitter every life-including our own.

It's easy to defend our bad moods and to slide into deception and hypocrisy. But we must guard our hearts against such destructive attitudes. When they arise, we need to confess them, let them go, and experience God's forgiveness.

Don't let our bad attitude cause us to lose out while others enter into joy.

Resent comes from looking at others, contentment comes from looking at God.

When my dad went to hospital yesterday yet again, I was filled with mixed emotions. I was thinking why didn't Daddy heed my advice and just stay indoors but insist to go water his plants under the sun! Sigh.

True friends. Resentment. Shan't blog much about this.

I screwed up my 2nd last paper and I didn't want to do the same for my last paper.

Let go and feel the joy! =) I'm feeling it!