Last day of Xmas Caroling...

Sure miss those days that I'll have to go from one terminal to another.. haiz.. the last performance was good.. although there was no piano.. we sang rather well.. yupz! But me forgetting a few parts here n there... it's a no no.. hahahahaa....

things happened yesterday... missed the meet up with my drill com ppl... sorry gals..

A disappointing xmas gift...

yups.... bought something that my dear dear was so disappointed... I'm sorry lingz...

there r like so many ideas.... well.. decided on that.. cos I tot to buy that thing for someone mus be close enough to get it.. I didn't even send this to my dad or bro b4..

well... i guess it's so so disappointing... cos... now u're not even talking to me...

jus wanna say i'm sorry..... will get u another one...

shux! I'm still having that stupid headache.. good nitez ppl..

Merry Christmas!!!!!

Yupz ppl... Merry Xmas n a Happy New Year!!!!!

Ouch.. : )

I'm now @ piglet's house..

yup.. I'm now @ his house.. I'm naughty today.. made my hubby so angry.. I'm sorry dear! Forgive me? Please.. I'll change what u dun like about me... but pls dun ignore me...

It's Christmas eve?

wow.. yup yup... It's xmas!!! N in another 12 hours.. I'll be saying merry xmas!!! hahahhaa.. alrite alrite.. thinking a bit too far already rite? hahahhaa...

well.. xmas eve isn't exactly that joyous for me.. Jus felt so stressed up... had my fringe trimmed but it looks so sucky now!!! I want back my fringe... Yesterday was even a bad day for me.. @ least for me I would think so... The rest of u may think that mine is jus a small matter.. yupz.. nvm lah.. here's a place for me to write my hearts out rite? hahahhaa...

Busy day.. went to sch.. came back home.. went IMM n get those BBQ stuff... went back home.. was so tired after that... evening went for that stupid hair trim... went to meet syl.. but forgotten to bring my ezlink card... wanted to buy the farecard but dun have enough coins.. went to a lady and she had this smirk look.. n shaked her head... then went to another lady but she doesn't have? then how u provide change to your customers!?? went to buy bread so that I can have some coins.... 10 cent dropped onto the floor.. by then I was already on the verge of tears...

I know that guys dun like their gf to pull a long face in front of them! I'm sorry I did that last nite and this morning... I jus need a shoulder to cry on.. someone that I can pour to... a listening ear is all I needed... I didn't expect u to cheer me up or anything... nothing of that I want... There's something wrong with my hearing I know!!! I also know that it's so irritating when ppl can't hear you and keep huh huh huh huh... Sorry... I didn't mean to!! Sometimes ppl are like talking so fast.. and their low voice.. it's hard to catch what they are saying.. especially when I'm thinking of something... It's equally irritating when someone talked to you or asked ya questions and u dun answer.. sometimes ppl did that to me too...

On my walk to Semb MRT.. got this stupid idiot, a malay, cycled past and said," wah..so big!" shux!!!! Hated it.. I cried... B4 that I was already full of stress... why do ppl wanna tease me!? Wanted to give Jenny a call.. but will she find me irritating.. make it seemed as if only got problems then I'll go to her... yes.. I dun want my buddies to have that idea! I mean I haven't been spending enough time with them... So who do I go to pour out all my problems? tell piglet? I would want to...

I dun listen to ppl.. I'm stubborn! U think what u say what u do is always rite, Jasmine? Who do u think you are!??? What I can't do dun expect others to fulfil them too... Jasmine wake up!!!!!!!!!! I'm already veri awake.. jus feeling tired.. no strength.. veri sianz.. What's life?

God created me in His image.. I know... He sent me down for a purpose.. I know that too.. God! U there rite? What do u wan me to do? Serve my friends? My parents?

M i rude? Sorry.. Father in heaven.. sorry... Syl.. sorry... Jenny..sorry... Carinne..sorry... Pei Ying..sorry.. Jing Wen...sorry.... rowlies... sorry... my parents, my brother..sorry sorry... drill com ppl...sorry sorry sorry... to all ppl I know.. I'm sorry if I've irritated in a way or another...

Sorry sorry sorry sorry!!! SORRY PPL!!!!!!

Okie.. from now on.. I'll smile!! Come on!!! u can do it!!!! yeahz.... haiz..

hmmmz... Xmas!

time really flies... I mean I was still a young little gal... then gradauted from pri sch.. next thing I know was that I've already finished my secondary sch education.. Not only that.. I had proceeded on to uni from A levels... oh manz! N now I'm gonna turn 20m twenTY next year!? no more teenage years for me.... boo hoo hoo... what a piece of saddening news... hate it..

Haiz.. Xmas... I guess most of us have already forgotten the true meaning of Xmas.. it's not about partying.. busy shopping for gifts.. not about exchanging presents with one another only.. It's about spreading God's love to everyone... n not only to those whom we know... It can be to a completely stranger... haiz... Xmas..

Haiz... Xmas caroling.. I'm gonna miss those times that we had... hehehe... think we should make it like a yearly thingie? hahaha.. yupz!!!

miss all my friends...

to those who are reading my blog.. Merry Christmas!!!

I dream...

okie ppl.. I'm not talking about the song.. hahahaa.. I dreamt about something last nite.. yupz.. n it felt quite real... Ri you shou si ye you shou meng.. hahaha.. yupz! Guess I must be thinking about that matter so much till I dreamt about it @ nite.. so here goes...

first I dreamt I was in my wedding gown.. getting ready to go in for the wedding banquet.. then a thought came to me... oh dear... who's the bridegroom? then we went in the place but found out that not many ppl were inside.. (@ this point of time I still didn't know who's the bridegroom..) But the feeling of walking down the red carpet was like so real? hahaha...

okie.. then we went in for the 2nd time and this time round I found out that it's some other guy and not syl... I freaked out.. that guy is a dentist cos he was saying that he can't stand my breath? hahaha... I told him that I can't be with him either! Cos I only wanna be with my piglet.. Syl.. hehee.. N I ran away..

hehehee... I guess on my actual wedding day, I would be crying and crying and crying... cos I'll be so touched.. well.. wait till that day comes and we shall see... hehehee...

Life is short.. u'll never know what happen next....

If I were to die tml... this is what I'll write on the day b4...

To my parents: Thank you for bring me up.. It took so much effort and pain and of course $$ to bring my n brother up rite? I've never told u all this... I LOVE both of you... sorry for always making u all worried for me... and also me always bring not much happiness but anger and saddness... @ times when I flare up, u'll jus bear with it... and let me be... whatever i want.. i would get it... thank u daddy and mommy... thank u...

To my brother: hey brother.. it's really fated tat we can be siblings huh? hehehee.. dun always make daddy and mommy angry le lah... spend less also.... your money now is still mommy's and daddy's one.. u know??? Take good care of them!!! understand!?

To my four buddies: @ times whem I'm low.. the first few ppl that I think of will be all of you... yeah... I wanted to give u ppl a call.. but i'm afraid.. afraid tat u all may think that I'm not a good friend.. cos when u gals have trouble or wat.. I'm always not that.. that's why... that's why i didn't tell u all my problems n everything.. jus wanna tell u ppl, that all of u are great buddies of mine... I love u gals...

To all friends that I know: thank u all so much!

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hahaha... I guess if i would have to finish it... the next day would have come.. yupz... hahaha.. dead by then...

Why?

As we grow older and older, we have more problems coming in... We'll have different emotions.. and we r supposed to know how to handle it cos we're tot to be more mature than before... But different people have got different ways to vent their fustrations... Some scream, some choose to just keep mum about it... some will sing their hearts out...and many many other ways... as for me? I choose to cry... I cry when I'm sad, feeling down.. when I'm stressed... when I'm lost and confused... when I'm in pain... when I'm disappointed... when I'm happy...

People see me as a bubbly gal.. smiling... always trying to crack lame jokes to make ppl laugh... But deep within me... I know sometimes that I dun feel really good but I've got to hide it... I'm that kind of person who doesn't want others to be sad because I m... I tot I was good to my friends... but I think I wasn't.. I tried to be nice all the time... but maybe to them isn't nice enough.. cos most of us may think that they are also nice to us but we are not appreciating it...

Why? Why can't I be a bear and start hibernating.. so that I won't know what's happening around me... Why can't I be like a baby and be doted on by many people? Why is there so much problems when there isn't anything about it?

Well... it's all part of growing up... I guess....

Qi...

Qi? hehehee... Means angry in chinese... Well.. I dunno what happened to me this whole morning... Boarded bus 61... N it was still quite early.. about 8.26am... but I reached sch @ 8.55am.... Yes! Massive traffic jam!!!! Arghz.. no point walking so fast..catching an early bus but kenna caught in a jam! my poor feet... blisters burst... put plasters but of no use!

Stats lecture.. Not so bad until he started teaching us on estimators! arghz.. dun even know what he's trying to say!!!! But the xmas present that he gave to us was nice... A stack of summary notes on each topic.. and all the formula(s) - I know it isnt spelt like that.. hehehe... - that we have learnt from stats! hehehee.. Save me quite a lot of job to copy down those formula(s)... Think I better start memorising those that I need to remember.. If not it will be too late next time round! I wonder how I manage to do it when I was in Sec3 and 4...

After lesson, I went to JE... but the waiting time for the bus, 66, was far far far far far far too long!! It's like I've missed so many 961, 61, 67, 157, etc... wOw!!!! N I was like in super bad mood already.. Okie. Finally it came... but there was this old man who kept looking in my direction.. I was like going to yell @ him already... "please look to your front and stop looking around!!!!!" well... I didn't.. Manage to cool myself down.. but the qi is over flowing by now! Reached my throat already!!!!! arghz...

but got to help these guys who wanna go Escape themepark... think they are tourists.. were asking me if they can pay cash or buy the ez link card from the bus driver or not!

N here I m.. writing my blog... Jus finished doing something.. oh ya! My brother turned 18 today!!! woR.. haha.. Happy Birthday bro..if u're reading my blog.. but I doubt so! yeahz.. hahahaa... Wish ya all the best in everything u do dude..

Ppl aren't blogging much nowadays.. Nothing to write about? hehehee... This friday.. 8.45pm @ Rasa Sentosa Resort... yeah.. : ) hehehe...

As usual...

okie.. Tuesday dun have to go to sch... Actually have got a consultation in the evning.. but I'll be working so won't be attending it.. hehehe... It's econs!! that's why... nahz.. hahaha...

came back home this morning... check email.. then went for a jog! hehehee... it has been quite some time since I last go jogging... I'll try to wake up every morning to go for an half an hour jog! I'm putting quite a bit of weight nowadays! arghz... yup yupz! Bathed Lucky and as usual.. she was so scared that she went hiding in her travelling kennel.. hehehe... Had to pull her out...

I'll try to keep myself as busy as possible... yeah... later going to write the christmas cards.. buy xmas presents.. n later working... after working hopefully can make a trip down or orchard.. hahaha. yupz! hehehe.. Wanna do some shopping! hehehee.. or should I go tml? nahz! hehehe..

Christmas Caroling~!!!!

yupz... Went to Changi airport... not just terminal 1.. but terminal 2... and it's not only one trip to both the terminals... it's thru and fro.. thru and fro... and... the best part is? we're in the transit lounge!!!! yeah!!!! hehehee.. first time? I mean without having to board a train.. erm i mean a plane.. I got to be inside... okie.. I've never been overseas... so I didn't know how everything works n stuff... but anywayz.. i was super super excited about it... Except for one thing... I dun think I wanna wear heels the next time round I sing.... It's a torture.. especially when u got to walk from one terminal..catch the sky train... and proceed to another terminal...

Back to the caroling part... We screwed up.. a big time.. in the beginning... hahhaa.. I mean what could go wrong did go... hahaa.. didn't start the song together.. or rather... we didn't know where to start!~ hahahhaa.. sang out of tune.. not smiling.. well well well.. haiz.. hahaha.. Got to practise a lot.. but the last 2 was a lot better.. yeah.. we manage to get the hang of it.. Perhaps it has been quite some time since we last perform on the stage.. so we may have a little stage fright!? hahahaa... hey.. but it was fun fun fun... Especially when u have audience listening to u.. and they are enjoying themselves as they sing together with us!!!! yeah... THere's this lady.. and jap guy.. wOw.. they seem so interested when we were singing.. thanks to them.. n the rest who have heard us today.. that makes today's performance a bit successful? hahhaa.. I think we totally enjoyed ourselves!!! Thanks u gals!! n guy!

Of course not forgetting my lao gong.. poor him.. got to run here and there with us.. although he didn't sing.. but he was there to give me support.. and I appreciated it totally.. thank u dear!!!! And now he's having a stomache n I can't help much.. useless me!! Arghz... can't wait for next friday's caroling @ Rasa Sentosa Hotel.. yupz.. for those who wanna give us your support.. do make your way down there!!! hehehee.. n listen to us sing!!! come on babies.. hahahaa

A stressful day... PMS! arghz...

yeah.. actually since yesterday? I was already having the PMS symptoms.. I mean I got irritated and agitated easily.. and my mood was like super unstable.. I mean I can be laughing and smiling @ one point of time, and be complaining and nagging at another.. arghz. Jus can't take it anymore... This morning.. I cried! Yes.. I cried.. I can't take it any more!!! I couldn't control my own emotions.. I cried... I know it's ridiculous.. Cos I'm already 19 and should be handling this quite well by now.. but!!! I can't... Sometimes, I do think that I'm a failure.. a total failure that is!!! I hate it.. Simply hate it..

Piglet was soooo GOOD to me.. I accompanied him to his camp this morning.. took a cab from his house... N when we're going to reach his camp, I couldn't take it any longer... I cried.. rite in front of him.. like a small baby... And he was like quite taken aback to see me in that state.. N took half day urgent leave! To keep me accompany.. yeah... as u all have guessed.. I didn't attend my lecture... Skipped it.. arghz.. anywayz.. I was so blessed to have him, the special one to be around.. When I'm like feeling so down and low... I really thank him for all he has done for me.. Putting up with me.. Cheering me up! Thank u ling.. Thank u so so so so so much!

He took me to watch the movie, National Treasure.. I totally enjoyed the whole show! It was terrific... awesome!!! N b4 that, we took a photo and the machine will print it out... but in oil paint effect.. It's like veri nice lor!! I'm gonna frame it up and put it up in my room... I simply love it! yeahz...

Getting all excited about Xmas... All those presents that I'm going to give and receive.. wOOOooooOOO.. hahaha... haiz... can't seem to find the present that i wanna get for ling.. hehehe..

oh yah! Tml will be the caroling performance thingie! woooOOOOoowEEeeeEEE... I'm getting so excited about it!!!

alrite.. Think I'm feeling all tired and sleepy by now.... I should turn in.. good nite everyone..

Tuesday morning..

It's tuesday and as usual I do not have to go to school... Woke up in the morning and got to see piglet ZzzZzZZz-ing away.. hahaha.. Guess he was quite tired due to his work in camp... hmmmz... anywayz.. prepared breakfast for him.. Just cerals.. yeah.. but hopefully he's full after eating the honey stars and the kokocrunch.. hehehe.... Sent him to work this morning... He's the conducting officer for the IPPT.. so must set a good example.. reached camp @ 6.45..

Plan to go jogging later on... The weather is cool and wet... So now waiting for the rain to kind of like stop a little... After typing this blog, I'm gonna kunz for a while... woke up way too early this morning.. hehhee... feeling a bit sleepy... hehehehe...

Good morning.. Good morning.. Nice to see you smiling face... Good morning.. Good morning.. to you and to you.. Harlow teachers harlow friends.. Harlow teachers harlow friends.. Good morning.. Good morning... To you and to you...

Learnt the above song from the childcare! hehehe.. okie ppl.. My eyes are too heavy le.. Got to sleep.. Good 'nite'!!!!

I'll be going for a holiday! hahaa..

nahz! No lah... will be spending a nite @ one of my buddies house tonite... yeah!!! It has been a super duper duper long time since the 5 of us met and catch up with one another! fwahz.. Really miss those days that we'll always use to stay out.. or go shopping together and stuff... Miss them a lot..

Saw khoon yesteday on the bus... hehehee.. she hasn't changed a bit.. saw the Rowl tee.. nicely done!!! Good job rowlies! hehehee...miss you gals lots too.. I know those mission trip troopers will be back this sunday... Sorry.. I've got something on already... Though I would very much want to come and fetch u ppl from the airport.. take care take care!!!!

hmmmz.. Attended the veri first carolling practice last nite... It's really fun!!!! hahha.. Lotsa laughter... trying to learn to sing unfamiliar songs.. hahahaa.. There was a confusion when we sang the "then" whether it should be the or dee... yupz! hahhaa.. hahhaa.. but it's fun, all in all.. :)

hmmm.. haven't been updating for a while..

yupsie... ppl.. I'm back! hehehee... Haven't blogged for quite some time.. because I've got nothing much to write nowadays.. hehehee... nevertheless.. I'll still continue on writing maybe like once a week kind of thing.. Today is Tuesday n I dun have to go to sch...

Woke up quite late this morning... Piglet was late for work.. He jus msged me saying that his co wanna have a talk with them.. oh no... dunno if he'll get a scolding or not! hope not.... hmmmz... As for me.. I haven't recovered from Drill Camp's fatigue... Imagine teaching drill for like about 6 hours for the 2 days? It's rather tiring manZ! but... I'm doing something which I like... Going to serve GB in this area only.. hahhaa...

Went to work this morning... The kids had this field trip to the fish farm! hahahaa... It was quite a scene seeing those kids hoo-haa-ing over those big fishes that they had seen.. Jovan, the youngest kid? hahaa.. he was so excited tat he kept telling me that he was going to the fish farm... and he's gonna catch lotsa fishes... Talking about fish catching.. hahaa... there's this area (like many lao kangs together..) set up for the kids to catch those small little fishes that can be found there.. hahhaa.. Guess what? The teachers seem to have more fun catching than the kids.. hahahaa..because the fishes swam quite fast.. hahaha... diaoz.. yupz..

hmmm... then came back home... feeling tired.. wanna bathe Lucky but the weather now seems not to be in favour for that.. hahaa.. if not later she'll feel cold and start to shiver AGAIn... hahaha.. poor doggie... anywayz.. cooked myself lunch.. treated myself to pasta in cream sauce.. hahaa.. Didn't have a full dinner last nite.. yupz.. hahaha.. First try failed... use too small a pot to cook the pasta... hahaa.. ended up getting burnt.. chao tA!~ hahaha.. 2nd time... the pasta too hard..but heck lah.. still can be eaten.. hahaa.. so now eating pasta and typing @ the same time.. but gonna throw away some.. Cos quite full le! hahahaa...

All those food tat I've been craving for.. I'll try to think about them.. although they are yummy but can cause weight gain too... haiz! heeeheee.. okok lah.. after this go do the power rider thingie lor! hahahaa.. rite? hahaha... Drill Com meeting on the 20th... yeah.. can see ai ai le! hehheee.. miss all of ya! :)

A bad day..yesterday... not a good day...today..

hahhaaa.. yesterday was my unluckiest day i think... okie.. I'll tell ya what happen to me alrite? but hold your laughter till u finish reading the blog... Remember to close the window (I hope u know which one I'm referring to..) ..if not I may feel that you're laughing @ mi... : )

Went to take bus 61.. but miss one bus! waited for another one... okie.. not so bad.. @ least the bus came fast.. I alighted.. but one suay thing happened... I slipped and fell on the steps of the bus! so so so so malu.. cos I think I've made quite a din! arghz.... then I pretended to look @ my leg..facing away from the bus.. The truth is I didn't dare to look who's around me... hahaha... haiz...

next thingie that happened.. well well.. hehehe.. went into the lt..there's a guy who wanna get out.. nearly bumped into him! arghz.. luckily I shun away.. if not it'll be so super pai seh again lor! haahaa...

took 852 to piglet's house.. dropped my ezlink card when going to alight from the bus.. hahhaa.. have to pick it up when the bus is still moving.. hahaha.. ai yo yo.. wat's happening?

hehehee.. anywayz.. I'm glad that I've piglet's accompany for the whole day.. hehehe.. he took mc... His feet hurt.. poor guy.. brought him to see a doctor.. yupsie.. hehehee..

Today? hmmz.. okie lah.. not as bad as I thought it would turn out to be.. hehehe... I'm tired and sleepy now.. Because the weather is quite condusive for me to take a afternoon nap! hahahaa.. ZZZzzzZzzzZzzzz.. Had lunch with my mommy jus now.. but now she's on her way to toa pa yoh.. hehehe.. yupz..

after the chocolate milk.. think i'm going to sleep le! hehehee.. Good nite...

I've missed all my friends...

haiz.. I've missed all my friends... Those that I've met up recently.. and those whom I've not met up for ages! Don't you all think life is like a cycle thingie ( hehee.. got this from piglet..) It's like we'll always wake up in the morning, shit, eat, work, come back home, eat, sleep... It goes on everyday... hehehee. I'm jus asking for opinions.. that doesn mean I kind of agree to the statement.. hmmmz... We're doing these things because God has created us to do so... It's part of nature thingie.. yupsie.. hahaha... @ least that's what I feel.. I extremely miss Jenny, Ying, Wen and Carinne.. we haven't hang out together for a long time le!!! N also Yawling, Jami, Mengru, Joey, Lynn, Yongni.. n more more... hahahaa.. haiz...

F riends
R always there..
I jus wanna say a big THANK YOU
E verything that u guys
N gals have done for me..
D un think I'll be able to forget
So, take care my friends! Love ya all!!!

Oh no!!! I'm getting fatter!!!!

hmmmz.. have been eating and eating and eating and eating for the whole day! Since like on Saturday? oh no no no no.. I'm putting on weight again! better curb my eating b4 it's too late! hahahahaa..

Yes these few days I've been spendin time with my little piglet! hahahaa..

hey.. actually I've got nothing much interesting to blog.. I mean certain things needs privacy that kind of thing.. yeah... so not going to blog here...

I'll have to do the power rider thingie every morning... Starting from 15mins... then evening go for a jog.. eat lesser a bit!!! Jasmine, jia you wor!!! I know you can do it! hahahaha... yupz~ hahahaa...

Morning I'll spend time with God too.. hehehee... Just a simple prayer.. and read His words daily will help me to become a better person! yeahz.. hehehe... God help me okie?

haiz... Going for econs lesson later on.. my most dreadful lesson... I hate that..

okie ppl! all the best for everything u all do! jia you jia you zai jia you...

OooooOO...

had a new haircut yesterday! yupz. spent like $38 bucks on it? quite ex lah.. but i think it's worth it.. think I'm beginning to like the new hairstyle that I have! yeah.. hehee..

Little piglet bought a winnie the pooh alarm clock for me.. it's so cute lor! heehhee! got winnie the pooh music one... then when press it.. it will say GOOD MORNING.. hahahaa... Simply love it..

skipped POB test today.. hahaa.. but got caught by Ms Koh.. so sad hor..hahaha..

bad day...

everything went quite haywire today... board the train.. was going to be late for sch... alighted @ gombak.. wanted to take taxi but no one in sight Called God for help.. but still no taxi come to my rescue... took bus 945.. still no taxi.. walked to the bus stop.. too late for lecture... miss half of the lecture.... didn't know what the lecturer is talking about now... then got on the bus.. alighted.. but nearly black out... walked back home.. super sunny day! put hp in the bad but ended up on the floor... called my darling.. he was eating.. didn't want to disturb.. I'm fustrated...and down.. I need someone to care for me... NOW!

I'm tired!

Holidays...

Haiz.. How I wish I've got the money and time to go on a holiday with my parents... little piglet.. hehee.. piglet's family went to Malaysia, Genting this morning.. yupsie.. Hehhee.. So fortunate.. hehee.. For me.. The furtherest I've been.. Batuk Bahat.. somewhere in Malaysia.. My relatives lives around there! yupz.. heheee.. Used to visit them quite often when I was still a young child.. but now... Busy with bf..sch.. n work.. My brother is schooling... then like that veri hard lah! hahahaa..

hehehee... wanna go on cruise also.. Cos never board a ship before.. yupz yupz! hahahhaa..

hmmmz... okok... think I better go for my morning run or something! hahaha.. yupsie! Getting fatter after so much snacking! take care folks!!

Ren..

Ren? 1) Throw... 2) human 3) endure.. 4) Identitfy.. hahaaa.. chinese han yu pin ying... yup yup... 4 different sounds means 4 different words... Even with same sound.. there are different characters you can find under the same sheng diao.. hehehee.. hmmmz... Why am I into this?

Sometimes.. Ppl have to make sacrifices... It's mentioned in the bible that you'll have to scarifice something b4 God can give us something even better.... yupz... okie lah.. Think I'm talking crap here! heheee.. go cut fingernails le! too long.. after that going for a jog! yup yup.. take care folks! : )

hurt~

Confusion and hurt...
I've caused..
I'm truly sorry n I am..

Mood swings and questions..
Upset...
I have no answers to them...

I'm not angry...
With no replies...
Jus feeling sad and disappointed...

I tried to care...
But you shrug off...
You were sleeping then...

My heart is aching...
My heart is sad....
My heart is empty...
Like a well with no water to spare..

Blood donation...

hahhaaa... finally got to donate blood! cool... haven't done tat for like a year... I wanna be a regular blood donor! heheee... Although kinda scared of the needle.. but still hehee.. It's worth it... My blood can save a few lives if it's being put to use! yupz... hehehee.. Hopefully there isn't any germs or bacteria inside my blood.. heheee.. anywayz... I was like waiting outside the room then this guy came to have a short conversation with me...he's from the SRC.. council lah.. they are the ones who organise this blood donation thingie.. anywayz... hehee.. he said that I dun look like a Singaporean.. oh no! that means I look as thought I'm from China!? eeEEee!!! hahaa.. anywayz... yupz! I'm feeling prefectly fine now... oh yah another thing.. when the health screener asked how heavy I was.. I said 60.. then she ask me to weight myself.. wOw.. 53kg! oh mine! hahahaa.. heheee.. Still I have to keep up with a healthly lifestyle.. for many reasons.. I wanna spend more active time with my kids in future.. hahaa.. hahahaa.. like going clubbing with them that kind? hahaa.. diaoz rite? hahaaa... okok lah...

This morning was doing some reflection thingie... " Never cultivate a habit.. cos it's hard to change after that.." " pushing yourself to the limit.. No pain no gain... The satisfaction after putting in your best effort is nice.." yupz.. I've set myself goals that I wanna achieve in the months to come... hehee.. N I want to achieve them! yupz... hehehee... Jia you wor Jasmine.. you can do it! :)

OooooOOOOO... So early in the morning?

yup yup... couldn't sleep... haiz! Dunno why... actually I know why but... anywayz... jus here to slack for a while.. and also to type some words.. hmmmz let see... what should I crap down here? hehehee...

How's life for everyone out there who are reading my blog? Good?? Year 2004 is coming to an end pretty soon... Saving for xmas presents? heheee.. Tot of where to go for xmas? Where to have your countdown and celebrate a new year to come? hehehee... N to some... Have you tot of how to celebrate your birthday? heheheee... well well... I haven't! hahaaa... Oh no! heheheee... But I'm more worried of xmas! heheee.. Have to crack my brain a little of what to buy and stuff... yupz!

heheee...

- someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection... the lovers, the dreamers and me... -

ah!!!! I'm so super super super super super super super super sianz!!!!!

heheeeez... anywayz.. I'll be doing carolling @ Changi Airport Transit lounge on the 4th, 5th and 10th of Dec.. yeah! heheee.. yup yup... it will be so so fun!!! Haven't sang in a choir for quite some time!!! Thank God for giving and also Wen and her friend Mingren for giving me a chance to sing manZ! heheheee.. Was looking at the music scores last nite.... brought me memories... Still remember that time when we first went carolling as BBSS choir was when Mr Liew first took us.. and it's for charity gift box.. hehehee.. held @ orchard.. the area where now the street hawkers are... yeahz... fond memories..

- All I want for Christmas.. is a gift for every child... one that will be treasured.. one that gives a smile.. In this joyous season.. of pleasures great and small.. All I'm really asking.. is a gify for every child.. -

Nice song.. hehee.. learnt this when I was in pri sch choir! heheheee.. yupz.. have been in choir for like 7 years in my life! OOOooooOOO... miss those days!!! arghz... heheee.. okie lah... think I'm getting sleepy! heheee.. Good nite! oooPsz.. :P i should say...GOOD MORNING!!!

Scary experience...

Okie... I must admit something... Guys are always better in reading maps and directions... Hahahaa.. That's how my dear dear directed me to his camp. Went to pick him up this evening. He said he was sianz for the whole day (jia you wor!).. can understand a bit how he felt then... Anywayz.. we didn't go anywhere.. jus went Northpoint and his house.. Slept for half an hour or so... Then sent him back to the camp... Okie here comes the scary part... I was driving driving driving... Tot that I should keep going towards my right on the BKE cos the left board said going towards city.. Didn know it's referring to my area also lah... Shux.. Went all the way down and reach woodlands checkpoint.. yes! For once I really freaked out... Time check: 11.25pm. Ai yo yo.. Then I quickly turn towards woodlands area.. Called my piglet and I cried.. But he was calm and cool.. Kept asking me where I was.. so that he will know where's my location.. he directed me till I reach home... Thank you so much Syl.. : ) I'm sorry that I threw my temper @ you jus now. Sorry sorry!!!

Haiz.. Felt quite guilty today.. Ate quite a lot.. Ended up I skipped my dinner.. Actually I didn't skip lah.. I jus pushed forward to late afternoon only... Tml I'm not going to eat my breakfast and lunch.. then must jog extra mile! yupz.. Jia you wor..

OoooOOoo...

Hmmm.. Hi guys and gals.. If u've noticed, I have not blog for quite some time.. yupz! heheheee... busy counting calories and the duration of exercise that I have.. Starting to put on weight! Boo hoo hoo.. The thing is.. I have to eat... If not it will cause more harm than good to my body.. To those who are dieting to lose weight: Eat a balanced diet. Each day we need about 2000 kcalories.. Try not to eat more than that.. If not input more than output and before u know it.. U're putting on weight...

I feel that there are certain things in my life that I can improve on. Like how I can make use of the time fully and wisely.. to the max.. So that I'll lead a meaningful life.. Was reading one of my friend's blog jus now.. Serving the ministry or serving God in the ministry.. haiz.. That's a big big big big question mark to me now.. I've got to spend more time with Him.. the one who has saved me from eternal death and given me an undeserved gift, eternal life. Thank You Lord for always being there for me.. I love you..

Although things are starting to pick up.. taking the relationship with my daddy and mommy n my brother.. for example.. We're starting to talk more.. but one thing is lacking.. we haven't been out together for a long long time... miss those days when mommy and dad will bring us to Giant to buy those groceries... hehehee... then me and brother will buy quite a lot of stuff.. yup yup...

There are some other areas that I've yet to settle..

~Commissioning ball~

The first formal dinner that I've attended with the smartest and a guy that I'm most proud of, my bf, Sylvester. 2LT Swee Sylvester finally gradauted from OCS and had this celebration with his friends on the 23rd October. During the dinner, I saw the video of how he had suffered during the 9 months course. But jus wanna let him know that, I'm really proud of him that he has showed determination to endure thru all the hardships during the course. *salutes*

Went to the hotel ballroom. Everyone was well dressed. Each of us is special and pretty or handsome.. hahaa.. took some photographs with Syl (will be out on 14th Nov) Dunno how it will turn out to be.. hehee.. hopefully it's nice... I was so so so so nervous throughout the whole dinner... Cos haven't been to such a posh and class place le.. hehee.. Mustn't throw his face in front of his friends wor! Yupz yupz... When the dinner is coming to and end, I felt so tired le.. hehee..must be the few trips in heels from the table to toilet that makes me feel that way? hahaa.. hehee.. Syl said I looked exceptionally pretty that night.. hehee.. I also tot so. hahaa.. diaoz...

The food tasted so nice... (cost about 90 bucks per person?) especially the beef... WoW!! It's really really really really really nice!!!! hahahahaa.. Simply love it.. hehee.. and the cheesecake tasted delicious too! heheee.. After eating so much.. I'm feeling a bit guilty.. back to my dieting again.. If not I'm gonna look fat and no one wants me le!!! haahhaaa.. hmmmz.. Did I mention there's dessert buffet? hehehee... but again we didn't eat much... The red wine was good... white wine not bad.. hehee..but taste so alcohol.. hahaaa... Syl was dragged to drink beer with his friends... then we went back home le...

Things happened... Time may heal...

guess who she is? hmmmz...

saturday!

I'm getting all excited and nervous about this coming saturday.. heheee.. yeah!!!

n...

Heehehee.. or yah.. all my ex-colleagues were saying that I've slimmed down a lot! heheee.. hahaa.. hmmz.. but personally I dun think I've slimmed down a lot lah.. maybe jus a little bit lor! heheee.. yeah..

Went back to the childcare...

hehee.. Yupz.. went back to help out today... Saw Shirleen.. n she told me she's pregnant.. Congrats!!! hehee.. This year should be a booming baby year huh.. heard quite many of my friends are having babies.. hehee.. yup yup.. Aww.. n nowadays when I see babies.. How I hope I can have one of my own.. but.. too young lah.. hahaa.. must wait at least like when I'm 24 or older... hehee.. yup yup..

okie..back to the childcare kids.. hehee. they are so so so so so cute! They still remember me as Jasmine jie jie.. hehee.. the way they come running after you and giving you a hug.. your heart will just melt! hehee.. yeah.. Grace still remembered me.. Jovan (the youngest kid) too! awww... I felt like crying manz... They have grown a lot bigger now.. Especially Jovan and Ethan.. hahaa... But Ethan still so blur blur one.. always give you the blur look... Elson is getting less naughty nowadays... But Preena is still as playful as ever... Sean still quite sticky.. hahaa..he always like to stick around me..Hannah looks so sweet... n there are many many more kids whom I haven't mention...

the big kids too remember me.. hehee.. well.. Luckily never go back to teach them.. if not I'll vomit blood!!! Yes.. hehee.. they are a terror!!!! Dun believe? Try teaching them for a day lah! Your blood will boil within the first hour.. hahaa.. Javen hasn't been coming... never see Seng Oon also.. hmmmz... hehehee...

To all O levels takers.. wish ya all the best.. dun be nervous about anything.. Jus put in your best... N i'm sure when you get back your results.. you won't be that disappointed! Jia you jia you...

I'm getting all stressed up... hehee.. studies.. projects.. commissioning ball which is this coming sat.. my relationship with daddy n mommy.. Father... little piglet.. wen, ying, carinne, jen... so many things in my mind... Haiz haiz... Jia you bah Jas..

wOOoooO.. where have I gone to?

Okie okie.. hahaa... All of you must be wondering where have I gone to? Like msg me in msn nobody reply.. then send me email also never reply that kind of thing? hehee... It's not that I dun wanna reply... sometimes, I'm not the one using the computer!!! yeah... My brother will use it on my "behalf" you see.. hahaaa... yupz..

Hmmm... This saturday will be the commissioning ball!!!! I'm so so so so so so so so so excited about it. The most touching thingie... Little piglet bought another gown for me! heheee.. yeah! N it's so costly.. Have to try to sell away the other gown that I have. Anybody wanna buy gowns? Especially those with prom nites or graduation nites? hehee.. It's golden in colour.. M size.. nice nice... never wear b4... cost price is $146.. I'm now selling @ $110. Anybody? Please ask around! thank you...

Oh yah.. by the way... to those who are scouting for gowns and asseccories... I would highly recommend the shop, "Perfect in Black". But your budget must set at a higher amt.. yeah.. It's quite ex.. hahahaa... Okie.. heheee... Oh yah.. You will never get the chance to wear the same gown as others.. because.. It's the only shop in Singapore! hahaa... N the sales gal will ask about the event... n she remembers each customer which event that they will be having... so dun worry alrite! heheee...

Hahhaaa... Anyway... I bought this gown.. N the sales gal said that it was worn b4 by the Ms Singapore Universe this year.. hahaa.. oOOOooooOO... hehee.. Are u ppl waiting to see me in that gown too? hahahaa... Lucky little piglet... he got to see it first.. hehehee... next will be his parents... and my parents... then Jenny, Wen, Carinne, YinG! heheee... I'm so so excited!!!! yeah.. hahaa...

Make sure that I dun throw little piglet's face this saturday! hehee... Must be pretty pretty! hehee.. yeah.. Wish me good luck..

Not in a good mood..

Not in a good mood... Not in a good mood.... Not in a good mood..... Not in a good mood...... Not in a good mood....... Not in a good mood........ Not in a good mood......... NOT IN A GOOD MOOD..........

Food poisoning?

Oh no.. I've been feeling nausea after eating that tau pau... Drink hot milo doesn't seem to help in making feel not to vomit.. Help help!!!! See later got become merlion or not... haiz.. if yes then I'll have to go to see a doc liao!!!

POB test...

hehee.. dead... actually wanna wake up @ 2am to study for the test.. but who knows? I woke up at 5.15am... N started to panic! hahaa... how m I going to study for the test... Well... luckily I did listen to Ms Koh during lectures... so dun think I will fail that badly I hope? hahaa....

Yu Han jus msg me... He said he tot he saw me in SIM.. hahaa... yup.. I'm in SIM... kekeee... Life is so sianz..

Bad mood..

Human beings are emotional creatures. They can feel happy, sad, irritated, embarrassed..etc... When someone is in a bad mood, I can sense. N if I do care about that person, I will bother to ask. I will try to cheer that person up. I will do all things to help that person if it's within my means.. But I too will be affected by the moods that other people have. Cos I'm a emotional person myself too... I want others to be happy..even thought if it means I'm still sad or disappointed or angry or anything.... I want to bring happiness and not disappointment. I want to bring laughter and not tears... I'm tired.. I'm going to sleep... And kind souls to wake me up @ 2am to continue study for the test?

Now is windy...

The weather now is perfectly fine.. to go for a jog... It's like going to rain soon that kind... But daddy said no.. Well.. I was very angry with him at first... But I realised what he did was for my own good. He didn't want me to get skin cancer at such young age. Actually whatever he does, it shows that he cares for us... but not in those caring way lah.. as in he'll scold and stuff...

Haiz... I'm now waiting... Waiting the day that I can get of sch and start working... I dun like school life...

Will be typing the minutes soon... Tml got POB test.. which I haven't really studied for it... I'm so dead.. 3 chapters.. How m I going to squeez all those info rite into my mind!? Arghz..

Little piglet reported to his new camp today.. Hope everything turns out fine for him..

Take care everyone... Misses all of you.. Rowlies.. Haven't forgotten anyone of you.. For those taking Ns n Os.. will be praying for u gals... Misses Drill com ppl... yupz.. Misses my 4 best pals... Ying, Jen, Ning, Wen! God bless all of you!!!!

What?

Cramps... more cramps!!! I felt so terrible this morning... and of all the lectures, it's Dr Phil's !!! Arhgz.. Maths.. Hate it! I drank hot milk tea.. Doesn't seem to help in easing the pain... I massage but the pain came back in a while.. First 2 days! Haiz.. Imgaine.. it's like a leaking old tap. Yucks...

Then my best friend has got this problem.. but I can't seem to help much.. Think I'm like making her even more confused than to be clearer of the whole picture. I felt so... I'm so lost... I think that the 5 of us are not as close as before.

I didn't go to JP by chance.. And it's not because that my friend wanted to go then I was there. I bought the medicine for sore throat. But I guess tiredness and all those heavy stuff has caused great stress... I tot..nvm...

Your beautiful smile has brought happiness to my life.
Your laughter filled up my mind.
Your care and concern warms my heart.
Your love for me I'm so glad to have.
Your words that I hear sound so sweet.
Your every facial expression I think are cute.
Your saddness and woes I want to share.

Ai qing... Qin qing... You qing... na ge bi jiao zhong yao?

Taken this pic @ Chinese Garden.. The shadow? That's mi! hahaa.. My friend has forgotten the flash..or rather the camera doesn't want her to use it... hahaaa... sad huh? Ooopz.. later kenna hit by her ah! Help!!!

Busy...

With school! Tests... Assignments... Arghz...

I'm tired... I'm sleepy... I'm hungry...

Sad, stressed, confused...

My LIfe..

When I was a baby....
I cried when I was hungry... when I needed to change diapers...When I needed attention from mommy and daddy... Do nothing but to sleep, drink milk and play with those faces whom I dunno who they were...

When I was 3 years old...
I will have to share my toys with my little brother... Give in to him everytime although most of the time he was in the wrong... Got scolding from mommy if he did something bad... And he jus followed mi everywhere I go... Used to go Ah ma's house... Mommy would bring us to the MRT station.. thanks to the bus 333 service... (same no as my blk...)

When I was 6 years old...
Enough of those ABC songs... It's time for me to start my 6 years of primary school education... Cried on the first day of school because I couldn't see mommy and daddy around when I was having classes with these 39 strangers... Have to brush teeth with this red tumbler and toothbrush without toothpaste!!! Imagine that... Then it was this biscuit thingie.. with animals' faces on it.. Cos only like 10 cents per packet.. Yummy...

When I was 10 year old...
Streaming... Was in the 2nd best class then... The time that we started to know what's puberty and all.. hahaa... We had this Teacher's Day party held at my house.. Got a big scolding from mommy and daddy cos they had turned my home upside down... Everyday jus play nothing but the recorder... Hehehe... Best friends then? Shengyuan, Praveena, Wei Ting, Jason who sat beside me and lots and lots...

When I was 12 years old...
PSLE... An important year for me... Was in EM2 best class... but I didn't do well for it... Screwed up a big time... The guys did just fine although they were playing soccer using a tennis ball at the basketball court? People teased each other if they found out whoever liked who... Memories remain... Sunflower big cake... Ms Asiah, Ms Lim, Mr Govin, Mrs Siva, Ms Low, Ms Hannah, Mr Yusri, Mdm Teo, Mdm Lim, Mdm Ng, Mr Loo, Ms Soh, Ms Tan, Mrs Tan, Ms Selvi... Thank you all... Friends like Hui yee.. Zhi ning.. and Cai Ting.. still remember the letter writting? We did nothing for the last month of the year but to write things about ourselves in the autography books...

When I was 13 years old...
Got into a new environment... Starting of my new chapter.. The Teengage story... Brought a big bag and carrier on the first day of school... Hang out with people like Lavania and Sherin on the first day of school... The class was exceptionally quiet... But it didn't take us long to merge as a class and started getting rowdy and all... Fun.. Mr Samuie, Ms Lim, Ms Loo, Mr Kuna (Be moral be moral be moral!) Mrs Rajen, Ms Seow now known as Mrs Wong, Mrs Chee, Ms Tay.. Joined GB but wanted to quit on the first day... But God planned it such that I didn't quit...

When I was 14 years old...
The class was filled with laughter and all... Ms Ngiam, Mr Latiff, Mrs Ooi, Ms Jayanthi, Mdm Yang... Of course lots of unhappy events did occur... But still it's finally rain over sky green... My results was so so good... such that I got 2nd for my class for midyear... First time in the whole education history (later u'll know why.. hahaa..) Still remembered I got chosen for the Sec2 leadership training camp.. The most scary experience in my life... Nite walk, ropes course..canoeing.. Haiz.. First time I went canoeing was with Mr Jansen... So fun! He canoed with me once...hehee... Posts such as outing manager was introduced to the class... There was this encouragement corner... Days that I really miss would be this year... Had a farewell party... All of us enjoyed but we didn't forget each other when we proceed on..

When I was 16 years old...
O levels... How to pass every subject when I had been failing since Sec3... Got to know this guy and this relationship greatly affected my study performance! Mdm Yaw ( "I'm a very democratic person!") Mrs Lim, Mr Tan, Ms Jayanthi, Mrs Quek, Mr Chia, Ms Loo, Mr Jansen (my god-daddy) ... But luckily I did ok for my prelims... Got into first 3 months... O levels was okie except for that sucky C6 for my Eng.. If not my L1R5 could have been better... Ppl like Dinesh, Phyllis, Joe, Pauline, David, Firdaus, Chungweng... I won't forget them~ Also... Got the Best NCO award... but it's nothing.. Cos I couldn't earn my PBR... errr!!!

When I was 18 years old...
While everybody were enjoying... We had to stay at home and study for A levels!!! Arghz... Time flies...It seemed like yesterday that I was still enjoying a great time with my first 3 months friends... Skipping classes...doing naughty stuff.. Asking owe flat ask big question.. before I know it... It was my 6 months hols... Found a job at this montessori... It was great... Teachers whom I will always remember me... Ms Low, Mrs Low, Mr Poh, Ms Yemuna, Mdm Khoo, Ms Soh, Mr Ng, Ms Azah, Ms Wong... Haiz... Also a birthday not to forget... Had a high fever at 38.8 degrees.. Accepted Christ in year 2002, 22nd April.. Went for my BOTC... Got promoted to WO...

When I was 19 year old...
Broke up with a guy whom I'm with for 4 years... Got dumped by this guy I got to know from some night spot... It was terrible terrible terrible... I didn't live a Christ-like life then... Slowly I got back to Him... yeah... Then came the unforgettable experience of NDP! Got to know a lot of great friends and Sirs... got to know Ms Angeline, Ms Gan, Ms Li a bit better... hehee.. I shall not go into details.. Can read my previous entries in July and August to know more about it... yeah... But I'm indeed honoured to be this year's GB contingent's commander... Got to know this great guy sometime in mid June... Went out first date @ causeway... Tot he could be the one... and he's now my bf... Yesterday went for his commissioning parade! I'm so proud of him!!!! He looked so smart yesterday... N I thought he looked the smartest? hahaa.. *Salute* Permission to carry on, Sir! heehehee... God is still there for me... Thank you Father... N now I'm in SIM doing a Banking and Finance degree with UOL.. hopefully can get First Class Honors.. hehee.. yupz yupz..

And now I'm going to open another chapter of my life... the tweeTY year... Awww.. I'm going to be 19 forever rite?? yeah yeah... As long as I'm young at heart will do... A lot of responsiblities and obligations to fulfil... Haiz..

hmmMMMmz...

Happy! heheee.. Saw my neighbout when I came back from my jog.. Guess what she said..

"hey.. u slimmed down a lot... Any tips that u can share with me? hehee.. I eat till I getting fatter leh.."

heheee... yeah.. I slimmed down? hehee.. dun think so leh.. think still got a lot more fats to shed.. yeah.. Haiz.. Think I'm gonna change my blog skin rather soon.. Gettin sick n tired looking at the same old one.. heehe..

Hey Hey.. Tml's Children's Day.. Wishing all of u a Happy Children's Day!!! heheee.. hmmmz.. Christmas is coming soon.. I'm looking forward to this Christmas.. yupz! :)

Upcoming tests...

Oh no!!! I've got so many tests coming up but haven't studied any of them.. I think I'm going to fail a big time! I hate econs!!! So sucky! Dunno what they are talking about most of the time... N here comes assignment 1 which I have to hand in within next 2 weeks! Shux... I hate Econs! I dun like it man...

Next week got maths and POB test... I'm going to be dead.. Haven't finished reading the POB notes yet! oh no!!! die die... I'm supposed to get the mike buckle's text from my senior.. yup yup.. sianZ!!!! argh... Still got AF homework haven't finished yet... oh no oh no!!! how how how??? hahaa...

Losing weight...

Hey guys.. still remember that "trying" blog? hehee... Well.. I was talking about losing weight.. yup yup... U guys know something? Think I've gained quite a bit of weight lor.. hai hai hai hai... wanna lose weight.. shed those fats that has been with me since young? hahaa... Yeah.. was in TAF since like pri3? hehee.. diaoz.. till sec3 then i'm released from there.. hahaa... yup yup.

hmmm..flabby arms.. tummy.. awww... I'm determined man! hahaa...

So no more supper for me.. No dinner and lunch for me.. if possible lah.. hahaa.. Eat less.. Drink more water.. Found out that drinking lots of water does help a little in weight loss.. haaa.. those studying biology should know ah... water emulsifies fats.. yup..which means it will break down fats lor.. hahaa.. eat more protein food.. less carbohydrates.. less oily stuff...Everyday go and jog.. do the toning arms exercises.. heheee.. fwah... seems quite a bit of work huh? diao diao! hahaa..

I guess slimming centres does help a little but the effect doesn't stay for long if I've got the mentality that I dun have to do anything much to help myself in losing weight... yup yup.. hehee... Wanna go and tan too! hehee.. diaoz.. : )

MIA - Missing in action

BIA - Back in action

Early in the morning
I woke up by the ringing...

hahaa... erm erm...

Late in the afternoon
My stomach is growling...

ooops.. hahaaa....

Then in the evening
Mommy is still singing...

Oh man! What's this? hahaa... nothing much! hahaa.. gonna tidy up my room pretty soon.. Can't stand the mess anymore! hahaa..

my new look..hehee... some of u maybe able to see the diff.. look closely.. hahaa..

hehee.. guess what I've done jus now...

hehehee... First time after so many months... I've finally read my POB notes.. hahaa.. oh man... N i think I'm getting more and more interested in this course that I'm taking... Seriously! I didn't know banking is so fun! hahaa.. Kinda regretted why I didn't take Econs back in jc... hahhaa.. cos I couldn't meet the criteria to take up the subject lor.. so sad! hehee..

Sorry Li Shan.. Didn't call ya back.. I know u gals missed me.. Give me some time.. I know I've taken far too long.. but I've already decided..

Hmmmz... Think I'll have to turn in pretty soon.. Feel kinda sleepy.. but b4 that.. Think I'm going to read my AF notes.. hehee... Yeah.. Yesterday..oops.. I mean Thurs was my first lecture on AF... fun! hehee... Lotsa fun... maybe because it's jus the basics bah.. hahaa...

Yeah... Yippie.. hehee... Nitez...

Shux.. havin a cold and a itchy throat..

hahaa... yup yup... going to be sick.. but hopefully won't fall that ill! :)

"...There are 3 types of students... A student who sure fail.. A student who has the potential to score well but didn't make it.. And those who excel.. Which type do you belong to?..."

Hahaha.. that's what my AF lecturer asked us this morning... hmmmz... I belong to the potential who can score well.. but maybe can't make it that kind.. but I'm determined.. really.. to get my 2nd upper..hopefully lah..

Life is much better...

Life is much better when I'm walking beside God.. and not behind Him... Things are starting to pick up... But not quite... When it comes to relationships... May it be the daughter-parents relationship.. or relationship with my friends... I felt kinda distanced away from them...

I tot we were quite close.. but u said it isn't.. U said you're tired...

I'll continue my walk beside God... He's now waiting for the rest to catch up too... I'm pulling you along.. Dun give up!

Hmmz.. haiz.. Jus got back from sch.. quite tired.. I mean I didn't have a good sleep last nite.. This morning woke up early.. Actually wanted to finish up my assignment but.. I wanna be a sensible..mature young adult.. I want!!! Maybe I dunno how to strike the balance between being sensible and how to be much bonded in the relationship...

Nothing is eternal except for God's love.. Love ya Father...

Think...

M I still a 19 year old kid? Who wants all the things to be done in her own way? Do I expect my parents and friends to give in to me always? Do I think like a kid or more maturely?

I am still a child in God's and my parents' eyes...However, I guess I've reached a certain level of maturity.. When it's time to let go.. I have to... When it's time to be alone... I will be... When it's time to be there for my friends.. I'll be there... When it's time for me to study... I must... When it's time for me to rest... I'll rest... When it's time to hide my feelings...I will.. When it's time to bid goodbye to my friends... I doubt I can....

But I guess... I will have to learn. Although certains things it's hard to do it.. or not to do it... I'll have to learn how to handle that... I'm nineteen... not a nine year old kid...

If you want me to be there, just give me a call... I'll reach the place where ever you are.. asap.. Remember.. that's what friends are for.. :')

Crying...

C rying is a way to let your emotions all out...
R elease all the stress that has been bottled inside...
Y ou will feel better after crying...
I will be there to comfort you..
N ot to worry... no one is watching...
G o on and cry out... I'm there.. My child.. God said..

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

Heheheee... This is how I feel..

A nger isn't going to help to solve the problem...
B e thankful always, cos God is there to help you...
C areful of what comes out of your mouth...
D on't ask what can God do for you... but ask what you can do for God...
E everything is being planned by Him, the mighty one...
F orever, He's there... to lend u a helping hand...
G od is love...
H oly holy, God almighty...
I gnorance is not always a blessing...
J ovial, a word that describes me?
K indess is a virtue that I've found in all my friends...
L ove your neighbour as yourself...
M ommy and daddy do care for me.. although I can sense that they like my brother better..
N o one is perfect in this world...
O pen up your heart to those who needs some of your love...
P ondering over the goodness of His love...
Q ueueing is a good habit.. duh? haha..
R ead the bible daily to recieve your daily bread...
S on of God is Jesus...
T o be served or to serve? Servant leadership...
U nderstand not based on our understanding but His...
V ery encouraging to see people coming to the His kingdom...
Z zzzZZZzzzzZ.. Some of you must be fast asleep when you're reading this..

I'm a right brainer...

hahaa.. attended the officer's retreat jus now...

It was awesome...

Felt kinda bad of not able to stay over night.... sorry gals!

God created each of us uniquely... We're all different in a way or another... But He also brought us together to serve as a ministry... He uses our strength.. and creates circumstances to develop on our weaknessess.. haiz.. God tell me... where u wanna me to serve...

Trying...have to...

I've been trying.. N I'm still trying... And I'm trying hard... I'm trying.. Try and try... trying trying... Dun give up trying... Everbody is trying... Try to try...

I have to... and I still have to... Everybody have to.. we have to...

What's up with me? With all these trying and have to thingie.. hahaa.. Only God and me know.. hahaa.. Help me k God? Thank You! :)

hmmmz...

hehee.. okie.. shan't blog anything that's not suitable for the younger ones.. hehee...

Mooncake festival is jus round the corner... hehee.. So exciting.. I'm gonna play with candles and the lanterns and and the fire sparklers.. hahaa.. hahaa... Now I sound like a 5 year old child.. nvm about tat.. hahaa.. But it's fun to watch the full moon with my parents... eating mooncake.. drinking chi tea.. hehe..

Mooncakes... yummy yummy.. hehee.. but can't eat too much though.. yup.. hahaha.. If not gonna gain weight again.. hahaa... yup yup.. hahaa... : )

Alritey... Better go do my tutorial questions b4 Ms Koh starts to scream @ me.. hahaa.. : )

Excited n nervous...

hehee... : )

So excited~

3 weeks passed just like a breeze? No it wasn't true in the beginning...
Life was hard and lonely... Without the presence of little piggy...
But less in 24 hours bunny will see...
Little piglet with a bit of injuries?

No worries, bunny will be there...
To sayang you and shower you with care...
God will bring you back here safely...
Till then, we shall meet...

Hmmmz.. couldn't sleep... hahaa.. hai hai hai.. :) Gonna see a panda bunny rabbit... hahaa.. a mutated one ah? oPps.. :P

1 day...

1 more day n I will get to see you...
Feeling excited and nervous and thinking what I'm going to do...
Nothing out to embarrass you...
Jus wanna give u a big hug and say I do treasure you...

Although we may felt quite distanced away...
But deep in our hearts we know that we all have a special place...
Things will get better when we meet on Wednesday...
And things will change, same or better than in the past...

Little piglet maybe feeling tired right now...
I just pray Lord that You'll let him be safe and sound...
As he makes his way back here...
Let us all reunite and be happy as well..

Sad...

Again, the conversation wasn't that good...
You said that either one of us tried too hard or isn't trying at all...
No words can actually describe how I feel...
But I know I'm afraid of losing you...

Bunny rabbit isn't feeling too good...
Of making little piglet angry, sad and confused...
She jus wanna say that she's really sorry...
Although that's why she will always say and do...

Like what you've said,piglet...
Jus hope that things will turn out to be the same or better...
God please help us... We're lifting this relationship into Your loving hands...
Pray that we'll depend on You and not on our understanding.. Of what You want us to do..

Disappointment...

I called you in excitement but u didn't sound so well...
I thought you will feel happy to hear my voice... But you talked to me in a different way...
I felt that I weren't treasured and you thought so too...
What happen between us? Is it meant to be in this way in the first place?

Maybe you felt tired after days of training...
I can understand if you tell me straight...
But please don't ignore me and treat me like a stranger...
Cos i felt so hurt and the tears will not stay...

Bunny rabbit is not good at words...
She can't tell you exactly how she feels...
But deep in her heart, you have a special place...
She misses you so much and hope that you all will be together forever in the future days...

So blessed...

really.. I'm so blessed to have a brother... He's so so nice to me man... I was jus telling him like days ago that I wanna get a mp3 player... n he bought me one?? N when I said I'll pay him he said no need wor! Oh manz.. hehee.. Thank u brother... really.. thanks a lot!!!

3 days...

yup... 3 days.. N I'll be able to see how much weight little piglet has lost... He was telling me that even his officers can't recongnise him! Oh no no no... haahaa.. He took up the role of platoon sergeant for his mission today.. God help him.. : )

Hehehee.. Gonna fetch him from the airport this coming wed... hehee.. Kinda afraid to call up his parents n ask whether they will be going down.. if they are I can give them a lift.. But what's there to be nervous about? hehee... errr.. hahaa...

Thank you Lord for answering our prayers...
We were confused then and didn't know what to do...
But You came to our rescue... Our personal Lord and saviour...
There's nothing that we want to say but a big THANK YOU....

Thank You Lord for being with us all the time...
Although sometimes we may not come to You but You didn't forsake us....
When we're down, You pick us up... When we're dry You fill our cup...
Again, we jus want to say a big THANK YOU!

Thank You lord for so many many things that happen in my life...
Put in more circumstances oh Lord to increase my faith! : )

heheheee... Edited photos... nice? : )

5 days...

Counting down.. 5 days..

Get tired easily nowadays... Hmmmz... tired tired tired.... hehehee...

I felt tired... I started to ask...
Where is God when I needed Him that much?
However a question popped into my mind...
Am I a disciple or a consumer kind...

God is there for me when I'm down...
But did I go to Him when I smile?
God gave all His love for me...
Sacrificed Jesus for our sins...

Lord, thank You for all You've done...
I'm so blessed by You and by Your son..
Thank You for bringing great friends into my life...
I'll love them with all my heart, soul and mind...

A week more...

7 days... N little piglet will be back... hehehee... I'm so nervous... and pai seh to see him next wed.. hahahaa.. yup..

Today will be that ang moh lecturer again! arghz... maths... hahahahaa... Actually maths is an interesting subject.. is the teacher that makes it uninteresting.. hahahaa.. yup yup..

Haven't finished tidying up my room though... sianz!!! hai hai hai.. Will be doing my revision today.. also to clean my room.. n go jogging... hehehee... lots of things to do huh? yeah.. sianZ!

2 sentences for each paragraph.. Hahhaa.. yah... nothing to blog nowadays..

Close shave...

oh man!!! It was another scary experience... My dog's left eye got scratched again!!! This time round dunno by what~!! So brought her to see the vet...

She was so fierce and started barking at any dogs or cats that she saw in the clinic.. hahaa.. the receptionist was like commenting that she's a veri fierce doggie... but I'm glad that Lucky is now okie..heheee... phew..

hehehee... She got scratched by a cat b4.. but she isn't scared of them though.. hahaa... she'll jus bark n bark n bark.. She doesn't like motorbikes too.. hehehee... hahahaa....

Poor Lucky.. hehee.. n now she's barking again.. :)

9 more days...

another 9 days n I'll get to see little piglet... Wondering if he's coping fine with the tough training... God please help him oh Lord to pass his JCC..

Hmmmz... Friends to me are equally important... Ask any of my veri good friends and u'll know this truth... hahaa.... geeez... bhb.. hahaa... But really.. heheee...

Love all of you! : )

Lemon tree... hahaa...

I'm sitting here in a boring room...
It's just another sunny sunday afternoon...
I'm wasting my time I've got nothing to do...
I'm hanging around I'm waiting for you...
N I am always, waiting for you...

I wonder how I wonder why...
I miss you so much do u ever know...
N I am here... waiting for you return...
I'm turning my head up and down..
I'm turning turning turning turning turn around...
N all I can do.. is continue to miss you...

haiz.. Have to wait another 10 more days.. yupz!

Soon...

Jus another 10 more days or so... n little piglet will be back from his training... guess it must be pretty tough for him but with God's help.. I'm sure he'll come back in one whole piece.. hahaa..

Actually nothing much to blog lehz.. hahaa... as you can see... nowadays I seldom blog... yupz yupz.. Cos I've written most of the things in the little booklet.. yupz yupz... Haiz.. All I can say is... life is super duper sianz!

Bought this watch that I had once seen @ Bugis... Wanted to buy but it costs $12.90.. then went Sim Lim yesterday... saw the watch again... but it's sold @ $10... hehee.. asked my brother if I should buy it.. N he said yes.. First time that he agrees with me wor! hahahaa.. Normally if I ask him if I look pretty in that outfit he'll give me a standard answer... which is NO.. hahahaa... So bad of him huh... @ least give some constructive comments why I dun look nice in it lah..

hehehee.... Suddenly tot of Phillips (my house in sec sch...) cheers... Here it goes...

1) Dun say you're winning, cos Phillips is running.
N We're always winning jus see how we run...
Dun cry here baby, not before we're ready....
Dun say you gonna be the champions... It's not like we're losing...
Give us, give us some time... ( Sing in the tune of "Dun say u love me..")

2) Ai ya yi ya, we're the Phillips butterfly...
Green and just green make the nature's colour bright... (ai yah.. u all know lah... "Butterfly")

3) A little bit of enegry from your side, a little bit of cheering from our side...
A little bit of speeding you can do. A little bit of everything that makes you! ( "Mambo No.5)

hehehee... Miss secondary sch days... especially when I was in sec 1 n 2... all of us were so united as a class... hahaa... Still remember when we were in Sec2... tchers' day... we played the bombing game with the class beside us.. hahahaa... Ended up the principal came up.. but he didn't scold us.. phew... hahaa... haiz.. lots of things happen! but we still enjoyed our 2 years... Rite gals?? hehee..

Hey ppl...

Hmmmz... Nowdays I've been veri forgetful... For example, I had forgotten to lock the car..not once.. but twice... in a day! Oh mine... N also I'll forget what I've just thought of n stuff.. that explains why I need to write down whatever I'm thinking of...

I was jus thinking of something... but have forgotten a moment ago.. but now.. hehee.. can remember le!! hehehee.. Anyone know where I can get pretty evening gowns?? N at the same time not buring a hole in the pocket... Willing to pay up to $250 for the gown.. Yupz yupz.. or does anyone know where to find a good seamstress? haiz.. I'm attending a ball in october.. yupz..

haiz.. Why can't time pass a bit faster!? Just a bit more?!!! I'm sad.. I m.. I'm tired.. I m.. Because my auntie is visiting me pretty soon.. hahaa.. Hey hey.. haiz! Getting the mood swing thingie! hahaa.. sianz!!!!

I love you for who you are...
Dun doubt my love for I will cry...
Make me sad if you want...
If it doesn't pain your heart...

Missing you isn't a chore...
Cos deep down in my heart...
I know I've always love you right from the start...

Do you know I miss you so?
Waiting for your return...
Dun leave me again if you can...
And I promise I'll always be with you...

Suddenly tot of writing this... yupz! hehehee..

New guitar...

Heheheee... Yeah ppl! I've bought a new guitar.. Yamaha... Black one.. hahaha... Looks kinda cool.. Went for my first guitar lesson yesterday.. The instructor tried playing with it.. n He said it's a good one.. Sounds nice.. hahaa...

yeah yeah! hahahaa... hmmz.. played the chorus of gu dan bei ban qiu yesterday.. n it's in front of those pros.. fwahz.. was so stressed up!!! yeah... haiz....

kk.. better get going if not i'll be late for lecture!! byeeez..

have not been blogging....

yupz.. Haven't been blogging for quite some days.. Cos I'm not in the mood to do so...

Had a wonderful saturday evening... Went to teach drill...N they are ppl who are like older than me? Oh mine.. Was so stressed up! yupz.. Later went coffee club with joey, mr, n yl.. ai ai never join us cos she was too tired.. There was this foul smell that kept blowing towards us.. Puke puke.. then yl was telling us about her digestive system n stuff.. hahaa.. quite gross.. hahaaa...

then yl was asking about little piglet n I.. "....planning to get married??..." hahaa... It's too early to say anything I said.. but I was actually thinking about marriage n stuff.. But tot that I was too young to say about this.. yup yup.. I mean we just started out n.. but...hahaa.. Will say all this in my little booklet too..

hmmmz... Anyone has got the torch that's in the ndp goodie bag.. n if u dun need it can donate it to me? I need it urgently! yup yup.. please please ppl... help me wor.. please please.. thank you thank you.. hahahaa.. pengz.. so many X 2...

Do u guys out there have got any idea which hotel's mooncakes taste nice? I'm going to get them for my parents this year.. yup.. hehee.. Later going to back to sch for consultation.. Sianz! Cos it's maths!!! fwahz..

...when ppl say we cannot make it... but we did...

heheee... nothing much to write lah!! writing crabby stuff! hahaa.. sianz!

Such a feeling coming over mi...

There is wonder in most everything I see..
Not a cloud in the sky... Got the sun in my eyes...
N I won't be surprised if it's a dream...

Everything I want thte world to be...
Is now coming true especially for me...
And the reason is clear... It'e because you're here...
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen....

I'm on top of the world looking down on the creation...
N the only explaination I can find...
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around...
Your love puts me at the top of the world...

Routine...

Wake up in the morning... Feeling sianz! as usual.. This is what I'll always do....

Check my email.. both yahoo n hotmail accounts.. check friendster... for both little piglet n mine.. Looking @ the photos that we've taken together... haiz... miss ya...

Little piglet called me last nite.. when i was sleeping soundly... Tears rolled down my cheeks... I was shocked..excited..nervous..happy! so much emotions.. I'm really... arghz... I miss u so so much! I'll write more about it in the little book.. yupz..

Long long ago...

hahaa.. yupz.. It has been quite some time that I've written anything in this bloggie.. Have been busy accompany little piglet all these while... He went Brunei yesterday for his JCC.. hmmmz.. Will be praying for him that he'll be fine for these 3 weeks.. Kinda miss him now..

School isn't that bad.. Went for the consultation session.. it wasn't that sianz.. Except for the 6 classes of people who are squeezing into a lecture hall! People were like looking high n low for places to sit.. Some eventually decided to rest on the stairs.. hahaha.. Being the most considerate person in the world... hahaa... (puke puke...) I gave up my seat n went off.. Ooops... hahaaa...

Hehheee.. Today is that Phil lecturer again.. I wonder how am I going to suffer if I continue to attend his lecture! Can't really understand what he's teaching n stuff!!! Sianz!!! sianz!!!! hahaaa... Today he's moving on to differentiation.. arghz!! The 2nd most dreadful topic! hahhaa..

Lalalalaaaa... Composed a song.. but forgotten its tune!!! Yupz!!! hahahaa.. Nvm lah... Will try harder to recall it lor..

Take care ppl.. have a blessed week.. :)

Yawnz...

Friday 13 August 2004

Phew... Bad day!! Lotsa things happen... hehee.. sianz!!! But lao gong came to my house to stay over lor.. hehehee.. yupz yupz..

Saturday 14 August 2004

Morning parade wasn't that bad... The gals enjoyed the games... n drill... think the sec1s are improving lor.. hehehee.. yupz.. WEnt out with lao gong n his friends... hehheee... erm erm... not so bad lah.. yeah... get to hear lao gong sing also lor... but he has got this bad tummy-ache awwww.. sad sad...

Sunday 15 August 2004

Heheee... guess what day is it? SUNDAY! hahahaa... nope nope!! hahaa.. :) I'm sure little piglet knows.. yup yup... hahahaa.. :)

Yawnz.... hahaa.. :)

When I was sad...

I felt so tired.. so sad.. so down...
N when nobody is there, looking around...
I sat down on the sand, alone with no one there...
Crying in despair..

Using a stick, I write on the sand...
Why is God so unfair?...
However, I thought again...
He is using circumstances to increase my faith...

N here I am once again...
Looking at the sea and the stars in the sky...
I felt peace and joy in my heart...
Hearing a voice n here's what He said...
"I am always beside you my child. No matter where"...

It's over...

It seems so fast... The actual parade was actually so fast!?? I nearly cried when I was standing at the parade ground... N as I sing the national anthem, I felt that sense of pride being a Singaporean... Hey.. I was representing GB.. WoW! It's really an experience... So many ppl have given me so many encouragement... hahaa.. They sms-ed me saying that GB did well! I'm so proud of the gals!!! They really gave their best!!! All of them were shouting the timing... loudly n clearly.. N they took pride in their marching...

N as I ran out of the stadium.. I really wanted to cry! It's the end of the whole show... Sob sob...

N I as stood there.. watching the fireworks.. I felt so emotional.. Wanted to tell my parents that I love them too.. Wanna tell my friends how I really treasure the friendship that we have built up over the years... I love all of u ppl!

Although NDP has ended.. I still miss all of u! :)

NDP

ahhhh... 9th August... National day... hahaa.. feeling nervous and excited....

"What if your cap drop ah? hahaa.. Then I'll be laughing till I drop..hahaa.."

ai yo yo.. my mommy said that!!! hahaaa... Think my parents are proud of me lah.. though they didn say it out! hahaa.. ai yo..i bhb rite? diaoz.. yeah.. heheee... But it's really a great honour and joy to be the contingent commander of the Girls' Brigade Singapore for this year's NDP. Got to know a lot of friends... Ppl like Steph..Prsic...Sheila...n the other gal's name which I've forgotten.. sorry sorry.. n get to know army personnels like WO Wong.. Aylwin..Aylosius.. N get to know Ms Jenny Gan and Ms Angeline a lot better...

Also.. we got to taste yummy food for every rehearsal.. Although sometimes their food may not taste that nice... but still, Thank God for the yummy food that He has provided us.. Also thank God for Ashley.. Cos without her.. I'll be veri xiong! haaa.. Must go in for all the rehearsals.. NE show.. NDP perview n the actual! Thank u lots! N also... Wanna thank Ms Angeline for giving me this chance to be this year's NDP CC.. (hehee.. they can't find anybody..) haaaa... Also want to thank my parents, little piglet, my 4 si dang, Jami (my ai ai), Mengru, Wendy, Joey, Rowlies, Jeannette, n all who have given me support in way or another! Thank u ppl! Most importantly.. wanna thank God for His strength..

ahhhh!!! Better go n polish my boots again! hahaa.. Ppl... catch me on the tv alrite!? hehee.. yeah... those with vcr help me tape down leh.. thanks..

haiz..

"Hi Mr Latiff... How are u?"

"Hi May! How have u been?"

arghz.... I'm not May.. hahahaa... Oh no!!!! May, if u're happening to be reading this blog.. hahaa.. Yupz.. Latiff mistaken our identities.. I'm u.. hahaa.. diaoz.. hahaaa.. He always say that I'm u wor.. no wonder we are sisters rite? hahaa.. still remember i'm the middle one...n u're the xiao mei? hahaha.. yeahz..

"Oh Hi Jenny! Ta shi wo men de 2001 cello the group leader..."

She didn't even bother to say hi to me!!!! She didn't!!!! It's my fault.. Didn't hand in her homework.. That happened when I was in sec3.. Grandmother passed away.. ended up didn do homework.. then didn hand in that piece of homework for one whole month.. I was so sad lor.. She treated me as if I wasn't there.. what? haiz.... Why!!?? I know I'm not one of the top students in the class.. I know I shouldn't be in that class in the first place rite? I remembered u once asked me during your maths class...

"Jasmine, what level position did u get? oh.... 100 over? Then you shouldn't be in this class rite?"

I ran out of the classroom... Crying..

I told myself that I mus do well in her subject! I didn't hate her.. of course I didn't! Cos she's a good teacher!!!! Same like Mdm Yaw... Jus that the way they encourage ppl is by suaning that kind? It's okie that they suan me.. if they're talking to me alone...

N now I'm in SIM.. Determined to get First Class Honours! I mus do it.. Not for anybody's sake but for God, mine n my parents n little piglet! I mus do them proud!

Bad day...

Yupz... besides the shopping part.. the rest of the day isn't that good..

I'm having this cramp thingie.. n headache for the whole nite! I felt so terrible... Planning my time n everything... Little piglet will be going to Brunei soon.. I felt so bad.. I'm sorry little piglet.. U're like trying to spend as much time with me as possible N I'm not able to do that. Sorry.. Sorry....

I jus had this arguement with my brother.. what's the problem of going to sch 10 mins earlier??? Not as if something bad may happen to him or what! What??? haiz.. Terrible! Everything is so.....

Headache...

Sob Sob... I'm having a headache! sob sob...

2nd day of school...

Arghz... 2nd day of school.. Maths lecture! I didn't wanna to have a ang moh teaching me math.. Cos his accent can't be understood.. N that stupid mic of his is not working! Got a hard time concentrating n listening! ARghz... Think I'm going to be dead... It's so so so...arghz...

N the worst thing? My good friend visited me... Nice time indeed... Arghz... Haiz.. But I guess it's better to come now then on National Day.. Hahaa.. If not I'm going to be dead lor.. Stand down there n having cramps? Yucksz....

To my best pal: Gal.. dun be sad or anything alrite? I'll always be here for u! Wen, Carinne n ying will also be there... Smile alwayz!!! yupz yupz...

Hmmz... that's about all lor.. sianz! I'm going to arrage my notes le.. update my blog later..

First day of school...

Heheee... Woke up in the morning n feeling exceptionally excited! Hehee.... Decided to wear the pink tee n the dirty green skirt... Heheee.. But after chaned to the white one.. Cos I think that looks nicer with the skirt lor.. yupz.. hahaa... Make sure everything is okie then i drive to sch...

Went to pick Yi Ching n Min Sin up @ the westmall Mac.. Hahaaa.. Tot we're gonna be late... Cos there was a minor accident jus b4 i made a u-turn to my school.. arghz.. First day of school n met this kind of thing already? hahaa..

Saw this person in the lift from my OG.. but kinda forgotten his name.. so didn't dare to call him.. hahaa.. So qiao.. He happens to be in the same econs lecture as mi.. hahhaaa.. Then came Pei Hong.. tot she's not in the same class as me wor.. Hahhaaa.. But I'm glad that @ least someone is with me lor! yupz..

Then there's this person who's sitting beside me.. So anti one..actually wanna make friends with him but during break time he jus listened to his discman.. hahaa.. Nvm then! Saw lots of ex-jjcians!!! N Pei Hong was like saying hi to almost everybody!? hahaa.. She knows quite a lot of ppl u see.. haiz.. poor me..

hahaa.. then I met David... 2 of my OG frenz... N guess who else I saw? Sir Alyosius? yupz! He was having lunch with his friends @ sim too.. N who else? Wesley...

Back to my lecture.. @ first I tot I will not be able to understand what Ting (my lecturer) is talking about.. but it turned out fine.. can understand.. but dunno how to get the gradient thingie! Hahaa.. Shall try out some questions later! that's what I'm gonna do.. Revise after every lecture! hahaa.. erm.. Little piglet needs to help me horz! hahaa.. Oh yah.. He was saying that Econs is a killer subject... Think I agree too!!! hahaaa.. :)

heheee... First day of school... I'm moving on to the last pages of my 1st chapter of life.. hehee.. Left about like 6 months N I'll be in by ty n not teen.. hahaa... sad.. but it's okie... Yupz!!!

For those who are reading my blog... take care!!! Catch my on the tv alrite?. heheee.... on NDP.. yeah..

Choir gathering...

yupz yupz... 1st August... We had our first choir gathering after leaving bbss for 2 years... Hehehee.. Mrs Wong (tic of Choir..) jus came back from the States.. With her little daughter.. heheeee... She still looks the same... N some said that she actually looks younger now.. maybe is her hair style.. hahaa.. Her daughter looks more like her husband.. hahaa.. but her eyes look like Mrs Wong wor.. hahaaa.. Haiz.. But they will be going back on the 19th August.. yupz.. Little piglet is leaving on the 18th...

Hmmmz... Mr Liew is still the same.. the joker.. hahaa.. He's our conductor.. But due to some reasons... He left bbss choir a year ago? Sad... heard that they're going to close down choir sooner or later.. the membership is now 20 only lor.. hahaa.. Compared to last time.. we had 70-80 choir members.. hahaaa... Sad.. He said he only wants her da lao po! hahaaa... diaoz... That is Wen.. hahaa.. She's da lao po cos she was our chairlady.. hahaa..

Glad to see everyone who were @ the gathering this afternoon.. heheee.. Guess all of us were kind of updated where n what we're doing now.. hhaaaa.. But the sad thing is we never get to sing together huh? hahaaa.. I mean that is what it's meant to be rite? Choir? hahaa...

Alrite.. Waiting waiting waiting... Still hasn't come yet.. hopefully tml isn't the day! hahaa.. IF not it's really gonna spoil my mood.. shux.. haven't bought my text book yet... Planning to get a guitar too... hehee... haven't gotten my pay yet too...hmmz.. should i call them up n ask? hahaa..

I feel so...

Disappointed... yupz.. but can understand what u're going thru n stuff.. Take care... Have plenty of rest...

Jus felt tat cramp thingie while chatting on the phone.. Argh... Sianz.. Tml will be the day...

Why(....... )  What (........ ) haiz...

N that stupid air con! Switched on n off by itself... (oh man.. it's kinda scary now... ) shux..

It's late.. time to ZZzzzzZzzzz...

Mood swing is here...

I felt so easily irritated nowadays.. Sorry mom.. Think I've thrown temper on u.. But u're always so understanding.. Thanks Mom (although u won't b reading this.. but.. ) Oh no.. it's finally here again... the stupid mood swing... Following that will be.. haiz.. cramps... Hopefully it doesn't come on my first day of school...

I'm feeling so... i dunno how to describe that kind of feeling.. maybe scared? Confused? nervous? Dad is like going to be 60 next year... mom is around that age too... It's like they're getting older n older every minute... N I've not been good to them! They have taken care of me for so many years! They didn't even complain or anything... Jasmine, what have u done in return? U didn't do well in ur O n A levels... Get into not so good SIM... U only know how to enjoy and play all the time... Didn spend much time with your parents but keep running about... Like what mom said.. treat ur home like hotel huh? Oh mine! What is this, gal?

(irritating.. Lucky is barking!!! arghz.. stop that! if not...Thanks mom.. 4 scolding the dog..)

N the most important thing is... They haven't received Jesus in their hearts yet.. which means they're not going to heaven.. n that means I'm not going to meet them there? Oh no!!! No wayz... But.. what m i going to do.. I'm so scared... so afraid...

I'm afraid of being hurt again too.. Much too afraid.. Will it end up like the last one? One month? or I'm someone that he doesn't like n leave me after 2 years? I'm suddenly feeling so insercure n everything.... Is it because of the hormonal change that's happening inside my body?

I guess so.. haiz! I feel so... God? where are u?

Oh yah.. I dun feel feverish anymore.. the antbodies inside me has lost the battle.. N I'm having the sore throat!

 

Jenny is @ it again...

hahahaa... She's playing the guitar again... haaaa.. but has forgotten how to play the C n G that I've taught her... hehehee... anywayz.. it didn't sound that bad...

Later wen came to join us n we spent the whole evening together.. laughing... joking... awww.. hahhaaa... Really miss the days that the 5 of us can be together.. But sooner or later we'll be gathering again rite? hehehee.. Carinne's bday? hmmmz.. n of course on national day.. yupz.. hehehee...

Anywayz... Jenny was like trying on my clothes.. hehee... yupz.. we do exchange clothes sometimes.. heheee.. still remembered that I've borrowed a long skirt from her .. yeahz.. hahahaa.. then we were like fliming down some funny videos.. hehee.. n also taken a no of pics... but I'm not inside the pic.. yupz yupz.. hahahaa.. diaoz..

N now my whole body is aching over... One of the symptom that I'll fall really sick soon... arghz!! No way... sch is starting like next mon n u're saying that I'm going to fall sick this week... no no no.. please Lord... I pray you'll help me Lord.. Restore my strength... my health oh Lord.. Thank you Lord.. In Jesus name I pray.. Amen!

I'm tired of everything... Jus tired... Sleepy...

Shopping~!

Yupz yupz.. today went shopping... Took a train down to Suntec... Saw these 4 guys who made fun of a gal after she alighted @ Dover station... They were so irritating lor.. I guess they were making fun of me too when I left... yupz yupz...

Went to take a look @ the gel thingie.. Hehee.. still thinking whether I should buy or not! Heheee... Hai.. Nothing much to shop @ Suntec lehz... So little ppl around.. Hahaa.. Dun have the shopping mood...

Then.. was deciding whether to go Causeway Pt or Orchard.. hehee... Guess where I went? Yupz.. Orchard.. hehee.. Saw one NDP gal @ Hereens.. Heheee... Hmmz..waiting for a friend huh? hahaaa... Wondering is he or she.. hehee... anywayz... Saw this skirt which i really like!!! It costs $23.90... but didn't wanna buy it there.. hahaa.. Saw that skirt again @ Far east n bought it @ $29.90.. hahaa.. ai yo yo... Terrible...

In total.. I've bought 2 new gio tee.. one pair of gio jeans... 1 skirt...

Shopping list for tml: pencil box, bag, shoes, perfume...

Oh no! I'm going to b broke.. left not much in my bank!!! Geeez... haiz... nvm lah huh.. :)

oh yah... my hp bill came.. $93.. ai yo yo!!!!

Should I buy?

Should I buy the Extrim gel? Ppl say it works on burning the fats.... yeah.. I'm fat.. Veri fat!!! Hows!?? I wanna lose weight.. I wan!!!! Sad sad!!! Mus skip dinner nowadays le.. but Mommy always cook my share when I asked her not to! Mus tell her that I'm on a diet.... yupz yupz.. hehee...

Should I buy? It costs 89 bucks! oh mine.. it's so ex lor! any other cheaper alternatives? hahaaa.. Exercise lor!? yah...

Sianz... hahaa.. Sch is starting next week.. yupz.. Getting veri nervous now!!!! hahaa.. :) yup yupz..

heheee... my "god-daughter".. hahahaa.. the one who always like to play with my pony tail.. but but.. hahaa.. if other ppl see that.. they will come n pull my hair wor! Ouch.. that hurts... hehee.. Isn't she cute!? hahaa.. Adorable.. Nowadays din c her cry le! yupz yupz.. hehee

Mood swing...

I jus feel like crying... I'm having this  mood swing thingie again.. But I know I can't let that take control of my feelings.. I mus curb that.. It's hard... Jus now nearly beat the red light.. It was so scarely... I didn't know what I was doing... @ the carpark.. got this uncle who walked as if the whole road is his! I'm already like rushing for time... b4 that tried to top up the cashcard using the atm.. But it can't read my card... tried so many times le... wanted to use the posb one but there's a long queue...

I'm so vexed now.. Feel like crying! Something bad is going to happen tonite.. I can sense that..

arghz..

I'm missing the kids... Haiz.. Sean.. Nickole.. Ethan.. Elson.. Grace (my god-daughter)... Hannah.. Zoey... Han Wei... Christopher... Jovan... Preena... Ashleigh... Sze Min... An Yu...  Owen... hHeheee.... They are so so so cute... miss little piglet too...

One of my friends was asking mi.. "hEy Jas.. @ what age do u want to get married? How many kids do u wan?" hehheeee.. wOw.. yah... tot of it b4 ah.. i wanna get married @ 24.. 2 kids... Eldest being the gal.. heheee.. So that she can take care of her di di next time round.. Hahaaa.... Names for the children? heheee.. yup yup.. tot of it b4 too.. oops.. hahaa..  Hahaaaa.. En Lin? En Hui? Bei En? Jie En? Jie Huai? Xu Le? Xu Huai? Xu En? Xu Huan? Xu Jie? Lin Jie? Lin En? heheee...Notice that I like the En n Jie n Huai? hahaaa.. yupz yupz.. :) hahaaa..

heheee.... Haiz.. I'm still a young kid... who's going to study for another 3 more years lor... Yikes! But I can't believe that I'm going to be 20 next year!!! argh argh argh.. Getting older n older... haiz!! Heheee.. But I'm already thinking how to celebrate my 21st birthday.. heheee... A ball? hahaa.. too ex.. Zouk? nahz.. some of my friends can't get in... hmmz.. chalet? maybe.. hmmmz... my house? not possible.. hahaa.. mommy won't want that.. @ a hotel room? hahaa... hmmz.. beach party? heheee.. yeah yeah..

Jasmine wake up!! Stop dreaming.. hahaa.. okok...

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Something about mi...

It seems that everytime I'm always laughing..smiling... Well, sometimes I'm jus trying to fool myself into it lor.. Trying to make myself feel happy.. I'm not as bubbly as I used to be... I've kind of settled down in a sense.. Less chatty.. I guess that's something bad lor.. Cos.. haiz..

Nvm.. I'll think of a way to solve the problem.. Yupz.. Little piglet dun worry okie??? Yupz yupz...

Went to watch Mean Gals yesterday! Hey ppl watch it if u haven't.. Cos it's really a nice show! hahaha.. Ting, Juan, Hui n I are like laughing all the way lor.. hahahaa.. Cady looks cute.. but Aaron seems cuter! hahaa.. nahz.. Little piglet is the cutest... yup yup... I also wanna watch The Sisters.. Heard from Ting it's quite scary lah.. hahahaa.. yeahz... Gals, so we're gonna watch 13 going to be 30 together too rite? hehehee.. yupz yupz.. :)

What is life to me? Something precious that God has given me..I'll thank God for every little circumstances n things that has happened in my life.. Please Lord.. Help mi..

Awwww... Sean didn't wanna let me go..

Hahahaa...  Who's Sean? Javen's brother.. Who are they? Hahaaa.. Kids @ my working place.. yUp yupz.. Sean is the younger one... When I told him that I'm going home.. he hugged me n said he wants Jasmine Jiejie.. Awww.. So sweet of him.. Hahhaaa.. He's really cute n handsome.. Got this gal, Grace (winks..hahhaa.. not u Gracie.. ) always call Sean's name ah.. Then another boy, Elson.. always like to go near to the small gal gal Hannah.. Hahahaa.. 2 little couples in the class.. : )
 
Kids are really cute, aren't they? Even if they are naughty.. they are cute.. but beware.. sometimes they really can make ur blood boils.. hahaha.. Well.. other than that.. I still think they are cute cute cute cute cute cute... Heheheee... If only I have kids of my own.. Ooopsz... hahahaa... Mommy was like telling me.. Gal ah.. Study hard ah.. This time round get good results.. hahahaa.. Okie Mom.. Little piglet also asked me to study hard.. Hehehee... Alritey.. Won't let u ppl down.. I hope..
 
It has been a long long long time since the 5 of us get together huh? Should we meet on one of these days for dinner? hehehee... really miss u gals lotz!!!!! Yupz.. Carinne is gonna start sch next week.. Mine is 2nd August.. Wen is mid August.... Haiz.. all of u are going to be busy once again... Then seldom we can meet up lor.. sad sad... So we should try to meet up more often ah! : ) On National Day u gals going to Ying's house to watch me? I'll join you gals after that? Hahhaaa.. Maybe we can order pizza.. buy ice cream.. ermerm.. hahaa.. fattening ah!
 
Hehehee.. I was shopping with my mommy on the other day... Then saw Ex-trim pills.. hahaa.. then I was asking if I could buy them... She said I better consult Dr Loh b4 I eat any pills lor.. Hhahaaa.. Yupz yupz.. better send him a email now.. hahahaa.. Then if can I'll buy! hahhaaa.. Ooopz...
 
Lord, jus wanna pray for every one that I know.. Lord, I pray that you'll bless them in anyway..everyway Lord.. Jus pray that they will be in good health n for my brothers n sisters, Lord I pray that their walk with u will be a fruitful one Lord.. Pray all these in Jesus name, Amen..

Oops... today is not my last day @ work??

Hahhaaa.. yupz yupz... my boss said I'll be needed on Tues n Wed... Hahhahaa... Haiz.. Tot today will be last day wor! :) But I'm glad that I can still work in the childcare! Cos the kids are really really cute! Although they maybe naughty @ certain times! hahahaa...
 
Yesterady was a beautiful day.. yup yup... hehehee... 
 
Hmmmz.. have not been bloggin for quite some time huh? Ppl out there.. do u all miss moi? hahahaa.. hopefully u gals did alrite? hehehe.. Oopsss.. sorry if there are guys who are reading my blog.. hahaha. hehehee... Haiz... tired tired...
 
School is starting soon.. argh!!! Nervous... scared!!! aahHHhhhh... Jiu wo ah!!! Hahhaaa.. Was reading the study guides jus now! The unit's outline is also out.. So tough.. i'm going to be dead...
 
Haiz.. but b4 that think I'm gonna enjoy myself.. hehehe.. yupz yupz.. Have not been to ktv for a long long time.. anybody?? hahaha.. I'm jus a call away.. yup yup... Take care everyone.. Have a blessed week!