Sigh.

Stressed. Nervous. Depressed.

But neither of these feelings I have has made me to be more disciplined in my daily revision. I will give myself hundreds of reasons why I should procrastinate and study later. What am I doing? Sigh. Even at this point of time, I am telling myself that I have to study but why am I typing in front of the com screen?

One of the things I learnt after watching "Da Chang Jin" is that a person will change unknowingly in the situation he/she is in. I believe so that I have changed a lot from the past few months. I have become less chatty and bubbly in front of some people. These changes may or not be beneficial for myself. The only thing I feel consoled is that I can definitely by myself in front of God. He knows inside out who I am. He knows what is happening to me as it is all pre planned by the Almighty one. I am reaching out for His love and strength that I will be able to pull through during this period.

I think there are few who will read my blog once in a while. But how many come with a good intention of just wanting to know what is going on with my life and whether I'm living well? Sigh. Not all, I guess. That was the dream I had been talking about. I always thought the life would always be smooth sailing and people will behave and respond in a good manner. Am I being a perfectionist in my ideas? Ha. I'm definitely not one when it comes to the real world.

Impact. Sigh.