hehee.. Guess where I am now.. again...

hahaa... guess where I am now? Well... I'm still in sch.. waiting for my next lesson... yup... 6-9... arghz... brain is exploding soon... hahahaa... nahz... will be having the same module as this morning.. AF!!!

hmmmz... think after my exams will go and look for part time job.. n more $$$$ pay.. hahaa... working @ the childcare is really fun for me... As in I got to spend time with the cuties but the pay is way 2 low!!! N it's like when they like they'll call me up and ask me to go over... well perhaps because I around that area... jus jumped out of my room and I'll reach my working place!! hahahahaa

hmmmz... Can't wait for the exams to be over.. but for now till May.. If I dun suffer in hell.. It means that I'm not putting enuff effort in my studies... so I got to study hard!!!! arghz... Studying!!! actually I like it when I learned something out of it... but if I dread it, I'll hate it for life! hahaaa... maybe not so extreme lah!!! hahaa..

If dar dar is to come look 4 me later, I'll b veri happy.. but I guess most probably he won't be down.. he's so tired after a day's work. Even up to now.. he hasn't called me yet... it's me who msg him.. me who called him... he said he'll call back later... poor dar dar.. so busy...

haiz.. time passes so fast!!! aarghz... sianz!!!!

Guess where I am!?

at home? Sensible answer... hahaa. At Sylvester's house? well.. think again... He got to work!!! hahaa... so where the *toot* am I? hahaaa.. Come on dun stop trying!! hahaa.. keep guessing ppl!!!!

give up!? seriously!? okok... will tell ya after finished typing this sentence alrite? hahaa...oopz.. i added a few more words... Anywayz here comes the answer... *drumroll* hahaa.. I'm in... SIM!!! yes.. my school... Wondering what I'm doing here? Attending revision workshops and now is lunch break... so came down to library and rattling some noise... keyboard making loads of noise leh! hahaa.. terrible.. ppl mus be wondering what I'm doing. hahaa..

Feeling quite sianz.. and bloated.. haaa.. for tea break had this char siew chicken puff.. yummy! The most tasty teabreak I ever had.. If dar dar is here with him he would think so too! hahaa.. hmmz... okie.. I'm feeling quite sianz down here... on the note that I'm alone here! haiz.. actually not really lah.. it's better that I'm alone.. can listen attentively to the lecturer since I've got no one to talk to.. hahaa... think later got to switch places.. can't see anything from the back! Well.. I was late.. that explains why I couldn't get a best seat! hahaa...

haiz! Got to be here until 9pm wor!!! yeah.. u hear me rite! Till 9pm!!!!!!!!!!! From morning 9 till nite 9!!! Arghz... the most sianz day in my sch life! haiz..

Waiting 4 the phone to vibrate.. Indicating got msg or phone call.. but.. sad to say I haven't gotten any... Better dun msg dar dar anymore... If not he'll find me a nuisance.. hmmz.. He's rather busy nowadays.. so busy with camp stuff.. Something exciting 2 mention about... He's going to be one of the colour bearers for NDP 2005!!! yeahz.. that's a piece of good news...

haiz.. can't wait to go on a holiday.. with my dar dar.. and of course with my best buddies (the 4 pretty ladies!) and my family!!! hahaa...

Haiz... can't help but to sigh.. sorry ppl... hahaa.. :) haiz!!!!

Haiz..

oh well.. was trying to change the colour of the font.. but everything doesn't seem to go in my way... Life is extremely sianz.. Hmmmz...

Was disappointed cos tot Syl would accompany me to lecture yesterday... and since we didn't meet up last, tot it would be good if we can just chill out together... well.. sianz!

hmmmz... Went back to childcare this morning.. as usual the kids know me.. surprisingly Nic also knows my name.. hahaaa.. He's the youngest kid in the childcare... He's so so so so so so so cute! Ethan is getting a bit of hand.. always using crying as a threat! hahaa... Imagine 2 kids competiting 2 see who wails the loudest! hahaa... such a sight! Jovan threw tantrum today.. wanted Karen (my boss!) to feed him.. Spoilt him le! hmmmz.. saw a lot of new kids... n those who were in playgrp last year... are in K1 this year.. hahaa.. have seen them growing older... awww.. Can't wait 2 have a kid on my own! Can't wait not 2 study! haiz..

Talking about studies, I haven't really started on my revision yet! Veri sianz n bored!!! Didn't have the heart to revise... sian sian sianZ!!!!!

haiz! Hate my life now..

Weather is nice... perhaps can take a nice nap b4 going for evening lecture..

well well well...

as you can see.. I'm trying to change my blog skin again! haiz.. but kinda have a bit of problem here.. but it's okie!!! hahaa.. be back after my exams to improve on it!!

Hmmmz...

Well well well... where shall we start?

hahaha.. Skipped sch today! Only went to take attendance.. Do feel a bit guilty now... but that is like 2 hours after my lesson ended... hahaha...

Find that humans are veri interesting creatures... hahaa.. well at least that's what I tot so... there are so many things about us... To investigate on... our body composition... our behaviour.. actions... so on and so forth... hahaa.. yup yup!!!

Miss my church!

~ xing shang xing ~

Heart hurt heart... direct translation...

Xing shang xing tong bu tong...

wo de xing shi zai suan tong...

you yi zhong gan jue... xiang duo zai yi ge dong li de gan jue...

lei le... da jie dou lei le...

ni hai ne me de ai wo mah?

feeling...sad.. disappointed... but confused..

Hmmz...

Was watching this tv serials a few days ago and remembered this scene... the gal accidentally saw many unknown names in her bf's contacts list... She had a veri big reaction and confronted her bf... but ended up they are just the guy's clients...

hmmmz... I guess the gal was feeling sad...disappointed... n u know whaT? If the guy would have just explained it as clients and didn't show prove.. the gal may not believe him.. I assume.. Friends!? What kind of friends? Where u get to noe them?

ha... girls.. they want to know everything...

Blogger.. hahaa..

Haiz.. there are so many things that I wanna blog about.. But jus doesn't know where to start from... hmmmz... okie... let's see..

Yesterday was the veri first NDP internal practice. Army trainers weren't down for it.. so there I was shouting at the top of my voice trying to get the girls march. It's very hard for them to march smartly. It takes a lot of effort and practice for a girl to march near to prefection. Well.. Haven't seen anyone who can do drill so well that no mistakes or flaws cannot be spotted.. hahaa.. Parade RSM came down to give us moral support.. He gave us a few pointers and it was quite encouraging to see the girls improving each time they were reminded of their mistakes.. The girls are doing their best! I hope they will keep it up..

today had my POB revision... the world is veri small.. Always got to see people whom I know... Well... I'm glad that Mike wasn't really that old! hahaa.. But he did sound a bit boring...hahaa.. he wasn't that bad afterall... Ms Goh and Ms Koh joined us for the lecture... So surprised to see them in the midst of us! hahaa.. I mean they are like our lecturers and there they were, sitting in the lecture jus like one of us! Felt a bit weird at first but got used to their presence after a while... Got back my very first POB test.. and guess what!? I scored 15 out of 25.. and to get that after writing lots of crap was considered quite gd.. at least that's what my lecturer wrote on my paper.."Gd" hahaa... Feel a bit disappointed when I showed my dar the results.. He didn't seem at all excited for me...

Was sitting beside this man who can't see while on my way to Syl's house... Was wondering if he needs any form of help.. Is the aircon to cold for him? Does he need someone to tell him when he's going to alight? so many questions in my mind... Somehow, I could feel the uneasiness in him... I guess he felt lost.. I mean without vision sounds so scary to me!!! It's like I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING!! What will I be like if I suddenly ain't able to see? Will my parents, brother, Syl and friends still take care of me? I wonder how my life would be!!! Those beautiful things that God has created... I won't be able to see.. I think for a period of time.. I'll hate myself for life!!!

Syl is pigging away.. haahaa.. can't blame him.. poor him.. waited about an hour at the bus stop.. so the first person I see when I alight would be him... So sweet of him... Hey dar, if u're reading this, appreciated ur sweetness... Thank you fer helping me to buy my lunch for tml.. Thanks a lot...

Jenny was like msging me this morning that the 5 of us are gonna have a gathering soon!! Hooray!!!! It has been so long since the 5 of us go out together.. really miss those times!! awww... Used to go swimming with Carinne n Ying... Go lunching with Jen... MSN sessions with Wen... aww.. Miss them so much... Hey gals... miss everyone of u...

Also kinda miss my friends in drill com... not forgetting GB.. both 10th and 19th... and of course ROWLies... I do miss my parents now... They may be pigging away now too.. oopz.. what a word to use.. hahaa.. sorry!!!

Is this blog long enough? Did I jus say I didn't know where to start from? Hmmmz... I wonder..

About bloggin...

hahaa... actually wanna write out an essay.. but... dun have the mood to do so lah! hahaa...

anywayz... Jus feeling kinda bored.. Cos haven't started on my revision yet.. if not I will feel even more bored! haha.. oopz... Starting from tml... I'll be in sch from 9 - 5 except on friday... and this will last till sunday!!! Yeah.. u hear me rite.. SUNDAY!!!! That means my weekends are burnt!!! oh man... I tell u.. that's the most sianz thing that I've ever encountered since year 2005 started.. haiz!!!! This is just so sianz... u know?

in a while I'll be taking the train down to St Hilda's.. For internal NDP practice. M not the CC.. just helping out while Ms Angeline and Ash are busy with their work. Wondering if Jeannette would be there... hope so! hahaa...

Life is still quite good.. except for something...

STUDIES!! arghz... exams coming... yeah.. m feeling veri scared and nervous.. but I'm enjoying each revision workshop that I've been attending... Cos suddenly I felt that I've learnt so much stuff.. although I thought I didn't... haha.. that's weird... perhaps in the past I never do any practices bah...

okie lah.. enuff of me talking rubbish here... wish ya ppl have a great week ahead!!

Studies...

Hey people...

For those who are reading this blog.. Do pray for me okie? Having exams in May and papers fall on consecutive days... I've got Statistics then Math and following that would be Econs then AF!! M now slowly picking up the momentum of revising for my exams... But I'm still quite lost in Econs and AF!!!

Well well... So why m I still blogging then? hahaha.. Okie.. Was like doing Math.. and for the first time I actually know how to start doing the questions. Yupz.. FIRST time in my first year in SIM... hahaaa.. well well well... Didn't listen to my lecturer mah... That's why when I went for my revision workshop, I was veri attentive when listening to the UOL lecturer...

hmmmz.. Going to take a break for now.. Go makan!! Hungry ah!! No choice.. hahaa...

Wondering what's my dar dar doing now.. hmmmz..

Life.. Full of ups and downs..

Yupz.. that's rite! Life is full of ups and downs.. For one moment you may be veri happy.. but the next instance you'll feel so depressed and lots of sorrow jus fill up your mind...

Really want to take this time to reflect on myself... I know that there's lots of things to be improved on my character.. personality and my attitude... I'm not giving up on anything yet.. If I can lose weight why I can't I change myself too? To become a better person.. Someone who is more caring and loving...

Read a newspaper article recently... "Friends are not hotels."... You don't come in as and when you like.. To my buddies who are reading my blog... Jenny, Jing Wen, Carinne and Pei Ying... jus wanna tell you gals... Though we may all be busy with our things like sch work and stuff, but I do hope that the 5 of us will always remain as good friends.. best buddies... If you're in any kind of trouble, I'll be there for u ppl!!! Really cherish all of ya...

And to my frenz made in drill comm... Jus wanna thank all of ya for supporting one another when we're doing God's work together in GB... really appreciate for what you gals have done for me!!! Looking forward to see all of u soon...

To my beloved bf... Just want to tell you that I know I may not have done my part or put in effort in working out this relationship but I dun want to give up trying too. I'm one that doesn't believe in trying for friendship and relationship as well. Although we may have arguements and conflicts along the way, but I hope that we've learnt about each better and there be mutual understanding. Whatever I've said last night is from the bottom of my heart. And now I fear of ....... you. If God allows us to be together, and with our effort I do hope that we'll be together eventually...

May God bless me and all the people I know and love...

Felt so good...

Yupz.. I'm feeling good with God in control of my life... Kekeee...

Went for my revision workshop yesterday and have got this urge to keep on studying.. Hooray!!! hahaa... Got to find some place for me to really sit down and revise for my exams in May.. hahaa... Well.. you see... Home isn't a good choice as it has got many distractions... Like the internet, TV.. and of course staying at home would make me put on weight cos I'll keep eating..

Kekeee.. But by going out would meant I'll have to spend money.. M trying to save up.. My bank account is getting dry.. oopz.. terrible!!!

Ah choo... keep sneezing not because I've got a flu... maybe due to the dust or something.. arghz..

Just wanna wish all who are reading my blog to have a wonderful weekend!!! : )

Cramps!!!

Arghz...

I'm having PMS again... and cramps starting now!!! help!!!

Hot...Steamy...Sticky...

Enough of my sian-ness and sigh-ness...

Went over to the childcare just now.. and guess what? The kids gave me a warm welcome by shouting my name.. hahaa... Guess they all miss me a bit huh? hehehe... Anywayz... saw a few kids who are new and they are so nuaghty lah!!! Perhaps they were at the monterssori only for a few days.

The weather was so hot! But couldn't switch on the air conditioner just to cut the operational cost of centre.. hahaaa... We all couldn't take it... the kids too are so fustrated and easily irriated due to the hot and humid weather!!! It's so hot!!!

Arghz.. Well.. I'm now in my own room... feeling tired..hot..and sticky!!! but think gonna cool down in another few mintues.. hope so! Did I mention that I'm hungry too?

I'm disappointed in certain things... Can't seem to get over it!

haiz...

Everyone seems to be busy with their exams and stuff.. So am I! Thank God that my revision workshops didn't fall on those dates that I've got other committments... I'm tired... When I'm doing something, I would want to finish it fast and good.. and if it's over days then I can get it done... I'll drag to do it.. Cos I hate to drag things on...

~ LIFE ~

hmmmz.. so what exactly is life? Alrite.. I'm not going to start the laming thingie again!! hahaa.. jus pondering over this question.. That's all..

Attended Melody's wedding last Sat... She's my "nu er".. hahaa.. She calls me "mummy"... Dun get it all wrong... hahaa.. well.. my class then, 2e4, was playing this family line game.. hahaa.. I was mommy of other people.. we got grandmother.. I've got 4 sisters.. Got nieces.. and before u know it.. This game is extended to other classes too.. N I've got a great granduncle.. haha.. All these are so fun.. haiz.. Sec sch dayz.. how I miss them!!! Not much of the worries? Maybe just studies? hahaa.. yeah...

Back to Mel's wedding.. She was the most beautiful bride on that day, I tell u.. She's so pretty!! yeah... I do envy her.. Getting married at my age may seem to be very early... But her husband is able to support her and give her a stable life.. and I pray that they will have a blessed family.. Can't wait for Mel to have lotsa children.. and by the time we got married.. hahaa.. She'll be bringing her kids over! It's so so so so so so so so fun! yeah...

*yaWn* quite tired.. jus got home.. yesterday was at Syl's house till about 11+.. then he came over.. and this morning drove him from RELC to Nee Soon Camp.. and there I saw my sec sch mate, Fizan..He couldn't recongnise me.. Saying that I've slimmed down a lot.. hahaa.. But after eating the chicken wing and curry puff jus now would have made me gain quite a bit of weight..

Hmmmz.. These few months will be quite busy... with many committments.. Mom's bday is coming.. hmmmz... Wonder what I'm going to buy for her.. or where should we bring her to... yeahz...

Dar Dar's birthday...

6th March 2005
Celebrated the twins birthday with a strawberry cake that was bought by Charmaine, Sylvester's twin brother's wife-to-be. It tasted so yummy!!! Veri yummy indeed.. jus that I dun like raisins.. hehee.. but the not so creamy cake doesn't make us put on much weight..

8th March 2005
Celebrated my dar dar's birthday with him, and me alone... Heheee.. I bought a strawberry cake.. heart shape from Breadtalk.. (Bought for him once when we celebrated our monthly "anniverysary".. We were @ JP and he was still in OCS then.. ahhh.. Memories.. ) Asked the 7-11 Auntie to help me with the surprise... Told her that a guy wearing black tee would b coming 2 buy a drink and she was to help me pass the flower that I had bought for Syl... Ended up she had completely forgotten about it.. but Syl still got the surpise in the end.. Went for pasta @ this restaurant @ Yishun... oh manz.. The food was good! Except that the service wasn't up to my expectation.. hahaa.. but it's okie..

9th March 2005
Celebrated my dar dar's birthday on the actual day with his poly mates.. Thanks to Karen and Leslie who helped in calling people up... Went Swensen.. Another surprise was given to him when the Nutella cake was presented. It tasted yummy.. heheee.. okie lah.. Everything seems yummy and tasty to me rite? hehehee.. Cos I'm a glutton... oopz.. Went Party World after the dinner.. and another gal name Honey (dunno how to spell the name..) came to wish Syl Happy Birthday 2... well.. I felt veri threatened.. I mean she's such a beautiful lady.. and with such captivating beauty.. That explains why I felt so uneasy.. anywayz.. I keep telling myself not to think about anything.. but oh well.. Jealousy got over me eventually.. arghz.. kekekee.. Think Syl enjoyed himself.. and oh yah.. Did I mention he kenna sabo by his army guys with flour and water.. hahaa.. Think Syl enjoyed himself thoroughly.. N I happy to hear that from him...

10th March 2005
Hmmmz.. something bad happen.. Dar dar's tooth hurts.. Went to see a dentist and found out that a full root canal treatment is needed for the pain to completely go away.. But that would cost at least $400-$500 when you visit a private dentist... Another option given would be going for partial root canal treatment and to be put on the waiting list for the army dental... Or Syl can bear with the pain while waiting to be treated by the army dentist.. hmmmz.. but seeing him suffer pains my heart.. I'm so helpless.. Can't help to ease his pain but all I can do is to pray for him... Jus hope that he'll get well soon...

11th March 2005
Ooopz.. nothing much to blog about.. hahahaa.. Maybe later? hehehee.. kekee..

~ So sweet ~

ahhhhz.. was looking at the kids from my room window... and guess what? The kids REMEMBERED me!!! ahz... They called me.. "Jasmine jie jie" awwww... so sweet!!! They are really cute!!! Jovan still looked the same but with longer hair.. Christopher looked so cheerful today.. and Ethan.. He's more vocal.. Not so dao anymore.. hahaa.. awww.. and there's Lynnette..
She looked to sweet and pretty...

heheee..really missed those kids! hahaa.. haiz! hehehee.. Supposed to go back to the childcare and help out this morning.. but boss called to say she can manage with another part timer's help so here I m. blogging away.. Really miss those little children.. They are all so naive and innocent.. and so so so so so so so so so so so so cute!! Simply love the little young ones! awwww...

I wanna have kids of my own too... hehee.. well.. Kinda early to say it now.. cos I'm still schooling.. rite? hahaha.. yah.. I noe..

Jus now daddy was so excited about this equipment that can test your sugar level in your blood.. and needless to say.. My dad did the test on me 2!! Ai yo.. It's like testing what blood type u're from.. u noe using a small needle to poke it in my finger.. hahaa... hurts a bit.. like an ant biting my middle finger.. hahaa.. and the result was shown on the screen.. 6.7!! It's above the ideal level.. but still acceptable.. N my daddy was like telling me.. "You better stop taking sweet stuff.. Dun always say me ah..hahaa.."

hehee.. n my mommy.. she said, "Hey u.. better eat ah.. dun slim down some more.. cannot see your butt already!!!" hahahaa.. diaoz rite? heheee.. my brother is going to take the Advance thoery today.. N guess pretty soon he's gonna take TP.. hahahaa.. Feel so happy for him.. He said he changed gear veri fast and good.. and drives quite fast.. His instructor got to tell him to slow down a little.. hahaa.. so funny... But once he passed his driving test.. it would mean another person to fight with me for the car! hahaa.. oopz..

Know why I'm still typing in this blog? Cos I dun wanna study! hahaa.. okie lah.. I know I'm naughty rite? But doing my revision is kinda bored to me.. well well well.. hehee.. okie lah.. will start work at about 10? alrite! shan't blog anymore..

take care dudes.. erm.. oopz..

I'm getting fatter!

Ai yo yo.. die ah.. these few months have been eating non stop.. and now I'll have to bear the conseuqences.. which is the effect of excess input - putting on weight!!!! ahhhhhhz.. Help help help help help!!! hahaa..

Was doing my quiet time this morning.. and guess what.. It's talking about BOREDOM.. we, as humans, always complain about we have and not things that we dun have... haiz.. God is good enough to give us provision and we should be thankful for that.. Thank you Lord.. for giving me so many wonderful things..

hmmmmz.. jus dun wanna get down to work.. erm.. I mean my revision? hehee.. Cos I'm feeling bored! hahaa.. oopz.. nopez.. it's because I jus have this urge of typing.. haiz..

Death...

Saw a funeral at Syl's void deck.. and the Buddha chanting rattled into my ears.. This brought me memories.. Of what I had gone through during my 3 grandparents' funerals.. How I saw my grandmother lying in the coffin.. How I saw my grandfather had his last breath.. I could take it.. Cos after all..they are not that close to me.. but I was quite sad when my mommy's mom died.. cos she was the closest to me.. compared to the other grandparents..

I can't imagine my parents.. well.. choy!!! u noe? haiz..

Humans...

hey hey.. Haiz.. Think as I grow older.. I tend to think and analyze more.. arghz..

Human beings.. haiz.. Each of is veri different from one another.. Even if you are a twin.. Your personality, your taste may still differ a bit.. hmmmz.. Tat's because each of us is created by Him uniquely.. yupz..

I dun like to put a false front... but the world is such... is full of pretendecy (oopz.. copied from Jen.) and ignorance.. haiz.. that's the truth.. the only person we can't hide from would be God.. Since His our creator.. He knows everything about us.. yeah.. haiz...

noe wat? We human beings are actually veri hard to statisfy.. and also hard to get along with.. Not like God who can love each of us.. no matter who we are..what we do.. and although we're sinners.. HE sent His only beloved Son to Earth to redeem for our sins.. Thank Him for that.. Amen..

haiz.. Humanz..

Hungry...

Not m i feeling physically hungry.. I'm also spiritually hungry.. Yes I'm hungry and thirsty for His love, grace and words..

Jus realised that my mock papers are actually all clustered on this week.. arghz.. Consequence of not checking my schedule properly! hahaa.. N I actually asked Jenny out!!! Oh dear.. hahaa.. hopefull I've got enough time to study for my exams! I hope.. N I'm praying.. hehee..

Syl is busy with his work again.. hehee.. N I'm busy with sch.. yup yup!!!

Haiz! Sianz!!!