restless...

For 2 nights, I've not been sleeping well. For some reasons only that special someone will know. Hee. =P I tried to wake up early each morning but due to lack of rest, I couldn't pull myself up from the bed except to off the snoozing mode of the alarm clock! Ha. =)

Just revamped my blog! Hee.. Not that I don't love my "doggies" blogskin anymore but just wanna have a different look this time round. Dark yet serene. Saddness but peaceful. (That's how I felt when I read my blog!) Those who have read Bester's blog before would know that it was previously his blogskin! Hehe. Please do not say that I am a copycat.

I must say through all these years in my life, I have somehow become someone I wish to be. There are regrets but I can't do much to salvage whatever that has been lost. What I have now is the present and the future. And those who become a past when time passes by.

I am sure all of us would want to turn into someone whom people like. Think before you would want to say that you just want to be yourself. I wouldn't dare to say that I am right. As long you do not regret whatever decisions you have made and lead a life you have always wanted to.

Please treasure those you love. You will never know what our time is up. Jealousy "kills" relationships. Not trusting someone = "committing suicide". How many times can you all be friends? brothers and sisters? daughter/son and father/mother? Once!

=) Do you think what's shown on the TV reflects the reality? To a certain extend, maybe. I was dreaming all the while and now I have to face the true world.

Wazzup?

Haa. You know what? I've been studying at least an hour a day all thanks to Bester who studied together with me! He is starting his bridging course soon at SIM and there after he would continue with his Bsc Economics and Management which takes only 2 years as he has some exempted modules. Hee. I am excited to be in the same school as him as we can have meals in school together, study in the library, attend courses etc. =)

We are TRYING very hard to live a healthy lifestyle too. Went jogging with Bester yesterday. Poor him as he jogged at the slow speed I was going. Hee.. Sorry ah whompo. But just want to let you know, I enjoyed jogging with you! hee.. =)

Economics wasn't as tough as I thought it was. Sigh. Why didn't I study hard last year and instead of cramming everything this year? I regretted. Yes!!! I did. To all students out there, please grab any opportunities to study hard for your examinations and do NOT perform the "hugging Buddha's leg" stunt. Ha.

Something that I didn't regret is joining the NDP. Till now I miss going for the practices. Hee. Yup! I miss going for the practices. Sigh. Hee..

Miss the beach. It rained. The smell of the rain makes me wanna cry..

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FOCUS.

Aiyo. FOCUS. A word with only 5 letters but hard to achieve what it means. I have been telling myself that I have to start my revision by tonight if it will be too late! And guess what? I kept going to the kitchen, open the fridge and start eating what that is edible. Sigh. No wonder I kept gaining weight.

Only managed to do 1 and a half question of statement of cashflow with the help of the answer key! What!?? You may exclaim but that is what I only accomplished during the past 5 hours!? Sigh. Help!

At least I did manage to stay focus during my revision lessons except for the last 10 minutes before each session ends. Haa. A great achievement! =)

Missing all my friends right now. Especially my "zhi ying", Sylvester.

I'm very fortunate!

Indeed. I am very fortunate. One of the reasons is because I have such a loving family and good friends, pals and buddies! Most of all, I have him.

For the past months that we've been together, I've been the most unreasonable gal that he has ever met in his whole life. I will throw tantrums and my temper at him and things are even worse during my PMS-ing period. I always think I am right and no one else is! Urghz... That made my poor dar dar in such a fix each time we quarrelled! I am sorry darling! I should have been more rational and sensitive. I will and must curb my bad temper.

He has been there all the while through my ups and downs. I am so fortunate to have such a loving, understanding and sensitive guy beside me. Thank you dar for all the support and love for me.

Midnight oil.

I've been gaining weight. I kept eating. I couldn't stop myself. That has made me suffered as a result of that! I am depressed to know that I am so fat now. I am determined to lose those weight again. But it seems hard for me to get back to my past routine! Why is that so?!??

Exams is coming soon. I am here slacking! I have got NO NO NO motivation to study! How!?

Whatever!

It was almost as if I was the one trying to heal my wounds. As I saw and hear things which I think are hurtful, even the victim wasn't me, I felt terrible! So upset. How will even the other one will think? = ( So inconsiderate.

I am PSM-ing! I sang my hearts out last night.

I tried to forget and forgive. But it still haunts me. So much disappointments in life. I wrote, "Why is it so hard to be a human being and also an adult!?" Why!? Daddy in heaven, please help me! I have lost touch with you in a while. But a recent incident has jolted me! What am I doing in my life? Did I do anything for Him??

I miss my family, Bester, buddies, pals and frenz..

I am tired.

BBSS 20th Anniversary Dinner

This is a email which I've received from Juan.. Read on and decide if you all would want to go! haa.. If yes, then we can all form a table!!

" Dear All, BBSS will be celebrating its 20th Anniversary this year. There will be a grand dinner on the 3rd Jun 2006, Sat, in BBSS school ground. Reason for holding the dinner in our school ground is because our school building will be torn down next year when our school undergo PRIME. So really, this is the last chance to come back and take photos to keep as you go down?? memory lane :) It will be held in the evening to start at about 7pm. Each ticket is $50 for ex-BBSS students who are working. For ex- BBSS students who are still studying or are in NS, school will subsidise and you just have to pay $30? :) Please contact me via e-mail to get the tickets from me. It will definitely be more fun if you can form tables (10 pax per table). Otherwise, you will have to be allocated tables to sit with other ex-BBSS students. This arrangement is still ok. After all you are all ex BBSS students. Do keep in touch and hoping to hear good news from all of you. Do spread the message and the success of the evening depends very much on how well all our ex-students support this celebration.
Rgds, Mrs Rosie Lau "

The rumour true!! The school is going to get torn down!

= (

Dar Dar didn't blog about what I gave to him for his birthday. He didn't blog anything at all. Sad. Perhaps.. Well... I don't know!

Happy 23rd Birthday!

Bester dar.. To you, I sing this song:

"Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to Bester! Happy Birthday to you!!!"

Dearie.. this is the 2nd time I'm celebrating your birthday with you. Know what? Though we only have been together for such a short period of time, I feel that we've been together for years already! Haa. =) Jus wanna wish you all the best in whatever things you do! Jia you on your studies!

Happy Birthday to Sebastian too!

Darling.. take care! =)

Something worth reading.

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated,"PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB.Sorry , I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

NO POINTING FINGERS
A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?" The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."
We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

NO OVERPOWERING
Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

RIGHT SPEECH
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without
considering if it would hurt the other party. A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you." Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION
Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up
the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will
everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will
be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is
clear..

BE PATIENT
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are
my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide. Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings
often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

Mock!

Mock at me. I was in there for 1 and a half hours trying to squeeze out whatever things I have to write 5 full pages full of words! Ha. Mock examinations. Yup. Grades not counted but I got to force myself to study for it!

It IS a good way of motivation! Really. Each time I studied hard and sit for the examinations, I know that actually I kinda know my stuff. That's surely a good sign as it shows that I was attentive during lessons for the past few months! Never let my parents' $$$ go down the drain! hee..

Ha.

Ignore my previous entry. It was out of guilty-ness that I wrote it.

But facts has proven me wrong again.

She is hurt. Badly hurt by both of you.