wow.. yup yup... It's xmas!!! N in another 12 hours.. I'll be saying merry xmas!!! hahahhaa.. alrite alrite.. thinking a bit too far already rite? hahahhaa...
well.. xmas eve isn't exactly that joyous for me.. Jus felt so stressed up... had my fringe trimmed but it looks so sucky now!!! I want back my fringe... Yesterday was even a bad day for me.. @ least for me I would think so... The rest of u may think that mine is jus a small matter.. yupz.. nvm lah.. here's a place for me to write my hearts out rite? hahahhaa...
Busy day.. went to sch.. came back home.. went IMM n get those BBQ stuff... went back home.. was so tired after that... evening went for that stupid hair trim... went to meet syl.. but forgotten to bring my ezlink card... wanted to buy the farecard but dun have enough coins.. went to a lady and she had this smirk look.. n shaked her head... then went to another lady but she doesn't have? then how u provide change to your customers!?? went to buy bread so that I can have some coins.... 10 cent dropped onto the floor.. by then I was already on the verge of tears...
I know that guys dun like their gf to pull a long face in front of them! I'm sorry I did that last nite and this morning... I jus need a shoulder to cry on.. someone that I can pour to... a listening ear is all I needed... I didn't expect u to cheer me up or anything... nothing of that I want... There's something wrong with my hearing I know!!! I also know that it's so irritating when ppl can't hear you and keep huh huh huh huh... Sorry... I didn't mean to!! Sometimes ppl are like talking so fast.. and their low voice.. it's hard to catch what they are saying.. especially when I'm thinking of something... It's equally irritating when someone talked to you or asked ya questions and u dun answer.. sometimes ppl did that to me too...
On my walk to Semb MRT.. got this stupid idiot, a malay, cycled past and said," wah..so big!" shux!!!! Hated it.. I cried... B4 that I was already full of stress... why do ppl wanna tease me!? Wanted to give Jenny a call.. but will she find me irritating.. make it seemed as if only got problems then I'll go to her... yes.. I dun want my buddies to have that idea! I mean I haven't been spending enough time with them... So who do I go to pour out all my problems? tell piglet? I would want to...
I dun listen to ppl.. I'm stubborn! U think what u say what u do is always rite, Jasmine? Who do u think you are!??? What I can't do dun expect others to fulfil them too... Jasmine wake up!!!!!!!!!! I'm already veri awake.. jus feeling tired.. no strength.. veri sianz.. What's life?
God created me in His image.. I know... He sent me down for a purpose.. I know that too.. God! U there rite? What do u wan me to do? Serve my friends? My parents?
M i rude? Sorry.. Father in heaven.. sorry... Syl.. sorry... Jenny..sorry... Carinne..sorry... Pei Ying..sorry.. Jing Wen...sorry.... rowlies... sorry... my parents, my brother..sorry sorry... drill com ppl...sorry sorry sorry... to all ppl I know.. I'm sorry if I've irritated in a way or another...
Sorry sorry sorry sorry!!! SORRY PPL!!!!!!
Okie.. from now on.. I'll smile!! Come on!!! u can do it!!!! yeahz.... haiz..
1 comment:
dear dear.. no one said the world is made of nice ppl.. anyway if someone were to come up to me wif a $5 note n asked me for small change, n if i were busy rushing off somewhere or doing something, i would say no too.. they were busy working dear... u prob chose the wrong ppl to ask.. next time try asking those who seem more free, like waiting for someone, or standing around.. higher probability.. =)
den for the malay guy, i know uve faced this problem b4... u know that if i was there i would flare up n prob whack the guy up.. but i wasnt there.. next time juz ignore.. i know how irritating it can be.. but dun cry for him... juz treat him as some immature, pathetic prick k? n if u feel pissed off, juz msg me or call me.. for something so serious, ill definitely be there to console ya k?
lastly abt the long face thingie.. if the whole nite u juz sulked n after i made u laugh u still continue 2 sulk, telling me its always for many different reasons, how i know when itll all end? n if u pour ur problems, when did i not console n lend a listening ear? its cos u never bother to share ur problems.. always keep to urself.. dats y ppl around u cant help u.. only know ure not happy.. so better leave u alone.. yup yup..
anyway hope u can be more open abt ur problems if u wan me to help.. haiz.. =)
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