I'm feeling so.. Yucky now! That's not the way I m... What has gotten into my mind? Why m i going crazy over ...
God is love... We are love 2 since we're created in God's image.. But I'm beginning to hate myself. I can't seem to b in closer relationship with God.. Cos I chosen not to, rite? Yes... I'm disappointing God again n again.. I've forsaken Him.. But he hasn't.. (I felt like cyring.. It's my only way of venting off my fustrations n everything!)
The more I try to let know others about myself.. The more it turned them off.. We should always tell the truth isn't it??..
I'm sitting down.. Rethinking about my whole life again.. What's His purpose for me? M i supposed to stay on in the ministry... God help me! I can't seem to be connected to u!
If i can't even love myself, why talk about loving others? I only turn ppl off.. I'm jus a sucky person! N ppl listen up, I'm not trying to gain sympathy here.. If u think I m, then jus be it! Should I make this blog a private thingie? I think I should!
M i trying to run away from Him? Yes I m.. in a way... I'm tired of everything... tired... Jus tired...
I knelt down n prayed.. God was there.. He has used the circumstance once again to bring me back to Him. I felt so.. I mus lay everything down for Him.. I mus b obedient to Him. If God says no, it means no! Yupz?
6 comments:
thanks Gal.. hahaha.. :)
Understand how u feel... sometimes feel that way too...
All i can say is, rest in God's arms... Tho we may feel so inferior, so unlovely... yet God sees differently. He sees the potential in us, He sees wat we can do...
Like meng ru always says, Daddy isn't far away. He's just beside u, right here, right now... :)
And ya, as u begin to rest in His arms & seek His face, His glory will just radiate frm u... and u'll be like David, who was able to make Saul feel better, because God's presence was with David... :) 1 Sam 16:23
When God says no, it's always just coz He has something better in mind for us dear...:)
Hey Joey.. Thank u for your encouragement! :) Miss ya pal.. :0
wahhh.. somebody using my tai2 ci2! yar lah.. whatever i've said, i've said already ok? :) be a good girl! hahaha.. like what ms joyce said @ captains' meeting hor.. don't get easily involved in ****** hahahah
yupz!! I'm back... to do more of God's Business.. hahahaa.. GB stuf.. hehehee. :)
jas.. know how u felt.. i m still fighting against this like right now!!! feel that God hasnt been there kinda thing! but dun worry.. cos no matter wad.. we will still come back with the fact that HE IS THERE!!! just that we can be blinded by some things now... HOLD ON IF U FEEL LIKE LETTING GO K!! that's wad i have in my mind now.. hang on!! i m going through this with u!!!! still have God there!!! HE WILL CARRY U THROUGH!!!
*u nv update le ah??
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