Mood swing is here...

I felt so easily irritated nowadays.. Sorry mom.. Think I've thrown temper on u.. But u're always so understanding.. Thanks Mom (although u won't b reading this.. but.. ) Oh no.. it's finally here again... the stupid mood swing... Following that will be.. haiz.. cramps... Hopefully it doesn't come on my first day of school...

I'm feeling so... i dunno how to describe that kind of feeling.. maybe scared? Confused? nervous? Dad is like going to be 60 next year... mom is around that age too... It's like they're getting older n older every minute... N I've not been good to them! They have taken care of me for so many years! They didn't even complain or anything... Jasmine, what have u done in return? U didn't do well in ur O n A levels... Get into not so good SIM... U only know how to enjoy and play all the time... Didn spend much time with your parents but keep running about... Like what mom said.. treat ur home like hotel huh? Oh mine! What is this, gal?

(irritating.. Lucky is barking!!! arghz.. stop that! if not...Thanks mom.. 4 scolding the dog..)

N the most important thing is... They haven't received Jesus in their hearts yet.. which means they're not going to heaven.. n that means I'm not going to meet them there? Oh no!!! No wayz... But.. what m i going to do.. I'm so scared... so afraid...

I'm afraid of being hurt again too.. Much too afraid.. Will it end up like the last one? One month? or I'm someone that he doesn't like n leave me after 2 years? I'm suddenly feeling so insercure n everything.... Is it because of the hormonal change that's happening inside my body?

I guess so.. haiz! I feel so... God? where are u?

Oh yah.. I dun feel feverish anymore.. the antbodies inside me has lost the battle.. N I'm having the sore throat!