We have a dream that is to have the most perfect happy fairytale kind of life till the day we end our mission on this worldly world! I wanted to be the that successful working mother, to a couple of lovely children, and a wife that my husband will be proud of. This dream we thought could be fulfilled if we work hard, continue to upgrade ourselves, and continue to work even harder and be really focused on our own career, and to climb up the corporate ladder.
It was soon put to a halt, when Sarah, our little warrior, came into our lives and changes our lives completely. The norm isn't applicable to us anymore. We are being called upon as the special needs parents because Sarah has many more medical challenges compared to a normal child. We struggle to grapple what was happening from the start.
However I knew at that point in time, my focus would be on Sarah. I was "confined" to home to become a full-time caregiver, nursing and taking care of our little warrior all around the clock. Future seemed bleak as we didn't know what was to come in future. We kept asking God, "Why Sarah? Why us?".
It was not easy "breezing" through her first year of life, but thankfully, with full support from other caregivers and fellow parents, and especially the love from our family, we threw the heavy baggage of sadness and disappointment and moved on. Positivity started building up, but of course with a few stones hurled at us here and there during our journey as the special needs family. At the same time, there was this unspoken kind of tension accumulating in us that made us perceived ourselves as victims for whatever that was happening.