Yikesz... I looked so yucky.. Anywayz.. let me introduce this great guy to all of ya! He's my bf! Yeahz.. hahahahaa.. Do we have those kind fu qi nian? hahahaa... NO? ai yo yo.. He's my brother lah!!!! Dun look ike meh? hahaha.. Ya ya.. my younger brother.. much taller than me!!! shux.. hahahaa..

Blackout!!!!

I was chatting with Grace n suddenly the com jus switched off by itself.. N everything was pitch dark.. Oh man.. The worst thing is there's no air con or fan!! SHux... Blackout..

Yeah.. my area was hit lor.. i was trying to get hold of my hp but couldn't find it @ first.. I was like so afraid .. haiz.. I shouted for mommy n she came to my rescue.. hehhee.. THanks mom..

Hey.. but for once, I'm like a baby again.. hahahaa... Slept beside her n that feeling is like.. hmmm.. dunno how 2 describe.. hahaha.. :) Still remember how I used to sleep with her when I was young.. hehehee..

Oh yah.. called my ex.. n he said that i dun sound cute anymore.. Hey come on.. I've grown up le.. Why should i act cute lor.. Isn't it? His photos n PS is still with me.. sianz.. need to face him to return the stuff..

Okie.. Think I better get going b4 ppl start killing me again~!

Pray...

There are a lot of things to pray for...

First all of, can all of you who are reading this bloggie.. Please pray for my sister-in-Christ.. my cell group member.. my gal.. my friend.. Her mom is supposed to be home by the 20th from an overseas trip but she hasn't been home yet.. Pray for her safety return.. N also comfort for the family.. Especially for the girl... Thank u so much!!!!

Pray for those NDP gals... They will be in tip top condition to march this Sunday.. N also that there will be full strength.. Pray that they will not fall out during the rehearsals.. They did rather well for the past few practices.. BUt.. I guess I'll have to comment on certain things.. If not we're going to be in trouble..

Pray for the SYF gals... n the flag barrier.. n the commanders! Hehehee... Pray that God will provide them strength n energy to last them for the practice n on the actual day.. sorry ai ai.. I can't be around on that day..

Pray for everybody's health.. The haze is kinda irritating our throats n noses... Drink lotsa water everybody!!!

Yupz yupz.. Pray for my friends are out there.. who are on field camp.. Pray that they will return to their camps safe n sound..

Pray for bluesheep (if u all know who she is..hehee...).. She has been rather busy... Need to keep up with all those datelines n stuff.. Pray that she'll not be stressed out.. N also for her health.. Guess she's recovering from her cough?

Yeahz.. guess it's about it.. :) Thank all of ya for praying! :)

Matthew 7:7 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

Why?

Sad.. Mommy n Daddy treats brother better than me! :( Why? Hey.. not trying to be jealous here lah.. Jus find it a bit unfair? He got everything he wants?

Nvm.. God is always there lor! hehehee... Yup yup... but I'm wondering... Do I really need someone to look after me? Well.. I guess I'm tired.. N it's time that I look for that someone.. Nahz.. think I should wait.. I'm tired.. yupz... Someone is not calling.. hehehee..

PSA 37:24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

Yupz...So even if I failed to do certain things.. God is still there to guide me! :0

Very tired!!!!

Hey hey.. I was too tired last nite to update my bloggie.. hehehee.. Let me tell ya why I was like so tired lor..

I went for this captains' meeting on saturday afternoon.. Rushed back home to get changed n went out with my frenz to catch a movie.. The movie was like so boring lor.. About cloning a kid.. n the personality is not his as some of his genes has been changed.. N the ending was like so abrupt.. Arghz.. was like talking to my frenz during the whole show lor.. Oh yah.. by the way.. Saw this bunch of guys who kept screaming @ some scary parts of the show.. N i was like laughing away le lor.. hahahaa..

N my frenz gave this silly idea on tonning.. N we really did ton for the whole nite! I didn't sleep... Wrong move... I was so tired during the NDP rehearsal.. My eyes were like going to close any moment when I was standing down there.. Boo hoo.. I've got no reserves to help me stand in.. hehehee.. However I did enjoy myself that nite!

But only by God's grace, I didn't faint despite the fact that I didn't take my breakfast n lunch.. N didn't sleep a wink like the nite before.. Fwah... Thank God! Hehheheee...

God has a purpose in everything that's happening in our lives.. Like bringing different people in your life.. Hehehee.. God brought Michelle in some of the GB gals n officers life to teach them patience.. hehheee. yupz... ( *wInk* )

Hehehee.. I'm still feeling tired now.. But I'm now on fire again about working in the brigade ministry le.. But I wonder how long will this fire last.. A short period of time? Hehheee... Hope not... Now 19th Coy doesn't have enough manpower! Hows? I better do something...

Gotta attend this meeting later.. So I'll continue writing later lor.. :)

Detestable..

I'm feeling so.. Yucky now! That's not the way I m... What has gotten into my mind? Why m i going crazy over ...

God is love... We are love 2 since we're created in God's image.. But I'm beginning to hate myself. I can't seem to b in closer relationship with God.. Cos I chosen not to, rite? Yes... I'm disappointing God again n again.. I've forsaken Him.. But he hasn't.. (I felt like cyring.. It's my only way of venting off my fustrations n everything!)

The more I try to let know others about myself.. The more it turned them off.. We should always tell the truth isn't it??..

I'm sitting down.. Rethinking about my whole life again.. What's His purpose for me? M i supposed to stay on in the ministry... God help me! I can't seem to be connected to u!

If i can't even love myself, why talk about loving others? I only turn ppl off.. I'm jus a sucky person! N ppl listen up, I'm not trying to gain sympathy here.. If u think I m, then jus be it! Should I make this blog a private thingie? I think I should!

M i trying to run away from Him? Yes I m.. in a way... I'm tired of everything... tired... Jus tired...

I knelt down n prayed.. God was there.. He has used the circumstance once again to bring me back to Him. I felt so.. I mus lay everything down for Him.. I mus b obedient to Him. If God says no, it means no! Yupz?

Chalet...

Yupz.. Will be going chalet.. hahhaaa.. Celebrating Xue Ting's birthday!! Happy Birthday Ting!!!! So I won't be blogging tonite alrite? Hehehehee.. Wait for my return..

Hmphz.. Sianz!!!! Hahahahaa.. Didn't bring much stuff to the chalet... Hmmmz.. Later still have to come out for the meeting wor.. Think I better bring some stuff there.. hahahaa..

Yupz yUpz... Take care everyone!!Miss me alritey? hahahaa.. :)

One of my favourite songs...

Hahahaa.. Yup yup.. Eternal Flame... Nice song yeah? But I'll always remember someone once I start listening to it.. Nahz.. Not thinking about him though..

Heheheee... I wanna add more stuff to my blog.. heheheee... Jus wait n ses alrite?

Today is my last day @ the childcare... Hahahhaaa.. Yupz.. I'll definitely miss the kids! They are so fun loving.. One gave me a goodbye kiss.. hahahaa.. N the other (pia kia ah..) actaully said, "goodbye jiejie..".. AwwWwwww... I'm already missing them!!! BUt I can always visit them lah.. It's like so near to my house? Hahahaa.. Or I can also see them from my room! hahaha..

School is starting really soon n I'm still slacking!? Shux.. I hate that......

Tired...

Fwahz.. Had a tiring day today... The kids weren't listening to the teachers n everything is like so chaotic... They were doing the stamping thingie (ie is to paint the stamp n jus chop onto the paper one lah...) but the kids were too young to know how to use them! Ended up they painted their hands n printed the paper with their handprints lorz... They made a mess out of the paint! Yucksz.. hahahaa.. Red paint with blue paint.. Gruesome sight..

Had a debrief jus now @ Marche.. It was okie..As in I wasn't talking much... Ended up I didn't buy the things that I wanna.. Boo hoo hoo... sad ah!!! Nvm lah...

Jus remembered that I have a captain's meeting to attend this Saturday.. oh no!!!!! Haiz..

That's all for today.. Guess I'm getting quite sianz with blogging? hahahaa... Ooops....

Heheheee.. Found this in my photo album!!! I didn't know i was so "hot" since i was a baby! Oh mum! Where did u manage to get this tube from? hahahaaa... Do i look cute? Hhahahaa.. Yeah.. I'm now no longer cute !!! ahhahaa.. So sad!!!! Isn't it?

Nah... How I hope I have a baby now!? hehehee.. Can play with him/her... So cute! hahahaa.. I'm thinking a bit far huh.. hahahaa.. yeahz... BUt babaies are really cute!!!!!!

God will make a way..

I suddenly felt so.. sad.. rejected n depressed.. but this song certainly gave me strength..

God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength with each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

God.. U know how i'm feeling now!!! (Stop messaging me!!!!) I wanna cry but what for? This is jus a small little thing!!! Yupz!!! God u're there rite? Hehehee...

(Stop messagin!!! Tears is already in my eyes...)

hHeehehee. I'm used to it!!! Yupz!!! :)

It's so happening...

Suddenly so many ppl are starting to blog!!! Hahahaaa.. Jami jus started out yesterday n I happened to restart my blog again the same day too!!! Hahahaaa.. Bu kui shi wo the ai ai lah.. Hahaha..

Haven't seen my dear best pals for a veri long time le!!! Where are u gals?? I missed hanging out with u all lehz...

Will be attending Alive conference this coming friday! I wonder how it's like.... GOt butterflies in my stomach now.. hahaa.. yeah.. nervous!!! Think it's gonna be a powerful service!!!

It's high time that I should stop chatting in the irc.. I'm getting tired... Tired of intro-ing... N adding ppl to my friendster! It's jus so sickening...

I'm tired...

Phew...

I'm feeling much better now! Hahahhaaa...

Today we had an outing to the botanic gardens.. It's not easy to bring a group of naughty children to such open space.. hahahaaa.. They kept running here n there... But i guess all of them had fun! Hahahaaa.. Some were so tired that they even slept on the bus!!! Awwwww.. Looking @ their sleeping faces, I felt so peaceful.. How good will it be if I'm still a young little kid.. hahahaa.. I won't know much about this world.. Everyone will love me.. There will be not much hatred.. Yeahz.. I guess some ppl out there detest me.. But it's impossible to please everyone,isn't it?

School is starting soon.. But I'm still on holiday mood.. haha ah.. LIke that how to go back to GB in this state!? Wake up, Jasmine~!! You got to wake up!! (yeah i know! hahaa..)

Ppl out there, drink lotsa water okie? Dun fall sick horz!!! :) Take lots of vitamin C tablets 2.... so that u will not kenna the flu bug... :)

Here's a picture of the youngest kid in the childcare centre... His name is Jovan.. Hahahaaa.. He learns things quite fast.. Always trying to say things that we always say.. Hahahahaaa.. He's so CUTE!!!!! But when he starts crying for his mommy.. hahaa.. U may wan to use cotton wool to stuff ur ears b4 he starts screaming real loudly! hahahaa.. So so so cute.. :)

*aH ChOo*

oh manz.. Woke up because I couldn't stop sneezing... Really couldn't take it anymore so went downstairs to take 2 tablets of Febz.. Hopefully it will help a little with my blocked nose! N as I stared blankly at the computer screen.. I remembered that once I got really sick during the choir camp (that was after our O levels... N we had so much fun.. hahaa..) All my friends took turns to take care of me.. Awwww.. They are so sweet.. I think was Carinne who woke up in the middle of the night n checked if I was having a fever? Hahahaaa.. We went to East Coast Park to relax a little after the vigorous training that we had.. Hahaha.. N yah.. Still remember that it was his nites off lah.. N ECP wasn't that far from his camp.. He came with a bottle of mineral water n a box of Febz..(i actually brought home 2.. hahaa.. COs i went to buy one myself b4 he came..) That was very sweet of him.. Wasn't it? hahhaaa..
I feel that I'm lonely..
Actually not quite.. hahaaa.. Hey Jasmine! U can't live on only without God n Christ in ur heart manZ! Be brave! N pls dun sound so desperate!!!hahahhaaa... (rite Jenny?) hahahaaa...I have so many friends around me n I should feel happy about it.. hahaha.. Yupz yupz.. N most importantly I know that God is always there for me.. But can't feel Him rite now though..
Oh yah... another thing.. Think I'm falling back again... Oh NO!!!! I'm supposed to attend this Alive conference thingie.. I actually told shan that I'm not going!?? It's so bad of me.. N now I actually feel like going.. But I dunno what's pulling me back!!!!! Oh manz... Haiz...

Sick...

Arghz... Have been sneezing since this morning... Till there's tears in my eyes... I'm getting really sick!!! Jus hope that i won't have fever tml morning.. if not how to take care of those kids.. Haiz..
How good it is if there's someone special beside ya when u're feeling sick n down... I kept telling myself that I shouldn't be thinking about this over n over again.. But I can't feel Daddy's arms around me.. I'm not able to feel His comfort.. Daddy in heaven.. where are u??
It's really hard to find someone whom u really like.. n that person likes ya too.. I'm afraid of being hurt again..u know tat kind of feeling of being rejected is so...so terrible!!!! I hate it! However, what if that person doesn't know that I like him n ended up he likes me too? Hahahaa.. That's a bit impossible lah huh..hahahaa.. I'm thinking too much le...
So much for now.. I'm getting a bit sleepy!!

A new start...

Hi guys...
I'm back! After mia for so long.. I've decided to blog again! hahahaa.. N hopefully i can continue writing this even when I'm busy with my work..
Hahahaa.. For those who have not seen me for quite some time... I'm now working @ a childcare centre... It's really fun working with the kids.. Except for a gal who kept crying for her mommy! Hahahhaa.. But the kids are really cute lah! Especially the youngest kid, Jovan.. hehheee.. He's really cute.. I've got a picture.. wondering if i can upload it here? hahahaa.. Well.. I'll try it later.. :) hahahaaa...
I'm now busy with the sch's admin stuff.. I'm now in SIM, banking n finance.. Same course as someone ah.. Hopefully my lecture time does not fit in his! hahahaa. I'm praying hard...
Met a guy last nite.. He's really cute lah.. hahaa.. as in he'll joke around with me n stuff.. hahahaa.. He also kinda consoled me.. hahaa.. Sayin that I'm cute lah.. hahaa.. Thanks ah.. anywayz.. that's what friends are for rite? To give support to one another..
Yikesz.. Haven't passed the present to Jami yet!! hahahaa.. My ai ai.. hahahaa... diaoz.. diez ah.. if let mengru see this i'll be in trouble le.. hahahaa.. nahz.. it's all for fun lah.. hahahaa..
Okiez.. think I've written quite a lot of things.. I'm getting sleepy! hahahaa.. But will be going shopping later.. ALONE.. boo hoo hoo.. hahahaa.. :)