I feel so...

Disappointed... yupz.. but can understand what u're going thru n stuff.. Take care... Have plenty of rest...

Jus felt tat cramp thingie while chatting on the phone.. Argh... Sianz.. Tml will be the day...

Why(....... )  What (........ ) haiz...

N that stupid air con! Switched on n off by itself... (oh man.. it's kinda scary now... ) shux..

It's late.. time to ZZzzzzZzzzz...

Mood swing is here...

I felt so easily irritated nowadays.. Sorry mom.. Think I've thrown temper on u.. But u're always so understanding.. Thanks Mom (although u won't b reading this.. but.. ) Oh no.. it's finally here again... the stupid mood swing... Following that will be.. haiz.. cramps... Hopefully it doesn't come on my first day of school...

I'm feeling so... i dunno how to describe that kind of feeling.. maybe scared? Confused? nervous? Dad is like going to be 60 next year... mom is around that age too... It's like they're getting older n older every minute... N I've not been good to them! They have taken care of me for so many years! They didn't even complain or anything... Jasmine, what have u done in return? U didn't do well in ur O n A levels... Get into not so good SIM... U only know how to enjoy and play all the time... Didn spend much time with your parents but keep running about... Like what mom said.. treat ur home like hotel huh? Oh mine! What is this, gal?

(irritating.. Lucky is barking!!! arghz.. stop that! if not...Thanks mom.. 4 scolding the dog..)

N the most important thing is... They haven't received Jesus in their hearts yet.. which means they're not going to heaven.. n that means I'm not going to meet them there? Oh no!!! No wayz... But.. what m i going to do.. I'm so scared... so afraid...

I'm afraid of being hurt again too.. Much too afraid.. Will it end up like the last one? One month? or I'm someone that he doesn't like n leave me after 2 years? I'm suddenly feeling so insercure n everything.... Is it because of the hormonal change that's happening inside my body?

I guess so.. haiz! I feel so... God? where are u?

Oh yah.. I dun feel feverish anymore.. the antbodies inside me has lost the battle.. N I'm having the sore throat!

 

Jenny is @ it again...

hahahaa... She's playing the guitar again... haaaa.. but has forgotten how to play the C n G that I've taught her... hehehee... anywayz.. it didn't sound that bad...

Later wen came to join us n we spent the whole evening together.. laughing... joking... awww.. hahhaaa... Really miss the days that the 5 of us can be together.. But sooner or later we'll be gathering again rite? hehehee.. Carinne's bday? hmmmz.. n of course on national day.. yupz.. hehehee...

Anywayz... Jenny was like trying on my clothes.. hehee... yupz.. we do exchange clothes sometimes.. heheee.. still remembered that I've borrowed a long skirt from her .. yeahz.. hahahaa.. then we were like fliming down some funny videos.. hehee.. n also taken a no of pics... but I'm not inside the pic.. yupz yupz.. hahahaa.. diaoz..

N now my whole body is aching over... One of the symptom that I'll fall really sick soon... arghz!! No way... sch is starting like next mon n u're saying that I'm going to fall sick this week... no no no.. please Lord... I pray you'll help me Lord.. Restore my strength... my health oh Lord.. Thank you Lord.. In Jesus name I pray.. Amen!

I'm tired of everything... Jus tired... Sleepy...

Shopping~!

Yupz yupz.. today went shopping... Took a train down to Suntec... Saw these 4 guys who made fun of a gal after she alighted @ Dover station... They were so irritating lor.. I guess they were making fun of me too when I left... yupz yupz...

Went to take a look @ the gel thingie.. Hehee.. still thinking whether I should buy or not! Heheee... Hai.. Nothing much to shop @ Suntec lehz... So little ppl around.. Hahaa.. Dun have the shopping mood...

Then.. was deciding whether to go Causeway Pt or Orchard.. hehee... Guess where I went? Yupz.. Orchard.. hehee.. Saw one NDP gal @ Hereens.. Heheee... Hmmz..waiting for a friend huh? hahaaa... Wondering is he or she.. hehee... anywayz... Saw this skirt which i really like!!! It costs $23.90... but didn't wanna buy it there.. hahaa.. Saw that skirt again @ Far east n bought it @ $29.90.. hahaa.. ai yo yo... Terrible...

In total.. I've bought 2 new gio tee.. one pair of gio jeans... 1 skirt...

Shopping list for tml: pencil box, bag, shoes, perfume...

Oh no! I'm going to b broke.. left not much in my bank!!! Geeez... haiz... nvm lah huh.. :)

oh yah... my hp bill came.. $93.. ai yo yo!!!!

Should I buy?

Should I buy the Extrim gel? Ppl say it works on burning the fats.... yeah.. I'm fat.. Veri fat!!! Hows!?? I wanna lose weight.. I wan!!!! Sad sad!!! Mus skip dinner nowadays le.. but Mommy always cook my share when I asked her not to! Mus tell her that I'm on a diet.... yupz yupz.. hehee...

Should I buy? It costs 89 bucks! oh mine.. it's so ex lor! any other cheaper alternatives? hahaaa.. Exercise lor!? yah...

Sianz... hahaa.. Sch is starting next week.. yupz.. Getting veri nervous now!!!! hahaa.. :) yup yupz..

heheee... my "god-daughter".. hahahaa.. the one who always like to play with my pony tail.. but but.. hahaa.. if other ppl see that.. they will come n pull my hair wor! Ouch.. that hurts... hehee.. Isn't she cute!? hahaa.. Adorable.. Nowadays din c her cry le! yupz yupz.. hehee

Mood swing...

I jus feel like crying... I'm having this  mood swing thingie again.. But I know I can't let that take control of my feelings.. I mus curb that.. It's hard... Jus now nearly beat the red light.. It was so scarely... I didn't know what I was doing... @ the carpark.. got this uncle who walked as if the whole road is his! I'm already like rushing for time... b4 that tried to top up the cashcard using the atm.. But it can't read my card... tried so many times le... wanted to use the posb one but there's a long queue...

I'm so vexed now.. Feel like crying! Something bad is going to happen tonite.. I can sense that..

arghz..

I'm missing the kids... Haiz.. Sean.. Nickole.. Ethan.. Elson.. Grace (my god-daughter)... Hannah.. Zoey... Han Wei... Christopher... Jovan... Preena... Ashleigh... Sze Min... An Yu...  Owen... hHeheee.... They are so so so cute... miss little piglet too...

One of my friends was asking mi.. "hEy Jas.. @ what age do u want to get married? How many kids do u wan?" hehheeee.. wOw.. yah... tot of it b4 ah.. i wanna get married @ 24.. 2 kids... Eldest being the gal.. heheee.. So that she can take care of her di di next time round.. Hahaaa.... Names for the children? heheee.. yup yup.. tot of it b4 too.. oops.. hahaa..  Hahaaaa.. En Lin? En Hui? Bei En? Jie En? Jie Huai? Xu Le? Xu Huai? Xu En? Xu Huan? Xu Jie? Lin Jie? Lin En? heheee...Notice that I like the En n Jie n Huai? hahaaa.. yupz yupz.. :) hahaaa..

heheee.... Haiz.. I'm still a young kid... who's going to study for another 3 more years lor... Yikes! But I can't believe that I'm going to be 20 next year!!! argh argh argh.. Getting older n older... haiz!! Heheee.. But I'm already thinking how to celebrate my 21st birthday.. heheee... A ball? hahaa.. too ex.. Zouk? nahz.. some of my friends can't get in... hmmz.. chalet? maybe.. hmmmz... my house? not possible.. hahaa.. mommy won't want that.. @ a hotel room? hahaa... hmmz.. beach party? heheee.. yeah yeah..

Jasmine wake up!! Stop dreaming.. hahaa.. okok...

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Something about mi...

It seems that everytime I'm always laughing..smiling... Well, sometimes I'm jus trying to fool myself into it lor.. Trying to make myself feel happy.. I'm not as bubbly as I used to be... I've kind of settled down in a sense.. Less chatty.. I guess that's something bad lor.. Cos.. haiz..

Nvm.. I'll think of a way to solve the problem.. Yupz.. Little piglet dun worry okie??? Yupz yupz...

Went to watch Mean Gals yesterday! Hey ppl watch it if u haven't.. Cos it's really a nice show! hahaha.. Ting, Juan, Hui n I are like laughing all the way lor.. hahahaa.. Cady looks cute.. but Aaron seems cuter! hahaa.. nahz.. Little piglet is the cutest... yup yup... I also wanna watch The Sisters.. Heard from Ting it's quite scary lah.. hahahaa.. yeahz... Gals, so we're gonna watch 13 going to be 30 together too rite? hehehee.. yupz yupz.. :)

What is life to me? Something precious that God has given me..I'll thank God for every little circumstances n things that has happened in my life.. Please Lord.. Help mi..

Awwww... Sean didn't wanna let me go..

Hahahaa...  Who's Sean? Javen's brother.. Who are they? Hahaaa.. Kids @ my working place.. yUp yupz.. Sean is the younger one... When I told him that I'm going home.. he hugged me n said he wants Jasmine Jiejie.. Awww.. So sweet of him.. Hahhaaa.. He's really cute n handsome.. Got this gal, Grace (winks..hahhaa.. not u Gracie.. ) always call Sean's name ah.. Then another boy, Elson.. always like to go near to the small gal gal Hannah.. Hahahaa.. 2 little couples in the class.. : )
 
Kids are really cute, aren't they? Even if they are naughty.. they are cute.. but beware.. sometimes they really can make ur blood boils.. hahaha.. Well.. other than that.. I still think they are cute cute cute cute cute cute... Heheheee... If only I have kids of my own.. Ooopsz... hahahaa... Mommy was like telling me.. Gal ah.. Study hard ah.. This time round get good results.. hahahaa.. Okie Mom.. Little piglet also asked me to study hard.. Hehehee... Alritey.. Won't let u ppl down.. I hope..
 
It has been a long long long time since the 5 of us get together huh? Should we meet on one of these days for dinner? hehehee... really miss u gals lotz!!!!! Yupz.. Carinne is gonna start sch next week.. Mine is 2nd August.. Wen is mid August.... Haiz.. all of u are going to be busy once again... Then seldom we can meet up lor.. sad sad... So we should try to meet up more often ah! : ) On National Day u gals going to Ying's house to watch me? I'll join you gals after that? Hahhaaa.. Maybe we can order pizza.. buy ice cream.. ermerm.. hahaa.. fattening ah!
 
Hehehee.. I was shopping with my mommy on the other day... Then saw Ex-trim pills.. hahaa.. then I was asking if I could buy them... She said I better consult Dr Loh b4 I eat any pills lor.. Hhahaaa.. Yupz yupz.. better send him a email now.. hahahaa.. Then if can I'll buy! hahhaaa.. Ooopz...
 
Lord, jus wanna pray for every one that I know.. Lord, I pray that you'll bless them in anyway..everyway Lord.. Jus pray that they will be in good health n for my brothers n sisters, Lord I pray that their walk with u will be a fruitful one Lord.. Pray all these in Jesus name, Amen..

Oops... today is not my last day @ work??

Hahhaaa.. yupz yupz... my boss said I'll be needed on Tues n Wed... Hahhahaa... Haiz.. Tot today will be last day wor! :) But I'm glad that I can still work in the childcare! Cos the kids are really really cute! Although they maybe naughty @ certain times! hahahaa...
 
Yesterady was a beautiful day.. yup yup... hehehee... 
 
Hmmmz.. have not been bloggin for quite some time huh? Ppl out there.. do u all miss moi? hahahaa.. hopefully u gals did alrite? hehehe.. Oopsss.. sorry if there are guys who are reading my blog.. hahaha. hehehee... Haiz... tired tired...
 
School is starting soon.. argh!!! Nervous... scared!!! aahHHhhhh... Jiu wo ah!!! Hahhaaa.. Was reading the study guides jus now! The unit's outline is also out.. So tough.. i'm going to be dead...
 
Haiz.. but b4 that think I'm gonna enjoy myself.. hehehe.. yupz yupz.. Have not been to ktv for a long long time.. anybody?? hahaha.. I'm jus a call away.. yup yup... Take care everyone.. Have a blessed week! 

Hahahaa...

Wow.. This is getting so exciting.. U mean i can change the font? the colour n stuff? hahaha.. I didn't know that!!! Hahahaa... I guess it's jus recently that they have changed this lor.. yupz yupz.... Didn't blog last nite cos was too tired....
 
Rowl was good... Joys.. Sad not to see u there lehz.. hmmz.. School work? Li Shan was sharing that there's no more study group on thursdays... Rowlies.. if u all need help in ur sch work can come n look for me okie?? But.. For physics? hahaa.. I can't help much.. but can trying asking Ping Hui to help too? Hahhahaaa... If not i think Pei Shan know other ppl who can help too... yupz yupz..
 
For the next half of the year... I'll not slack anymore.. Have been slacking too much.. Sch is gonna start soon.. Actually I'm quite nervous about it.. Not sure if I can cope with the work load or not? It's like I've never taken Econs b4.. yupz.. but but.. @ least it's much much better than studying sci subjects.. It's so sianz!!! Memorise.. memorise! hahaha... But I kinda miss doing homework.. Hahahaa.. Ooopz...
 
Continue to keep everyone in prayers... It's so exciting.. It seems tat some churches are like going full force in asking the believers to share gospel with those non believers... Yupz yupz!!! God.. Please give me courage to share with my friends.. Yupz!

Being Cheeky,the 2 of us!!! installing programs, playing guitars.... wonderful evening...

Jenny's playing the guitar...

hahhaa.. yupz.. Jenny is @ my house now.. trying her hands on the guitar! Yupz.. hahaa.. as u all know lah.. She's making a din out of it.. Ooops.. SOrry Jenny.. Nahz... She sure learn things fast lor... She's now playing from G to C.. and C to G.. it sounds better n better each time she's playing...

Hahhaa.. She's complaining now that the dl is too slow.. hahahaa..

Hey little piglet.. If u're reading my blog.. Here's something that I wanna say... Thank u for the little little things that u've done.. Really appreciated it.. I dunno what will happen.. But I'm leaving everything to God.. Yupz.. He's the one in control.... Whatever things that happen in our lives..we'll have to lift them all up to Him lor.. Dun rely too much on our own strength.. Things may turn out fine but not always.. Pray n He'll ans u.. Have this constant communication with Him.. Doesn't mean u have to be at this super quiet place then u can pray lor.. I once remembered my pastor saying that he'll always pray on his way back home.. N he was like walking n walking.. Then prayed out loud.. this gal walked past n tot that he was a lunatic lor.. hahaa.. So little piglet.. dun be stressed about anything alrite? He's our strength.. our hope.. our life...

Hehheee... I'm glad that weekends is nearing lor.. Yupz... Jus so glad lor.. haiz.. but kinda.. well.. nvm...

To those who are reading my blog.. Pray that u'll have blessed weekend.. Amen..

Nice picture? Hahhahaa.. I took this on Wen's birthday! hahahhaa.. They all looked so natural.. hahahaa..

GB Day!

Yo ppl!! In case if u're wondering why there are some gals who are wearing blue uniform today.. It's because today is The Girls' Brigade Day!! Yupz yupz...

We are the girls from the Girls' Brigade (bom bom bom bom)
Crazy crazy as we all can be...
Hey Hey, look @ us..
The one and the only, The Girls' Brigade...
*sCrEam*

hahahhaaa.... We're from GB n not GG! Hahhahaa.. okie?

19th Coy gals will be washing the teachers' cars today... Yupz.. So exciting!!! hahahaa.. All the way gals.. Jia you wor.. N remember ur GB fortnight cards too.. hahahaa.. We'll all work hard together alrite? :)

I'm ok!

Hey ppl... I'm okie.. Jus need somewhere to vent my fustrations only... Yupz...

This song is so super nice.. Makes me feel like crying everytime i listen to it lor.. hehehee.. haiz...

Shao le wo de shou bei tang ni zheng tou ni hui bu hui xi kuan..

Shao le wo de huai bao tang ni nu li ni hui bu hui xi kuan..

Hahhaa.. Can only catch the first 2 sentences of each part of the chorus! Oh man!!! Hahahaa...

Super sianz! :)

Nevermind...

Everything is jus not right..

Cyring now... What can I do? Nothing...

It sux.. Sorry..

Hehehee... Can find me?? hahahaha :) I looked so toot..

LalalAalalAaa...

When ppl talk and greet u..
U have 2 smile...
When they say harlow n get to know u..
U have 2 smile...
When u r 2gether with ur friends, mama n papa..
What u have 2 do n show 2 them...
U have 2 smile....

Smile, Smile, Smile..
Show us your smile..
We'll all be happy..
When u smile...

Performed this song when I was in pri 4.. hehehee.. Was in choir then! hahahaa.. Will scan the photo later.. hehehe.. :)

I'm back for sure!!! N ppl please pray for me!!!

Wow.. Now i really find joy serving in the brigade ministry... I dunno why.. But I jus felt that everytime I should do something to the company.. I've written them down.. but didn't execute my plans. Oh well.. Reason being.. I'm not the one, well..some of u may know..

This morning.. I prayed.. n out loud.. I was crying.. God really touched my heart today.. I've lifted everything that's in my life to Him.. He's in the control n I'm not.. Daddy will tell me what I have to do in my life... But the thing is I have to obey...

Ppl.. Pray for me.. Pray for everybody.. I'm sure nowadays some of our spiritual life is not right of track.. Pray pray.. :)

Blessed...

God is using people to speak to me.. I HAVE to come back to the Lord... Dun reach a stage whereby there's no way of return.. It's gonna be too late for me.. N i guess God didn't want it that way too!

Didn't go for SYF on Saturday.. (Sorry ai ai!!! I wanted to.. but I overslept lor..) Then @ nite went for this colleague's wedding.. Hehheee.. Really wanna get married soon! (Hahaha.. Thinking too much le!! No bf lah..haiz..) Hahhaaa.. Anywayz, I drove to town area le! It was a good experience.. Hahha... Luckily the flow of traffic wasn't heavy @ that hour lor..

Then came the NDP reahearsal.. Thank God I've got Ashely with me.. Hehehee.. She went in for the evening rehearsal.. N did veri well!! Hehehee.. Hurt my big toe.. N not the ankle... hahaha.. N was like limping for the whole day lor.. Hmmz..

Ephesians 5:18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.

Sianz...

It's a rainy day...
N I praise God for the weather...
It's a siany day...
Nothing to do @ home...
It's a tiring day...
N things gonna get a little better..
Living each day with God's love upon on us..

hehehee....

Oh manz! I'm like so sianZ!!!!! Nothing better to do lor.. made the wrong choice of coming back home a little bit early.. yupz.. Haiz... Bluesheep is also veri sianz @ home.. hehehhee...

Nvm.. Think later will gonna get better.. I guess so! I hope so! hahahaa..

Stressed...

Yupz... I'm pretty stressed up nowadays... haiz... Luckily big auntie's visit ending quite soon.. hehehee...

Hmmz... Kinda worried about a few ppl... One is my sis-in-Christ.. Another is my friend lah.. Hasn't given me a call yet.. Something happened to my friend ah? Choy.. Da ji da li lah.. (peNgz.. Sound so auntie!)

Tml is like the last day of my work (hopefully lah..) Hmmmz.. But Need to start doing God's BUsiness.. hehehee.. Yupz yupz.. lotsa things not settled... haiz.. GOd guide mi okie? I can't do all the things with my own strength...

Praying hard that sch will start really really soon.. Time can pass faster.. hehehee... yupz... But I dun wanna to get old so soon! hahhaaa.. I'm forever 19.. okie? Hahhahaa.. Oopz.. hahaha..Haiz.. Dunno what to do for this year's Christmas leh!!! Hahaha.. Go carolling @ some homes.. Nice idea rite? hehehe... :)

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

God, I need ya now! Help me make all the decisions... :)