We have a dream that is to have the most perfect happy fairytale kind of life till the day we end our mission on this worldly world! I wanted to be the that successful working mother, to a couple of lovely children, and a wife that my husband will be proud of. This dream we thought could be fulfilled if we work hard, continue to upgrade ourselves, and continue to work even harder and be really focused on our own career, and to climb up the corporate ladder.
It was soon put to a halt, when Sarah, our little warrior, came into our lives and changes our lives completely. The norm isn't applicable to us anymore. We are being called upon as the special needs parents because Sarah has many more medical challenges compared to a normal child. We struggle to grapple what was happening from the start.
However I knew at that point in time, my focus would be on Sarah. I was "confined" to home to become a full-time caregiver, nursing and taking care of our little warrior all around the clock. Future seemed bleak as we didn't know what was to come in future. We kept asking God, "Why Sarah? Why us?".
It was not easy "breezing" through her first year of life, but thankfully, with full support from other caregivers and fellow parents, and especially the love from our family, we threw the heavy baggage of sadness and disappointment and moved on. Positivity started building up, but of course with a few stones hurled at us here and there during our journey as the special needs family. At the same time, there was this unspoken kind of tension accumulating in us that made us perceived ourselves as victims for whatever that was happening.
1 comment:
Hi Jasmine, Thanks for sharing and being real. I may not fully understand your position but to a certain extend. No one will know how we feel bcos they do not walk the shoes we are in. All my life i also have a dream. A dream to build a home with the happy fairy tales elements or at least a normal one. And also the belief that when you treat others sincerely, they will do likewise. As in how how bad can the people around be when you treat the sincerely. But 2 years ago, this dream broke. And i was at one of the deepest valleys. it was so difficult and painful. It wasn't the usual 3rd party that came in the pic. it was something far more complicate and I had to protect the kids and myself. The truth was devastating. Just wanted to let you know you are so strong and so amazing. The love, the tenacity you have for the family and your faith. You are an encouragement. Thanks for being yourself!
- Love fellow mummy
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