Haiz!!! Econs mock at 2pm!

Yeah yeah.. the time now is 9am.. I'm suppose to go back and revise for my econs again!!! well.. Can't help but to blog another time! hahaa.. well.. jus dun wanna go back to study, that's all..

Baby I do.. Cherish u..

Nice song.. but I meant it.. ;)

hehee.. tick tock tick tock tick tock.. clock ticking away.. Nervous-ness and fear crept up to me.. arghz.. sianz!

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock..

but actually studying is fun! That is if I only like study a bit of everything, everyday.. Instead of cramping everything to a few days.. and just before my exams! yupz yupz.. luckily this time round is jus mock! hahaa.. If not I'll be dead! hahaa..

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock..

hehee.. I wanna study hard baby!!!

~ The Lost Dog Episode ~

Lucky is a female Silky Terrier.. About 4 years plus... She belongs to a Lee family living in a small little house at Hillview.. One fine day, when the Mr and Mrs Lee were gardening, they had forgotten to close the gate.. Well.. Guess what? Naughty Lucky grabbed this opportunity to explore the world outside.. and so she ran out! hahaa.. 15 minutes later.. The couple then realised that Lucky had already ran out... So Mrs Lee took the usual route that Lucky will always take when she runs away.. and this was what she saw.. Lucky sitting under a tree.. and she was not facing the direction of her house.. jus looking around and wondering where she should head to go home.. hahaa.. thinking why she couldn't find her way back home! hahaa... My mommy called Lucky! The next moment.. Lucky stood up and wagged her tail happily.. "My rescuer!" She tot.. haaha.. Mommy said, "stay rite there! dun run away.." hahaa.. and she did.. But once in my mom's arms.. she knew that she's going to get a big spanking..she lowered her head.. and well.. I guess all of you should know what happened next.. hahaha

Studies.. haiz..

Was trying to settle myself down to revise for my economics but found out one not so unusual thing.. I CAN'T STUDY!!! Arghz.. It has been like that since like A levels.. I'll like rush thru my revision for the last few days for my prelims and try to study hard for my actual exams..

But it doesn't work that way! Haiz.. I'm so fan and fustrated! Cos I know nuts about economics!!! Although I've attended lectures.. but the thing is when it comes to doing the questions yourself is totally different.. yeah.. cos during lectures the lecturer will go thru with u in details and provide u with every answerS! tat's rite!!! ai yo yo... The graphs are even drawn for us! It's jus like copying answers and not learning how to solve the questions!!!

haiz.. sianz!!!

was chatting with Jenny online jus now.. Really miss those days when the 5 of us hang out.. jus sitting around somewhere.. chilling out and gossiping.. hahaa.. those were the days.. not much worries and stuff..

but now I realised.. As I grow older.. I'll have more responsiblities and worries.. Not only that.. My learning abilities are getting slower and not as good as compared to my teengage years.. Oh yah.. U may say that I've jus turned 20.. but.. haiz.. I feel so old!! u noe!? hai hai hai... sianz!!!

Pink.. my favourite colour.. hehee.. Simply love that colour!!!

Haiz yah!!! I dun wanna study lah!!! sob sob..

Crushed...

That's what my dar dar used on himself! Crushed!!! My heart hurts a lot.. Seeing him like that.. I cried!!! : )

Life...

What is life?
Life is life...
So what is life?
Life is life...
So what exactly is life?
Life is life...

hahahaa... okie.. I'm jus trying to be lame here...

I'm tired...

Totally wiped out for this weekend.. Was so extremely tired!!!

Went 5th company for drill assessment last Friday... DI course for Saturday.. Big Auntie came visiting me last Friday too..

Nearly fainted on Saturday... yeah...

Hmmz.. anywayz.. I got to be seriously preparing for my mock exams now! I paid for it u know? hahhahaa

Life...

What is life? Life is something that God has given His grace to me.. So that I'm still living and typing this blog...

What is life? Life is full of ups and downs... When you're happy, you'll be extremely happy.. but when you're sad you'll be very sad..

What is life? Life is made up of problems.. and some problems may not be solved...

What is life? Life is about being born, growing up, growing old and passing away..

What is life? Life is about being happy, sad, angry and all kinds of emotions...

What is life? I dun really know what it is...

All I know is that God has given me this opportunity to live on... N I'll have to live a meaningful life... But it's hard to do it.. Dun quit trying.. But you may take a rest.. So as to walk a longer distance..

I'm tired.. I just want to cry... I'm alrite.. Cos problems all started with me... I find them myself.. They didn't come and look for me.. PMS go away.. dun haunt me with the mood swing..

I miss my friends...

Was having a conversation with one of my gb friends jus now... I haven't realised something until she reminded me that God should be our center of life.. and He is our first priorty...

Miss Jenny, Jing Wen, Carinne and Peiying greatly!!! I wonder how they have been? Have they received my msg? about meeting up next friday? Will they be free? Will the 5 of us eventually meet up or only the few of us?

I really miss them a lot... N think I've neglected them a lot of ways.. Jus wanna say.. I'm sorry..

Stressed...

Exams is jus round the corner n I'm still stuck at POB!? Oh dear... I'm in deep trouble this time round!!! Other ppl is ling shi bao fo jiao... n I'm ling shi bao zhu jiao... God help me a little okie? Stressed stressed stressed...

Things happened.. haiz..

Valentine's Day..

Hmmz.. spent my Vday morning cleaning up my room.. hehee.. yeah.. After which took a short snap... then went clearing my email box...

hmmmz.. Fetched Sylvester from SAF Driving Circuit.. n later we proceed to Jurong Point for Fish and Co... Although we wanted to dine at the fishy place.. but there was a long queue.. Arghz.. Actually there were many queues wherever we go.. What to do? Is Valentine's Day! hahaa.. Lotsa couples and friends who wanna celebrate this day... hehee.. Finally we got a place at the Pizza Place.. yupz.. the Baked pasta was delicious... hehe... Dar dar later said he needed to go to toilet so I waited for him... But guess what!? He went to buy this cute little (not exactly small..) puppy softtoy for me!! And a card to go with it... ai yo yo!! So sweet of him.. but I felt 'ouched' for his wallet... He had spent a lot on my birthday already!! However, he said it's all worth it.. To see me smiling..

Watched Seoul Raiders at about 9pm... Worth watching... funny and action packed! hahaa.. yupz.. but dar was so tired that he decided to koonz for a while..

Have been putting on weight lately... hehee.. but yesterday was the last day that I'll feast... Today, shall go back on my diet.. hehe..again! hehehe...

7 more hours...

yup yup ppl....7 more hours before my birthday is over... awww... tat's quite sad u know? hahaa..

guess what? Jamantha and Loretta, Sylvester's cousins.. hahaa... they are so so so so so cute.... when they heard that it's my birthday today.. They gave me a keychain.. awww... N I received so many presents this year!! n of course lots of birthday wishes!! yup yup.. hehee..

but I like lao gong's presents the best!!!! heheee... I'll never forget this day.. hahaa..

Jamantha was like asking me when I will get married to Sylvester.. told her 10 years later.. hahaa.. but she said no..but decide now wor.. hahaaa.. She gave me a pink sweet.. and another pink one for Sylvester... When she ate another pink mentos.. she said this, " Yeah.. Lucky me.. Got this pink one... Next time I'll be your daughter okie?" All of us broke into laughter!!! hahaa... They are so so so so cute~!!

My most memorable 20th birthday!

I'm 20 ppl!!!!

hey hey ppl... know what? I've turned twenty... N now I'm 20 and 1 hour and 15 mins year old.. hahaa.. okok... Jus joking... alrite?

Another surprise by my dar dar... when nearing 12.. I fell asleep while watching tv.. WoW... N suddenly I felt this light shining on me... Guess what? My hubby bought a Swensen Valentine's Day cake as my birthday cake!! Yummy yummy... Thank you ling... Love everything that you've planned for me tonight!!! Thank you so much...

Have eaten so much lately... If never put on weight is fake one ah! ai yo yo...

Thank you Jenny, Carinne, Jing Wen, Pei Ying, Jami ai ai, Kennard kor, Pei Shan, Desmond and those who are going to wish my Happy Birthday... hehee...

my TWENTIETH birthday....

2 and a half more hours... N I'll turn the BIG TWENTY!!! Arghz... a few years later and people will be calling me Auntie Jasmine... oooPzz.. :)

4pm 12th Feb 2005
Jenny, Carinne, Jing Wen, Pei Ying and Shi Yang came to my house to give me a surprise!!! oh manz... they brought a cake.. and poor them.. they stood outside the door, and under the scorching sun!!! Hehheee.. Actually kinda know that they are coming to celebrate my bday.. hehee.. Thank you gals.... I love the bag that you all gave me... It's so ladylike.. oopz.. LADY? I'm an old lady le!!! ai yo yo...

9.30pm 12th Feb 2005
The best part of the bday celebration.. Guess what? My dar dar designed a treasure hunt for me.. Right in my house... ooOOooo... Made me run up and down.. up and down.. up and down.. but I was stuck at this clue for a very long time!!! QOO... it's actually a cushion.. but kenna blocked by the bamboo poles.. so I didn't see it! hehee... but for the rest of the clues I got them quite fast... hehee...

At the start of the treasure hunt.. I see my darling sweating... My heart kinda hurts... The weather nowadays is a killer.. so hot.. and my poor dar dar got to run up and down to put all the clues in place! N guess what I received? A pair of slippers!! Winnie the pooh waffles, strawberry one hor..my fav...!!! Disney characters tumblers, so so so cute!!!! and and and a karaoke vcd... hehee.. Later I'm going to sing my hearts out... hehehe!!!! I love all the presents that hubby gives me!!!!

Jus wanna take this time to thank my darling, Sylvester... He's so sweet.. even as I'm typing this blog.. he's helping me to massage my back.. awww... he's so sweet!!!! Ling, jus wanna thank you for everything lor... really.. I enjoyed myself during the treasure hunt... n the presents!? I love them!! No joke... Thank you for everyhing!!! I love you!!! Love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you x INFINTY x Love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you...2 be continued... no fullstop yet hor!! muackz..

The last 12 hours of my nineteen...

Yupz ppl... I'm left with only 12 hours to say that I'm still 19 this year!!! hahaaa... 12 hours!? oh manz.. I'm going to be twenty already!!! That's so old for me!!! I'm so sad you know?

But it's okie.. hahaa... At least my birthday is coming... It's coming... It's coming.. haiz.. hahaha..

2nd day of Chinese New Year...

A surprise indeed... When I called Bester @ around 11 plus.. I tot he was in his room playing computer... but I told him I was too sleepy n got to visit the dreamland already... hahaa.. but an unexpected sound from the taxi's system gave him away! hahaa.. yupz.. He was on his way to my house!!! Awww.. He's so so so so sweet...

hehehee... The next morning... He brought me to Westmall Deliferance for breakfast.. okie ppl.. Got to confess that it's my first time there... But I got him fooled.. hahaa.. I sounded as if I have eaten from Deli before... Until I told him that he was the first person to dine with me at that place... hahaa... the chicken sandwiches is super nice... same goes for the egg mayo.. haha... yum yum!!!!

We then watched "I do I do" at Eng Wah Cine... ooOOoo.. It's so so so so funny!!! Yupz a comedy... hahaa... It's about how these 2 families whoes son and daughter aren't married even in their late thirties.. haha.. so they planned something to bring both of them together... It's worth watching this how.. oh yah... "I can't choose not to love you.. I can choose to love you or love you even more..." this is nice isn't it?

Daddy jus made me milk tea.. thank u so much daddy!!!

I'm so blessed...

I have a blessed family...

My daddy!!!! A great papa... Anything that I want, he will give to me.... He dotes on me a lot.. and of course on my brother 2... n 2 his wife.. He shows he cares for us by the hard way.. n not the soft method... My dad helped me in doing my primary school projects... Needles to say.. I got A for the 3 major projects.. My dad is great.. I still remember I needed samples of leaves when I was in Primary 4.. for science lesson.. n he cut the leaves.. put them individually in plastice bags.. and ended there was a big bag of them!!! My teacher was shocked... Hahaaa.. yeah... My dad is a gardener... There was a time when he grew Lady's fingers.. n there were huge mind you!!! hahaa. Brought one for art lesson n again my art teacher was so excited about it! hahaa.. I rested on my dad's lap when waiting for my turn to see the doctor.. that was when I was still a young gal.. The clinic is located @ Jurong East area.. I really wanna tell my dad.. YOU'RE REALLY GREAT, DADDY..THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

My mommy!!!! A great mama... She's a great cook... always cooking good stuff for me and my brother... hehee.. my mom is a veri simple minded lady... worry free I would say... Don't worry much about things.... She's not good at numbers... hehee.. My mommy has her way of teaching my brother and I to learn our dialect... that is to beat us with a metal spoon!!! hahaa.. well.. guess that was a good method.. cos we did learn how to say.. My mommy is simply great!!! She endured our nosense... Felt veri bad.. cos everytime she shows concern by asking a few questions.. n sometime my brother n I would seem like veri irritated... But my mommy understands that we're going thru our puberty stage so she didn't say much... Still remember when I was in primary sch.. would always to forget to bring this and that... but my mommy was so good to drive and send the things to us.. Once, I forgotten to bring my skipping rope for the competition... she came.. and I was so happy.. but I fell flat on the ground... something happened... but my mommy was there to console me.. Jus wanna tell my mama...YOU'RE REALLY GREAT, MOMMY... I LOVE YOU!! THANK YOU SO MUCh!!!

My brother!!!! hahaa... hey hey.. this cool brother that I have... Don't see him like don't talk much.. Or sometimes seem irritated by me.. hahaa.. He's a really great brother of mine!!! Anything that I need help in IT or computer stuff... He will always be there 2 help me out!!! From assembling the computer to buying the digital camera for him.. he did all.. without much complains... He cares for me.. but also in a hard way... Was on diet recently.. but he told me that I shouldn't overdo it... I tot he didn't care much about my parents... But the true fact is.. he's cares more about my parents than I do.. He's a really cool brother...Jus wanna tell you brother.. that YOU'RE REALLY GREAT!!!! ALL THE BEST IN YOUR STUDIES...LOVE YOU TOO..

Sylvester!!!! My hubby-to-be.. I hope... He's a really nice guy... Really nice... He treats me very good... Always giving in to me... Helping me.. Lending me a listening ear... Care for me..Pamper me a lot.. Love me with almost all his heart.. A devoted Christian...He cares a lot about his family too!!! A veri filial son... But I felt very bad.. because I'm the one always giving him headaches... I kept throwing my tantrums at him... We misunderstand each other quite often... One of the reaons would be of our different personality... But... the major thing would be we always give in to each other.. and we want each other to be happy.. And by doing so... there's a clash.. yeah.. n we do argue quite a bit... However... I know he's the one that I've been looking for.. He's my dream guy!! I would rather we quarrel now.. but in the process get to know each other better and better... and we'll know each other well enough by the time we get married... Although I know everything is preplanned by God... I know... and so both of us are lifting this relationship in His hands... We do hope.. and we're praying... that He will let us to be together!!! Hubby jus wanna tell you this.... YOU'RE A GREAT HUBBY!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I LOVE YOU LOTS...

Lucky!!!! How can I forget about my good old doggie? Lucky Lee... hehee.. Golden tan silky terrier... I never know of dogs that like to eat carrots... but my Lucky is like a rabbit... hahaa.. She actually likes to eat carrots!!! She's so cute.. always run here and there.. and always so playful.... She's a clever doggie too.. simply love her! haa... She's too cute!!! But felt quite bad for not always being at home to take of her.. Sorry Lucky.. I know you can't read this but jus wanna tell you.. I love you a lot!!!!

Ah ma's house... NOW

Yupz... My mommy's family.. The Chuas had sold this plot of land to a developer.. N now this 5 storey high building has taken over the house that you all have seen in the earlier picture.. I really miss those days that we all gather at ah ma's house and celebrate her birthday... I dreamt that someday that I'll be able to bring my hubby along with me to wish my ah ma Happy Birthday... But I'll never get to do that... Haiz..

Went to Dad's mom, ah ma's house... Nobody was there except her, the maid and my unlce.. It's kinda sad... Last time still got Ah gong around... But every time he and my dad will argue about company's stuff... Well, you see... my dad didn't get himself involved in the company's matters after he was diagnosed with high blood pressure and diabetes.. But my ah gong wanted him to be in... well.. a lot of things happen in that family... But I will never never forget... The day.. when my grandfather passed away... All his grandchildren, sons and daughters...son-in-laws and daughter-in-laws n his wife.. we were all around his bed... When he had his last breath.. He waited till everyone came.. I remembered it was nite time.. about 7pm - 8pm.. I remembered the date...1st June... I was quite okie with it.. Until I called my captain.. telling her that I won't be attending the regional camp.. well.. gonna get promoted to ssgt.. I cried.. not because I couldnt get my promotion.. but because my ah gong passed away... I could say that he treated my brother n I quite good too..

People, certain things once gone cannot be retrieved back.. Like human beings and time? You can't be a baby like you once used to be.. You can't get the dead to be back alive... The bottom line: Treasure your loved ones as much as you can... for now... If not you may regret...

Ah ma's house...THEN

This is ah ma's house then...It forms part of my good old childhood memories... Hehehee.. Used to play catching with my cousins in the garden... How can I forget the cute black doggie that my ah ma has!? hehee.. But she was 2 old so got to put her to sleep.. I shed tears for her.. I can still remember the scenes when attending my Ah gong's and Ah ma's funeral.. I was still quite young when Ah gong passed away.. I saw my mommy cried for the first time! She's a veri strong person.. Not one who can easily cry for nothing... It was the last few days of Chinese New Year.. 5 days after my birthday.. my mommy called saying that I had to hurry home... I asked what happen and she won't tell me... N when I finally reached home, the sad news was released to me... My ma ma had passed away.. I cried! I did.. Cos she was the closest grandparent that I had compared to my father side.. N of course my ah gong, mommy's dad, was also veri veri good to us... I saw my ah ma laying motionless on the bed.. with the blanket over it.. My uncle asked me to go in.. but I said no.. n mommy was so angry with me.. but she knew that I was scared...Still had the photo that we took we my ah ma and ah gong.. Looking @ this picture reminds me of them.. N Of course I miss them a lot!

Finally!!

hehee.. finally my blog's template is working! yup yup!!! hehee.. back to using this template again.. Have been busy with revision.. yup yup.. now I'm back in action! hahaa..

Finally, Chinese New year is tml! Bday coming! arghz..

Chinese New Year in a week's time!

yeah ppl.. hehee.. for those who are not married.. hehee.. lucky us.. cos we're going to get angbaos!!! heheee.. wOw.. Actually getting an angbao to me doesn really excite me as much now compared to the past when I was still a kid.. yeah.. hahaa.. Perhaps we're like so used to it? I mean naturally people will give us angbao... ever since we were young.. hehee..

A lot of things now really dun excite me that much.. things like playing with sparklers.. or candles.. I used to pester my mom n dad to bring me down to play with candles and laterns during mooncake festival.. or my brother and I never fail to buy sparklers during Chinese New Year.. hehee.. Those were the days.. my childhood so to speak.. hehee...

really miss those times when I was still an innocent child.. know nothing much about this world.. jus cooped up in my house.. didn't know how to go out with my friends.. hahaa... but looking at the younger generation now... they sure are maturing at a younger age! heheee.. well.. at least now you can see more younger kids roaming about in shopping malls.. not alone.. but a group of 3-5 of them.. hehee.. yeah...

hmmmz.. Chinese New Year... busy! hehee.. yeah... Take care ppl.. Have fun!! hehee..

1st Feb!!!

ooOOooooOO.. so fast? time passes so fast!? It's 2005 Feb!!! yup yup ppl... u didn't hear me wrongly.. it's already feb!!! hahaa.. wOw!!!! i'm so afraid.. haha.. cos I'm like getting older and older each day!!! Ppl.. I'm still 9 TEEN!!! hahaa.. yeah...

haiz.. drove to ubi area yesterday.. well as usual... I got LOST!!!! Actually this feeling is what I always felt.. when I'm like doing nothing... not doing stuff that I SHOULD do.. well.. haiz.. I'm lost.. totally lost.. I'm always lost.. hehee..

hmmmz.. so what m I going to do today? feeling so sleepy and tired.. hehee... jus saw the cinderalla shoe.. hehee.. M reminded of something..

jus did my nails... yupz!!! Chinese New Year coming soon!!! AHhhhhHhhhhHHhz.. hahaha..

okie lah.. nothing much to blog also... hehee.. the kids are now in the garden playing.. their laughter brings me joy.. hehee..